//request: Kol finds out you flipped your switch and helps you flip it back on and you end up kissing and yeah. you can take it from there //
[song lyrics are from Halsey {Gasoline} ]
“are you deranged like me? are you strange like me? lighting matches jusy to swallow up the flames like me? do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me?” you sang and danced around the Mikaelson house. you were hanging out Klaus and he was on the phone in the next room.
Klaus was your best friend. You’ve been running around with him since he started chasing Katerina Petrova. he didn’t mind you being around with your humanity off because unlike SOME PEOPLE - cough cough the Salvatores cough cough - he could keep up.
“brother!?” you heard a voice call out. you sprinted into the other room and stopped in front of the new visitor. “oh. hi Y/N. is Niklaus home?“
“hi Kol.” you smiled. “yeah he’s home. buuuut im much more fun.” you teased, running your fingers over his arm.
“while I’m sure you are,” he commented and swallowed hard. “i need to speak with my brother.” he said and pushed past you. you liked Kol. a lot. and just cause your humanity was off, didn’t mean you weren’t attracted to him. he. was. HOT.
you groaned and rolled your eyes. you were bored and wanted Kol to be your play thing. you weren’t giving up easily because, to put it lightly you were assertive and aggressive and you got what you wanted. always. humanity or not. and that just happened to be Kol at the moment.
“Kol Mikaelson. don’t ignore me.” you said assertively and he froze in his tracks. “exactly. now get back here and let’s have a little fun.” you added and crossed your arms.
he turned around and looked at you. well, more like studied you. his eyes followed the curve of your body. he traced the outline of muscle on your stomach. his eyes trailed all the way down your legs and then back up. you smirked as his eyes roamed all over your body.
“who ARE you?” he asked plainly. “cause you are NOT the Y/N i remember.” he shook his head and walked away.
you sprinted over to him and pushed him against the wall. “no, I’m not. that version of me. that needy, clingy, emotional wreck version of myself is… taking a vacation.” you smirked as your arms snaked around his neck. “so why don’t you get acquainted with the new me?”
“you flipped your switch…” he commented quietly.
“and she’s much more fun.” Klaus added from the doorway. “don’t you think brother?”
“do you mind Nik!?” you yelled and he chuckled. “go bother someone else!”
you heard the door shut so you turned back to Kol. his eyes were showing sadness and disbelief. -god those emotions used to suck- you thought to yourself.
“Y/N…” he said softly. “what have you become?”
“I’m better this way.” you assured him. “I’m not so… emotional!” you giggled and felt him remove your arms from his neck. -okay, that hurt- you thought.
“you may think so but i don’t Darling.” he shook his head and sat on the couch. he leaned forward, putting his elbows on his knees. “i loved you the way you were. you were perfect and full of life and loving and caring and…” he sighed. “you were perfect the way you were… why would you think this is better?”
you looked at your feet and shut your eyes. -he couldn’t be right… could he? weeeell, Kol knew you so well. if he thought you were better with your humanity…- you thought and then you let it all back in. you felt your eyes start to water and you felt your emotions coming back. everything you did, every life you took, everyone you hurt comes rushing at you. the disappointment and sadness in Kols eyes when he looked at you. “Kol..” you murmured and looked back up at him before your pain overwhelmed you.
you fell to your knees and covered your face with your hands. “oh my god. I’m a- I’m a monster. i can’t- i can’t believe i did that.” you continued mumbling to yourself when you felt two arms wrap around you.
“it’s okay Love. we all do bad things. that doesn’t make us bad people. don’t beat yourself up Darling.” Kol whispered softly, stroking your arm.
you looked up at him and wiped your eyes. “did you mean that?” you croaked out. “do you- well did you really love me?”
he smiled softly. “i did and i still do.“
you grabbed his face and pulled it to yours. your lips crashed and fell into perfect sync. you climbed into his lap and his hands slid up the back of your thighs.
you lifted your body onto your knees and his head tilted back to keep from breaking the kiss. his hands continued to rise until they found the bare skin of your midriff.
you pulled away and pushed him into his back. his hands fell lazily above his head and his hair was adorably disheveled from you tugging and running your fingers through it.
“i love you Kol Mikaelson. i always have.” you said sweetly, leaning forward with your hands on his chest. your lips met his softly and he smiled.
“i love you Y/N Y/L/N. and i always will.” he said, his lips only a few centimeters from yours.
“but what i don’t love…” you added. “is this shirt.” you said and sat up straight.
“what do you mean?” he asked with scrunched eyebrows.
“it’d be better if it was, oh i don’t know,,, off?” you smirked and winked at him.
he smirked back and peeled away his shirt. “better?” he asked, relaxing his arms behind his head.
you planted a soft kiss on his chest. “definitely.”