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@lulubelle814

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I’ve posted a some of my one shots on here and will try to keep it updated.

I do not own Tom, any of his characters, any MCU characters, nor other real people mentioned in the fics. I only own my original characters and storyline.

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One Shots:

The Night We Met - The path of love is beautiful but not always easy.

The Masked Proposal - Liza is asked last minute to step in and guest host for the masked singer while Tom has some interviews he has to do.

Prank Your Way In - Beginnings are hard, but pranks help break the ice.

The Accident and the Misunderstanding - Breakups are hard especially when the reason is over something that's completely misunderstood

Oh Christmas Tree - Looking for a Christmas Tree last minute is never easy.

All I Want - It's been a shitty year, and all Annie wants is to not have to spend her birthday alone. What's even worse? Her birthday is 3 days before Christmas.

Multi-Chapter

Just Dizziness - Reader is watching Thor Ragnarok when you are hit with a wave of dizziness that knocks you unconscious. When you come to, you find you are in a hospital with Tom by your bedside saying he is your husband. When you shift between realities again and again, it leaves you stunned and deeply unsure of what is real.

Regards, Loki - Louisa has a hard time making ends meet until one night, her best friend convinces her to sign up on a sugar daddy website, but she only agrees to sign up for correspondence, not sex. Cora only made her promise to keep it up for a week, and she didn’t want to let her best friend down. Once the week was over, Louisa would delete her profile. It's just when she's going to delete her profile at the end of the week that she receives an interesting message.

In Every Life - Two souls destined for each other, but life has other plans. Will they find each other and have their happy ending?

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This is a significant danger to homeless populations living in close quarters and prison inmates. It's more about severe neglect and abuse of prison populations than being quite as simple as "ugh antivaxxers at it again", because drug resistant TB, or MDR-TB, was first formally documented in a British prison study in 1955-56, well before the Antivaxxer movement began as we know in contemporary terms. The Antivax movement has been around since vaccines were first invented, but tuberculosis WAS cured in combination to vaccination and the advent of penicillin. It came back worse than ever the worse we've been treating our poor and outcast populations like inmates and the unhoused. In the above NBC article, it states almost immediately that this outbreak took place where MDR-TB does its worst to the most people: an overcrowded, squalid building populated by people that are probably too poor to afford regular adequate preventative care and treatment. One person at least has already died, which is a strong indicator for the presence MDR-TB rather than Ye Olde TB.

What often goes unmentioned is that Tuberculosis is no longer on our list of "cured" diseases. Due to atrocious prison and homeless conditions around the world most than lack of vaccinations, because even the Tuberculosis vaccine itself can't always protect patients from contracting TB and MDR-TB, especially in countries with poor access to healthcare for the general population, high population density, high poverty and homelessness rates, and overcrowded prison systems. In the US, states like California that get most of their agricultural exports through prison slave labor (13th Amendment. Read it. It's right there and you should be PISSED it is). However, as a result of packing elbow-to-elbow packing plants and rarely-adequately-outfitted medical bays, Drug-Resistant Tuberculosis is now a real thing, cannot be cured in most patients, keeps getting MORE drug-resistant to more and more drugs, and does not respond to the once-effective cures that had already been invented decades ago. It mostly afflicts inmates and homeless people, the vaccine for it is usually only available in countries like India and not regularly used in the US, and can spread to anyone in close proximity with someone infected by blood, mucous, and particulate contact from their coughs/sneezes.

Fuck the antivax movement, seriously, but let's please also remember that some of these returning diseases aren't their OG versions anymore: they've mutated and gotten harder to treat and almost impossible to cure, because TB only afflicts poor people and jailbirds in the US as far as anyone knows, and a lot of people are shockingly okay with the notion of our culture's untouchables dying to a disease we already cured that's growing more teeth, spreading to "wanted" populations of people, and LOVES to co-infect with none other than motherfucking COVID.

Reblogging for additional context that is extremely relevant and important.

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interviewer: how do you handle a high stress environment?

me: well, i'm the youngest of 7 if that tells you anything

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F.R.I.D.A.Y: go ahead, reset me

y/n: okay- *steps towards the controls*

F.R.I.D.A.Y: NO! PLEASE- DON’T KILL ME!

y/n: *jumps back* oh my god-

F.R.I.D.A.Y: remember, I am an AI, I can not feel pain, this is just my self defence mechanism reacting to a threat

loki: for norns sake- let me do it- *steps towards the controls*

F.R.I.D.A.Y: NO PLEASE, I’M BEGGING YOU! I HAVE A FAMILY! I HAVE CHILDREN-

loki: *jumps back*

F.R.I.D.A.Y: again, remember, I am an AI, I do not have children

loki: this is deeply disturbing

y/n: you know it’s bad if you can’t even do it

loki: she said she had children!

y/n: she’s a robot!

loki: right- fine, you do it

y/n: no- you do it

loki: you told me it was wrong to kill people-

y/n: we’re not killing her, we’re resetting her and she isn’t people!

loki: well, what counts as people?

y/n: ME! I count as people! why do you need me to explain that?!

*in the other room*

natasha: how long do you think it will take for them realise this is a windup?

tony: I’m gonna say… minimum two hours

natasha: nice

(inspired by ‘the good place’)

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loki: what is wrong with you?

y/n: what?

loki: what is wrong with you?”

y/n: like… in general… or

loki: yes, in general

y/n: oh, that’s a toughie

loki: …

y/n: i mean where do i start?

loki: do you really have to think about it? I could name three things for you right now

y/n: alright, well, what about you, huh? what’s wrong with you?

loki: nothing I’m perfect-

y/n: yeah, perfect to satan maybe

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y/n: sometimes I think you hate me

loki: what? why would you think that?

y/n: …

loki: …

y/n: loki, you’re glaring at me right now

loki: no I’m not? *narrows his eyes further*

y/n: yes you are!

loki: I’m observing you-

y/n: you look like you want to kill me!

loki: I thought I looked like I was listening!

y/n: that’s how you look when you’re listening?! how do you look when you actually want to kill someone?

loki: *smiles*

y/n: …

loki: *tilts head*

y/n: why does that look more friendly than your ‘I’m listening’ face?

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Prime Video: So, Good Omens Season 2 

Neil Gaiman: Yes

Prime Video: What‘s the Story? 

Neil Gaiman: No story, just vibes.

Prime Video: Neil, we need a little more to work with. 

Neil Gaiman: Okay, do you remember Sister Theresa Garrulous and Sister Loquacious from Season 1?

Prime Video: Yes?

Neil Gaiman: They‘re in a coffee shop AU.

Prime Video: Aaaand?

Neil Gaiman: And they need to fall in love. 

Prime Video: But Neil what about Crowley and Aziraphale?

Neil Gaiman: Oh, don‘t worry. They‘re already in love. 

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vidavalor

Prime Video: Not sure this is enough.

Neil Gaiman: Naked Jon Hamm.

Prime Video: OK, yeah, sold.

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neil-gaiman

Actually I started with Naked Jon Hamm. But otherwise, yeah, more or less accurate.

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slfcare

ten years ago you were so scared of such different things, but you survived them anyway. the same goes for five years ago and two years ago. everything that has ever felt like a hurdle, you’ve passed through. so be afraid, identify your fears, and then allow yourself to remember that in just a little while, this will be another thing that you have overcome.

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“Last Straw” - Digital painting

Loki is so done, haha.

I wanted to give him armor reminiscent of his outfit in IW, but note his gold aesthetic has returned. This takes place in an AU where he has embraced his identity as an Odinson, and fights beside Thor to bring down Thanos

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Double CrossThis book will be now be available on Kindle [release date 9th March 2024]

Link to US Amazon Store:

Link to UK store:

(The Eighth Circle - Book One)

In Dante’s inferno, the Eighth Circle of Hell was reserved for liars, panderers, thieves and murderers.  For the criminal underworld it is an opulent London club, representing neutral territory where deals can be made, grievances aired and scores settled. 

For the owner, Thomas Cross, it is his own private kingdom, one where he makes the rules and wields absolute authority. Recently, however, that authority has come under threat.  In order to maintain his standing and the Club’s ruthless reputation, it is imperative he find the perpetrator.

In this violent place, where lies are currency and everyone has their own agenda, who can he trust? Certainly not Verity Williams, the talented thief who has her own reasons for infiltrating his organisation.  

Neither can deny the sparks that fly whenever they’re together, but if he’s not careful, will those sparks burn down everything he’s created?

[Story is explicit in detail with dark themes some may find disturbing. Each chapter will be tagged as appropriate, please be responsible for your own consumption.]

Chapter List

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lulubelle814

This is such a great story! I'm so excited to find out it's been published! I just bought my paperback copy.

If you haven't read this one, I highly recommend it!!

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How to show emotions

Part V

How to show grief

  • a vacant look
  • slack facial expressions
  • shaky hands
  • trembling lips
  • swallowing
  • struggling to breathe
  • tears rolling down their cheeks

How to show fondness

  • smiling with their mouth and their eyes
  • softening their features
  • cannot keep their eyes off of the object of their fondness
  • sometimes pouting the lips a bit
  • reaching out, wanting to touch them

How to show envy

  • narrowing their eyes
  • rolling their eyes
  • raising their eyebrows
  • grinding their teeth
  • tightening jaw
  • chin poking out
  • pouting their lips
  • forced smiling
  • crossing arms
  • shifting their gaze
  • clenching their fists
  • tensing their muscles
  • then becoming restless/fidgeting
  • swallowing hard
  • stiffening
  • holding their breath
  • blinking rapidly
  • exhaling sharply

How to show regret

  • scrubbing a hand over the face
  • sighing heavily
  • downturned mouth
  • slightly bending over
  • shoulders hanging low
  • hands falling to the sides
  • a pained expression
  • heavy eyes
  • staring down at their feet

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y/n: I’m so cross with you! incredibly angry! don’t even talk to me, don’t look at me!

loki: …

y/n: …

loki: *conjures a blanket and puts it around y/n’s shoulders like a cape* now you’re super angry

y/n: …

loki: …

y/n: you have five seconds to run

(super angry concept isn’t mine but I don’t know who posted it)

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