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laurie blackburn

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"learning to hate you as a self-defense mechanism"(#83)
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I'll probably get to replies & starters tonight or tomorrow ,,

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           “don’t let them FOOL you - it’s j.c. not jillian. i think he has the memory of a goldfish.”
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                 j.c? are you trying to sound cooler or something? ”  laurie was well aware of who the girl was. she knew about her aunt joyce’s new boyfriend and his two daughters and whatever other unimportant details, yet that didn’t stop her from giving the other girl a hard time.  i don’t think there’s anything wrong with going by jillian.

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    Clementine sighs heavily down the line - she wanted to go, but did not want to go alone. Chewing on her lower lip, she momentarily fooled around with the idea of just going by herself and making an attempt to socialize, but the idea seemed wrong without her best friend being nearby. “Yeah, I guess I will just come over? I have to be back by morning though. My mom has been really naggy lately and if she finds out that I was out past curfew, you won’t be seeing me till after graduation.” Clem wanted to laugh, but the painful truth kept her from finding humor in the situation. Her social life was going to take a nosedive this year if she wasn’t careful.  “Do you want me to bring anything over?”
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     yeah, it’s probably best if you don’t stay over all night.  laurie replied simply, her words sounded unintentionally harsh. it was mostly attributed to her constant state of exhaustion and panic to get things done, but she was carving out a couple of hours to spend with her best friend who she missed dearly. she only hoped it wouldn’t plague her in those moments, come in the window, will you? i’m pretty much on house arrest unless i’m going to school. an irritated sigh came through her end while an eyeroll accompanied.

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Send “What happened to you?” to find my muse in a disheveled state.

Send “I don’t want to talk about it” for my muse to find yours instead.

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Anonymous asked:

anon from last ask again- i think a lot of trans folks experience a lot of struggle, and that's true. especially in that time period. but some trans folks don't experience body dysphoria etc. again, this is all totally up to you, but it's worth thinking about! consider maybe asking someone who has more understanding of the experience. if nothing else, it's good to learn!

you’re totally right. I truly do appreciate you coming forward or else I would’ve been completely ignorant otherwise. I’ll definitely be looking at things in a new light now.

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Anonymous asked:

so, on anon bc people are dicks, but as someone who identifies outside of the gender binary, do whatever tf you want. the people who give a shit are mostly assholes. Yes, there's a element of affirmation of the binary in GB stuff but that's not the point of it. the fact that you can understand that you can't fully take into account a Trans experiance is great. I would say it might be good to explore that and try and understand a trans perspective, but also, again, do whatever the fuck you want.

thanks so much for weighing in! I may consider it and it’s really important for me to get multiple perspectives and opinions on this, so thanks for putting in your two cents.

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Anonymous asked:

the thing about gender bending is it's like. it basically affirms the gender binary. it's like 'the only reason this character is a boy is because they have a penis'. consider trans will! she's still 100% a girl and could be played exactly as you would a cisgendered girl. shes just trans. this may be worded poorly, as i'm not trans myself, but that's my two cents.

no, that makes perfect sense! i never really looked at it from that perspective & i really appreciate you informing me of all this. my issue is that from my understanding being trans includes a lot of baggage and struggles at times which i feel would become an integral part of writing a character and I personally don’t want to interpret that struggle incorrectly which is where my hesitance is coming from. I’ll definitely take it into consideration though, thanks so much!

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Anonymous asked:

please be aware that genderbenting is now problematic due to the lgbt community being strict af on that. making will trans would be a better solution if you don't want any backlash, just do research first. this is no hate but a warning because some people aren't as merciless. -anon

thanks so much anon! i personally don’t find an issue with genderbending at all, but if somebody could please educate me further on why it’s problematic i would really appreciate that! i try to refrain from writing as trans characters since i feel like i can’t personally relate to that struggle, so i’d prefer to do that as a last resort and keep things as is. thank you so much for the warning though (:

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Lorde —  Melodrama Album  {Sentence Starters}

  • “I’m a liability.”
  • “Did it frighten you?”
  • “Yeah, awesome right?“
  • “I’ll forgive and not fight.”
  • “Well, I guess I should go.”
  • “Every night, I live and die.”
  • “You’re a little much for me.”
  • “I understand… I’m a liability.”
  • “Now, I can’t stand to be alone.”
  • “God, I wonder why we bother?”
  • “Bet you want to rip my heart out.”
  • “Sorry I was never good like you.”
  • “The whole world knows, but you.”
  • “In my head, I do everything right.”
  • “Have another drink, get lost in us.”
  • “I’ll love you ‘til my breathing stops.”
  • “'Cause I’m gonna mess your life up.”
  • “I’m someone you maybe might love.”
  • “I’ll love you ‘til you call the cops on me.”
  • “Let’s kiss and then take off our clothes.”
  • “You wanted something that we offered.”
  • “But you’re not what you thought you were.”
  • “When you see me, will you say I’ve changed?“
  • “But, I think that you might be the same as me.”
  • “We pretend that we just don’t care, but we care.”
  • “Honey, I’ll come get my things… but I can’t let go.”
  • “Drink up your movements, still I can’t get enough.”
  • “I care for myself the way I used to care about you.”
  • “Bet you rue the day you kissed a writer in the dark.”
  • “Please, could you be tender? And I will sit close to you.”
  • “Let’s give it a minute before we admit that we’re through.”
  • “I know about what you did and I wanna scream the truth.”
  • “And the terror, and the horror when we wonder why we bother.”
  • “God, I wish I believed you when you told me this was my home.”
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Anonymous asked:

❜  what are you gonna do? murder me?  ❜  ( from mortcru~ )

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‘no’ laurie thought, of course not, she would never, but she was damn near close. her shoe was off and in her hand, she was close to swinging it right at the other teen’s head. she faltered, “you’re so irritating!” she snapped. the shoe dropped to the ground and laurie slipped her foot back into it, though she remained glaring at billy the entire time.

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High School Senior Year Starters

Everyday

  • “Senioritus hit me so hard…”
  • “Let’s skip. We don’t need this class anyway.”
  • “What the fuck have I been doing for the past four years?”
  • “Crack open your SAT book. We’re studying right now.”
  • “I wish my score was just a little higher…”
  • “What prank are we going to pull?”
  • “You don’t get it. I HAVE to be valedictorian.”
  • “I went from A’s to D’s. And so did my grades.”
  • “I’m about to punch this teacher in the face. Like, I’M LEAVING, BITCH!”
  • “I could do this assignment…or we could go get lunch.”
  • “The SAT is torture.”
  • “I haven’t felt this alive since the beginning of Freshman year.”
  • “See, the thing is…this is my last fuck. I really don’t want to waste it.”
  • “Can someone PLEASE get that Freshman away from me?”
  • “Look at all these younglings…so innocent…they have no idea what’s coming to them.”
  • “I’m the OLDEST person in this school.”
  • “Let me copy off of you.” / “You’ve been copying off of me for four years, I don’t see the point in stopping now.”
  • “Are we getting matching sweatshirts?”

Applications

  • “I can’t believe I just got rejected…” 
  • “I would literally sell my soul to get into this school.”
  • “Can you read my application again?”
  • “I just got the envelope…can you open it for me?”
  • “My status will be online in four hours. So I’ll be here for the next four hours.”
  • “You really think you have a chance?”
  • “I don’t really care if I get in or not.”
  • “There’s no way I’ll be accepted…”
  • “I have an interview tomorrow and I’m so nervous.”
  • “If you don’t get in, then I have no chance.”
  • “This personal essay is killing me.” / “Your essay sucks.”
  • “Maybe college isn’t for me.”
  • “I GOT IN!!!! I!! GOT!! IN!!!!”

Prom

  • “Who are you taking?”
  • “Will you go to prom with me?”
  • “I don’t know what to do for my promposal…”
  • “Let’s go dress/suit shopping together!”
  • “Does this corsage match?”
  • “I feel like we should be that group that takes a limo.”
  • “There’s NO way I’m wearing heels / a dress / a suit.”
  • “Ah, a bunch of teenagers grinding in a sweaty gymnasium. Glorious.”
  • “I love this song!” / “This music is trash.”
  • “Come on, dance with me.” / “I can’t dance!”
  • “You look great.” / “Woah, who dragged you through a dumpster?”
  • “We need to take a million pics. Right now.”
  • “Are you going to the afterparty?”
  • “My parents would never let me stay in a hotel room.”
  • “Let’s sneak away and make out.”

Graduation

  • “Goodbye, everyone. I’ll be seeing you all in therapy.” 
  • “Are you going to decorate your cap?”
  • “I look so gross in this gown…”
  • “Are you crying?”
  • “Will you sign my yearbook?”
  • “I didn’t even start my speech…”
  • “What’s with the tears? We’re going to the same college!”
  • “I’m not going to miss you at all.” / “I might actually miss you.”
  • “We’re finally out!”
  • “It’s a miracle I never dropped out.”
  • “This is the last time we’ll be walking down these halls.”
  • “I’m kind of going to miss this hell…”
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