Vixen519

Happy Holidays all!

So since I last wrote lots been going on. As I have mentioned my daughter has speech delay/ she has been diagnosed as a slow learner. Well lately she’s been on a word incline is the best way to describe it. Just this past week for the first time she said all the colors & counted to 10! She’s also saying family members names now; like her Uncle Bear, Aunt Lolly (wowwy), Granny Green (ranny reen), Dada & most recently Mama! She can tell us when needs “help” with something and wants “food”, which she uses both a lot 😂. Also asks for many “big hug”, which we love to give. She also likes to start the day now by slamming the master bedroom door now, shouting “HI!” Jogging up to my side of the bed while I’m still kind of processing being awake & then saying , “up now mama” while putting my glasses on my face upside down 🤣.

I’m so proud of her. She keeps me, mostly, sane in the midst of everything going with my mom. Which I have started going back to therapy for now. I’ve been going since October and it’s so refreshing.

That’s all I have time to update on- work calls/ daughter is about slam into the room 😂

Update on my mom.

She’s been diagnosed with diverticulitis (stomach condition)- hence her weight loss. She can’t have red meat anymore or dairy but the kicker is she forgets that and will Uber herself a Reuben with cheese and get sick. My dad actually had to get child settings on her phone to stop this from happening. She’s now in the last stage and it seems she’s also in the “wasting” phase as well now. She’s 65, will be 66 in October and I honestly don’t have high hopes she will live to that birthday.

My sister and I have been very open and honest with each other about “all of this” and it’s made us even closer. Meanwhile our brother who has always been in denial every step of the way, fighting it all, fighting the doctors and each kind of treatment- even going as far as blaming our dad for her getting dementia. It’s to the point with him that we want to go no contact once mom passes

I know this is super depressing but I have to get this off my chest. I keep crying about 2 or 3 times a day. I know I’ve been radio silent

As I mentioned in two posts ago my mom has dementia. Well recently it has gotten quite aggressive. She is now sleeping most of the day, about 19 hours a day, has lost 55 pounds in 6 months since she is only eating one meal a day/ vomiting most the time. My siblings and I have come to realize this week she at most has 4 months with us now which is very tough to come to grip.

And while we realize this over Mothers Day weekend this past week my Dad/ her husband took a bad fall and shattered his left femur. He just came out of his second surgery fixing the leg now today so to say we feel a bit overwhelmed to say the least. There is lots of crying at the moment I’ll be honest- I even mentioned to my sister that I know I have something to wear for a funeral. I’ve been keeping my eye out in my closet the entire pandemic just in case, I just didn’t want my moms funeral to be the event

Btw here’s everything I’ve read thus far:

Ice Planet Barbarians🌟🌟🌟

Lore Olympus Volume 1🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

The Love Hypothesis 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

Midnight Bargain🌟🌟🌟🌟

A Court of Wings & Ruin🌟🌟🌟🌟✨

Sing Me Forgotten🌟🌟🌟✨

Ariadne🌟🌟🌟

A Court of Frost & Starlight 🌟🌟🌟🌟

Crescent City: House of Earth & Blood🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

Music of the Night: A Gothic Romance 🌟🌟🌟🌟

My Lady’s Choosing🌟🌟🌟✨

Defy the Night🌟🌟🌟🌟✨

My Dear Bessie🌟🌟🌟🌟✨

Anatomy: a love story🌟🌟🌟🌟

Spoiler Alert🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

Anne of Manhattan 🌟🌟🌟

Barbarian Alien🌟🌟🌟

Love Letters of Great Women🌟🌟

The Night Circus🌟🌟🌟

Electric Idol🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

The Lights of Prague✨

The City of Brass🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

The Spanish Love Deception 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

It happened one summer🌟🌟🌟

The invisible life of Addie LaRue 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

The Shadows Between Us 🌟🌟🌟🌟✨

A beautiful poison 🌟🌟🌟✨

Dreams lie beneath🌟🌟🌟🌟✨

Stone Heart: A Dark Olympus Novella🌟🌟🌟✨

To Love a God🌟🌟✨

The Unhoneymooners🌟🌟🌟🌟✨

Only a Monster🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

To Love Jason Thorn🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

The Star Touched Queen🌟🌟

Go The Distance 🌟🌟🌟🌟

King of Battle and Blood🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

The Cruel Prince (The Folk Air Trilogy)🌟🌟🌟

Jewels of Time🌟✨

The Lost Apothecary 🌟🌟🌟🌟

Also, here’s a teaser of my TBR

Personal Update:

Positive stuff first! My daughter is doing quite well in her speech therapy now. Still a bit behind for her age but working ever so hard at it, just this evening she said “chipies” for the first time! Was very pleased with herself. Slowly having a regular play date with a friend now since the numbers are very low in our area now, also weather is lovely too.

Another thing I’ve been up to is I realized that last year I only read about 10 books total for the entire year. That was a depressing moment for me. Like I usually can do that in a month, a slow one at that. Like, yes I adore fanfiction but I’m basically taking a break from reading it for the most part to check out what’s out there since I last went into Barnes & Nobles, 😂. Apparently a LOT. As of last night I finished my 39th book of the year! My goal is 90 total. This month I’ve read some utterly crap ones but it happens. But overall so far I’ve read some that I know I’m excited about re-reading them again and again over the years🤩

Bad News: As I’ve mentioned previously my mom has Dementia and has been dealing with this since 2013 now. She is 65. A week ago she no longer recalls how to work a microwave, can’t handle more than one person talking to her, no longer recalls difference between weeds and actual flowers. That last one hurt since she won yard of the month multiple times growing up. Like I know this disease isn’t her. But there are days I want to tell my mom how her granddaughter is improving or what cute thing she did that day- and she does not care anymore. Which breaks my heart SO much. Thankfully my Mother in law is nearby and is good health so we can do all the things/ share all the things but you know, it’s like when asked for chocolate ice cream but get mint chocolate chip instead? Does that make sense?

So since the last time I did a personal update/ daughter post here’s what’s been new. Around her second birthday we did her pediatrician visit and found we couldn’t answer most of the questions they were asking for verbal skills. So she’s been speech therapy for about 6 months now & is now able to say “Dada”, “Pop-Pop” ,most of the alphabet, along with cheering and pointing. Her Speech Therapist (ST) says she’s like on the edge of her vocabulary just “exploding” as it were.

In the meantime we also are already are getting excited for the holidays- did a photo shoot for Halloween, since Dada is a photographer. Yes she’s Hermione. Yes she’s holding her wand upside down 😂. I’m not judging too harsh since she’s 2.5.

Well I gotta go into work- that’s a whole other (happy) post I’ll do later today- see yall later!!!

Meanwhile on the Massage Therapy humor boards 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣