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The Lady Leopard

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BdelliumOnyx (she/they) acesexual, bi-romantic artist, writer, and historian/teacher from the US. In love with Chinese web novels, particularly MXTX. Open for commissions! Support Me on Ko-fi
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utopians

the thing is the king charles portrait is genuinely incredible and exactly how I would execute a portrait of a member of the british royal family but also I literally cannot fathom why the british royal family would have it made

like yeah if I were going to make a portrait of king charles I would absolutely have just his smugly smirking face leering out of a mass of red that could only be read as blood and gore, and have his military uniform fading ambiguously into the same background to lay bare the brutality of imperialism concealed by the pomp and ceremony of the british state, and make the entire thing sort of look like it was decaying to indicate the rot of the empire. like I really struggle to imagine a better visual metaphor for the nightmarish history of a dying empire than the king's spiffy military uniform and saber and sash and rows of epaulets being literally made out of a rotting field of blood and gore. but like why did he have it commissioned... why did he have it MADE and then say Looks great I'm putting it on the wall... HE EVEN LOOKS LIKE HE'S IN HELL

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egg-tats

what's the monarchist take on it? I can't really relate to thinking the king is good, maybe if you've got that brainworm this is cool, actually?

Hi fun fact, colors do have meaning and there is a legit thing called color theory.

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vaspider

This is all true but also the first thing I thought when I saw this was "he said he wanted to be her tampon but I didn't think he meant literally."

But then when my sister and I were texting about it, this:

only reinforces the "the monarchy just predates on the country" vibes, ffs

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angelshizuka

I will die on the hill that Stolas didn't cheat, because in order to cheat you need to be in a relationship first and if anyone even dares imply his arranged marriage with Stella is a relationship (especially after SHE is the one who constantly worked against his attempts to try and be a family) I'm going to fucking bite them!

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Queer secondary adolescence and Stolas

(I keep forgetting to put this up here)

Ok, so Stolas being teen dad is one of the reasons I get annoyed when people say he's too horny with Blitz. Or that his relationship is too dramatic and teenager-y.

He's a queer guy who never got to be a teenager, didn't get to have a first boyfriend, or explore who he was. Or do any of the normal stuff most straight teenagers get to do.

His family stuffed him in the closet, forced him to have child, and gave him an abusive wife as jailer.

(He around 36, with a 17 year old daughter. 36−17=19 when Octavia was born. Likely married at 18).

He's got some chatting up to do.

Up till now his whole life's been about Via, and mitigating Stella's abuse to hid it from Via.

That's left him barely hanging on, taking an increasing amount of antidepressants; and singing lullabies about not being sure he'll make it till Via's grown up.... 🙁

There's this thing called second adolescence that alot of queer people experience, when they come out later in life.

It happens when they're weren't allowed to do normal teenage things at the right age. So things like having crushes, go on first dates, have extremely anxious dramatic relationships. As well just be a normal horny teenager.

Stolas got to do none of that. So he's doing it now.

He's also pretty obviously an autistic guy (separate post), who didn't get well socialized as a child.

Blitz appears to have been his first and only really friend.

Stolas is not great at social cues. (He's so happy to be able to help with his special interest, but does realise his tone is upsetting Ozzie).

Even with Via he struggles to understand her. She needs to tell her dad flat out what she needs.

When she tries to be subtle, and snark he assumes it's just her being a moody teen. And that she'll enjoy loo loo land when she loosen up a bit.

Because of this lack Stolas mostly fills in gaps in his social experience with masking.

Such copying Gabriel hairstyle from helluva novella to get ready for his first ever date.

Following Blitz's lead of what to do in an uncomfortable situation.

And trying to match the energy of how Blitz first came on to him.

(He's definitely getting better at it from Blitz reaction).

There's also an idea in CBT called reparenting your inner child. Which about giving yourself some the support, and experiences you missed out on because of abuse.

Stolas needs to go through his secondary adolescence as part of his recovery from his abuse.

So let Stolas be a little horny weirdo. 😛

PS this one will brake you heart. Stolas is standing fully in both these pictures.

You can see how much he's grown by her light switch.

Kid hasn't even reached his full adult height yet when he had to have a kid.

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There are now over 15 million empty homes in the US, and 650,000 homeless per the very bias official numbers, or 23 houses per person

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viking369

Murray Rothbard was a fascist fuck.

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Luo Binghe, whipping out Xin Mo: It's almost as big as my love for you <3

Shen Qingqiu: You mean your erection?

Luo Binghe: That is what I call it, yes

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coolxatu

government is trying to ban tiktok meanwhile millions of poor and disabled americans are about to completely lose their internet access at the end of april because congress wont renew funding for the affordable connectivity program

hell fucking world

if you want to help us convince congress to do something that actually benefits society, please check out the link below. we only have roughly 45 days of affordable internet service remaining from the time this post has been written

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“I had a Zionist grandmother who grew up, she grew up in Poland, she was supposed to go to Israel to study. Her father had paid for her for the first year of tuition. And then in 1939, when she was in her last year of high school, Germany and the Soviet Union invaded Poland.

She ended up for a couple of years in the Soviet-occupied part of Poland, which was how she ended up in Moscow. And by the time Germany occupied all of Poland. So then she spent the rest of her life living in Moscow.

And 45 years after the end of the war, dreaming of being able to go to Israel, but not being able to because she was now stuck in the Soviet Union. And so I think I was very infected by, infected in a non-derogatory sense by my grandmother's dream of Israel. And I had my own dream of Israel growing up as a, as a Jewish kid who was bullied and beaten up and teased.

I just wanted to live in a country that, that was majority Jewish. I could not understand why my parents would want to go to the United States and live in another country where Jews are in the minority. My parents on the other hand just didn't want to be Jewish.

Like their only experience of being Jewish was being systematically discriminated against. They were both born during the Second World War, so they were second generation, utterly non-religious and separated from any Jewish tradition, except the tradition of being a targeted minority. So they just, they just wanted to go somewhere where they wouldn't be Jewish.

And so when I was 15, a year after we moved to the United States, I actually went to Israel planning to stay there and didn't. For a variety of reasons, but one of them was being confronted with, with what I found at the age of 15, a shockingly racist society.

So the first time I went to Israel was when I was 15, it was 1982. And then there was like an 18, 17 or 18 year gap.

And I started traveling to Israel regularly from 1999, 2000. And the first time I went back was to actually complete the research on the book about my grandmother's. So it's been a good 25 years that I've been coming back.

And I think Israel has undergone a lot of changes in that time. But no, I don't think that like the kind of Ashkenazi Sephardic racism that shocked me in 1982 has found subtler expressions. But politics of settlement have only been exacerbated.

And I still find them extremely painful to observe, especially because some of my beloved relatives are settlers.

I did visit them this last time I was in Israel, because I really wanted to see what it looked like for them.

I was compelled to go visit them because of a Facebook post that my cousin made. And just to give you an idea, I really hold these people very, very dear. But for years, I would go to Israel, Palestine and not tell them that I was there, because I kind of couldn't face them.

So it's been a number of years since I last saw them, a number of years since I went to that settlement. But my cousin had posted something on Facebook. It was a picture of her son playing the violin.

And she wrote, in one of the houses where they stayed in Gaza, there was a violin. He played for his soldiers and then put the violin back. And I found that post-heart trending and eye-opening, the picture of him playing the violin was not from Gaza.

It was from earlier, but he had apparently told her about playing the violin in Gaza. And obviously she was worried about her son serving in Gaza and so she's posting about it. And she wants to assert that he is a good boy.

But also, entirely missing from that post and from her world view is that somebody lived in that house in Gaza. That violin belonged to somebody. Like, it was such an extraordinary example of the blindness that we were talking about a little bit earlier that I wanted to go visit them and kind of engage with that blindness more.

And I got a really good dose of blindness to the point where, and we had this incredible moment when we went walking around the settlement after Shabbat lunch. And we sort of got to this hilltop where there's a swing and there's a little free library.

And we're looking out on a Palestinian village. And I said, what are we looking at, to my cousin? And she was trying to get her bearings.

And she said, where are we looking? And she named another settlement, which was kind of, which was not on our line of sight. It was like this literal example of looking at an actual Palestinian village that she drives past every day.

And before the village was sealed off after October 7th, she used to get gas there. And she knows it exists. But somehow she also it also doesn't enter her geography.

It is nameless.”

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Whose familiar is this? or has someone “warg"ed into this crow? I thought we already agreed to use emails

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wilwheaton

“Temporary”? WTF. I hope this was only temporary because the crow was like, “my work is done here” and not that some dickhead was like NO CROWS ALLOWED.

So I read the article and it’s actually a bit emotional. It’s basically the bird version of Homeward Bound.

The crow was a rescued bird raised and taken care of by a family who loved him very much. He was “free” in that they didn’t keep him inside, but he was very much habituated to the family/their home and would come up to them and chat with them and knock on their windows in the morning saying “Mom wake up”.

He apparently liked to tease people who were afraid of him, and one day when the family were away for the holidays a neighbor caught him and sent him to an animal sanctuary. The sanctuary released him out into the wild and the crow, Cosmo, tried to find his way home.

He followed cars he thought belonged to his family, would sit outside of buildings calling out for them/talking to people, and made it to the elementary school because he recognized someone inside. He used to play with children at his family’s farm and so he enjoyed playing with the children at the school.

Meanwhile, his family WAS looking for him, putting up his picture and trying to track him down.

Eventually they were alerted to the talking crow at the school and successfully reunited with him and brought him back to their farm. Apparently Cosmo has not gone back to the neighbors’ place ever since.

I’m a bit emotional about it. This crow really loved this family, and they really loved him.

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“The Whole Being Dead Thing” by Alex Brightman Animatic of Fizzarolli singing it! Gah it’s so good!!!

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04292024: Jewish Bloc march for Palestine in London, posted via naamoduk. Jews will always stand with Palestine; we are here, no matter what Zionists say.

You do realize that most Jews are Zionists right? And they stand with Israel, you know, the JEWISH state

You do realise that Zionism is a dangerous Far-Right ideology that was founded by a secular Jew who saw Arab people as “sub-human” and “savages”, and couldn’t actually decide on wether he wanted Israel in Argentina or Palestine.

One day, every Zionist Jew will have to grapple with the fact they enabled and supported the ethnic cleansing and genocide of Palestinians. Wether you like that or not, wether you run behind victimhood or not, wether you lash out with “antisemitism!” accusations or not— just as Nazi Germany collapsed for it’s Holocaust of Communist, Jewish, Rromani, Disabled, Gay and other ethnic Europeans, Zionist Israel will collapse for it’s aggression on Palestine, Jewish people, Lebanon, Syria, Iran and for aiding the US military coups in Latin America that killed thousands, including Jewish populations.

Zionism and Israel do not stand for Jewish people, and a lot of us have already woken up and realised that.

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settraone

You are a minority everywhere Outside of Israel. Why would you stay with orpressors who would be happy to repeat the Shoa you dumb cunt.

So I’m supposed to run away? Not plant my feet and fight for my right to exist, my families right to exist? My freedom and the liberation from antisemitism is not found in the murder and genocide of another people. Antisemitism must be addressed, not constantly pointed at and subsequently weaponised to justify colonial expansion. It is the world that made myself and my people minorities, I will not put myself into a box to appease a system that created it.

We will out live them, as we always do, and we will outlive Israel.

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