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@iamshadow21 / iamshadow21.tumblr.com

Autistic. Queer. Knitter. Spinner. Crocheter. Book-lover. Fic writer. Adopter of waifs and strays. Childless by choice. Lover of bonus content and DVD extras, particularly commentaries. Social hermit readjusting to city life and living with my mother after six years in a remote, historic gold-mining town. Reads tarot for mental health insights and a smack upside the head when needed.
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Apparently I have read Thud before, as it has the stuff in it I thought was in Night Watch but was missing when I read that. So I've read Thud before. So maybe Thud is the limit of my previous read? I'm certain I haven't read more than two Tiffany Aching books, so likely it is, but at this point who knows?

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falcon-caps

peggy: hey steve, can you go post this letter for me?

steve: post a lett-

peggy: yeah and have you looked at hotels for our vacation?

steve, shaken: oh no lemme just googl-

steve:

peggy: i’m so worried the kids might get polio this summer 

steve: polio–

I recommend people to read Captain America: Man Out of Time, it covers the first Avengers story with Cap after he wakes up from the ice. He misses his life in the 40′s, he wants to go back, etc… At one point they fight Kang the Conqueror and Steve gets sent back to V-Day after the Allies won in Europe. At first he’s happy but the reality of him romanticizing his own era due to nostalgia starts hitting him. He was already in a more advanced and, while not perfect, a more accepting time and him having to come back to a time where racism and sexism were worse, where medicine and technology weren’t as advanced, and everyone telling him “Yeah we won! The war is over! Time to rest!” it really leaves him fed up and unsatisfied. He also starts feeling like an outsider in his own time and i the end he decides to do something to go back to the future.

The last pages of that story have Steve writing in his journal about how living in the past is tempting but that it’s where fossils come from and that “there’ll always be something to fight for” so he decides to look ahead instead of back.

That whole story was basically the antithesis of Steve’s ending in Endgame.

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lauralot89

Remember that scene in Winter Soldier when Sam’s all “you must miss the good old days” and Steve responds by actively dispelling the romanticizing of the past by pointing out that hey, now people aren’t dying horribly of polio

You’d think the directors and screenwriters of Endgame would have remembered that, CONSIDERING THEY MADE THE WINTER SOLDIER FILM

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iamshadow21

For people who love Captain America: Man Out Of Time (of which I am one!) I wrote a canon compliant sequel fic where he rescues Bucky.

Also, everyone who doesn't know, someone commissioned Jorge Molina, the artist of Man Out Of Time,sequel artwork of Steve and Bucky from Man Out Of Time at the Grand Canyon, and it's gorgeous. Commissioned Epilogue to Man Out Of Time.

Man Out Of Time is one of the main reasons why Endgame didn't work for me. They already had a canon comics short-run about Steve and time travel and why he decided the future, for all its pains, was better than going back to the past. I think Endgame would have been a lot better had the Russos loosely based Steve's story resolution on Man Out Of Time, because it would have felt like progress and acceptance rather than regression.

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salty-inc

Just something I really want to share on here because it’s important.

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iamshadow21

That last panel is really important to me, as an autistic/ADHD spectrum person with very acute hearing who cannot understand speech if there is a loud tv or music or if I'm in a echobox place like a food court (food courts are hell).

My attention span issues also mean I often tune in halfway through a passage of speech, or tune out before the end, and have to ask the speaker to repeat themselves so that I can make sense of the small amount I heard and processed properly.

Though the underlying mechanism that Deaf/HoH/Autistic/ADHD/APD folks have to deal with is different in every case, the way able people treat us is very, very similar. 'If you cared about what I was saying, you would have understood me the first time.' Bitch, I just asked you to repeat because I DO care what you said and I want to respond the right way. I'm working against a disability and/or sensory difference I have zero control over to try and communicate with you in the way that is most comfortable to YOU, not me. Are you using sign language so I can see your words despite the din? Are you facing me properly, enunciating clearly, not chewing gum or mumbling or covering your face with a hand, so I can read your lips without obstruction? Are you typing or writing out what you want to say so I can read it without auditory garbling and confusion? Are you relocating us to somewhere less of an assault so my ability to parse your words becomes a thousand times easier? And, first and foremost, did you make sure I was looking at you and knew you were speaking from the beginning? No? Then you can deal with me asking for clarification as many times as I need to for us to have a conversation.

Love, an autistic/ADHD spectrum person with acute hearing and auditiory processing problems, who grew up with a profoundly Deaf childhood BFF who used 1980s hearing aids, and who has a seven year old Deaf nephew who often goes without aids at all, but sometimes uses a bone conduction hearing aid.

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I just started rereading Going Postal for the first time since I read it ten years ago, and unlike then, I have since seen all of White Collar and the basic premise of the deal at the beginning is essentially the same and I think my brain is breaking. I think my mental image of Moist used to be kinda weasely but now he looks like Bomer which I think is making Vetinari start to resemble Tim DeKay and I can't undo it send help.

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wow! it costs 0$ to say

LGBT

instead of

QUEER

Right, it only costs us our history…..

We’re here!

We’re LGBTQIA+!

We ruined the scansion and rhyme!

I kind of miss the days when “We’re here, we’re Queer, get used to it” was something we had to say to STRAIGHT people. 

I’m here, I’m queer, and you can go fuck yourself for contributing to the “Queer is a slur” nonsense. My identity is no more of a slur than yours is.

I don’t fit neatly into any of those boxes. I’m queer. Cope.

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iamshadow21

'Not gay as in happy but queer as in fuck you' is a personal favourite.

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hey ive noticed a lotta people using they/them pronouns for jonathan since hes come out as nb but please remember that he said he prefers he/him but is also fine with she/her. He never mentioned they/them pronouns so, even if in yhe future he says hes okay with them, as far as we know he doesnt prefer them!

nombinary people don’t have to use they/them pronouns! please be respectful and use the correct pronouns for him!

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iamshadow21

Yep, the article I read said nonbinary, genderqueer and gender nonconforming were his chosen labels, and that he did NOT identify as a man. His pronouns are he/him and she/her.

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iamshadow21

I just realised something, and it took reading The Last Hero for the first time and seeing an illustration of Carrot with a crew cut and bare face that startled me. All along, I’ve been picturing Carrot as kind of a ginger Chris Evans/Chris Hemsworth at their best comedic straightman thing, like Chris-playing-Loki-playing-Cap, or Hemsworth from Ghostbusters, but more intelligent. Or Paul Gross as Benton Fraser from Due South. Buff, noble, and smart but a bit of an adorable bonehead. But it has occured to me - I’ve been imagining Carrot as clean-shaven, which is a conventionally HUMAN form of neat and tidy grooming, which Carrot is renowned for. But Carrot is culturally a dwarf. There is NO WAY he’d be clean shaven. Somehow, this changes EVERYTHING. Not just scruff but proper beardy length. Special beard care products. BRAIDING AND SHAPING THAT HAS CULTURAL MEANING. Carrot identifies as a dwarf, and his facial/head hair would definitely reflect that.

So - beardy Chris Evans, then?

Only if Chris takes the opportunity, having finished with his Marvel contract, to grow a long enough beard to cosplay Gimli Gloinsson without any hair extensions. Manicured scruff does not qualify. It needs to be substantial enough for swallows to nest in, or it doesn't count.

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I just realised something, and it took reading The Last Hero for the first time and seeing an illustration of Carrot with a crew cut and bare face that startled me. All along, I've been picturing Carrot as kind of a ginger Chris Evans/Chris Hemsworth at their best comedic straightman thing, like Chris-playing-Loki-playing-Cap, or Hemsworth from Ghostbusters, but more intelligent. Or Paul Gross as Benton Fraser from Due South. Buff, noble, and smart but a bit of an adorable bonehead. But it has occured to me - I've been imagining Carrot as clean-shaven, which is a conventionally HUMAN form of neat and tidy grooming, which Carrot is renowned for. But Carrot is culturally a dwarf. There is NO WAY he'd be clean shaven. Somehow, this changes EVERYTHING. Not just scruff but proper beardy length. Special beard care products. BRAIDING AND SHAPING THAT HAS CULTURAL MEANING. Carrot identifies as a dwarf, and his facial/head hair would definitely reflect that.

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wouldn’t it be cool if sylvia rivera or marsha p. johnson were still alive and you could see what kind of activism they were doing now, and support it, and follow them on social media?

“It sure would!”

Gosh, imaginary reader, I agree! And you know what?

MISS MAJOR IS *ALSO* A TRANS WOMAN OF COLOR WHO WAS AT STONEWALL, AND SHE’S STILL ALIVE AND AMAZING AND I ALMOST NEVER SEE ANYBODY MENTION HER

And yes, that’s her Instagram, @missmajor1. And yes, you can look her up on Facebook under Miss Major Griffin-Gracy, and she even follows back 😮

Looks like she’s even on Twitter, @immissmajor.

From missmajor.net:

Miss Major is a veteran of the Stonewall Rebellion and a survivor of Attica State Prison, a former sex worker, an elder, and a community leader and human rights activist.

Miss Major’s personal story and activism for transgender civil rights intersects LGBT struggles for justice and equality from the 1960s to today. At the center of her activism is her fierce advocacy for her girls, trans women of color who have survived police brutality and incarceration in men’s jails and prisons.

Miss Major is formerly the long-time executive director of the San Francisco-based Transgender Gender-Variant Intersex Justice Project (TGIJP), which advocates for trans women of color in and outside of prison. She is also the subject of a new documentary feature film currently showing around the country, MAJOR!

She even has a GoFundMe, where people make one-time or recurring monthly donations to support this activist legend through her retirement:

Since June and Pride commemorate the anniversary of the Stonewall Riots, I thought it’d be a good time to boost her story. Happy Pride! 💖💜💙

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vaspider

Boost boost.

The go fund me is no longer accepting donations. They have moved to fundly.

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iamshadow21

The link is borked, here you go: https://fundly.com/missmajor

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