Hi all! So a long while ago, I made a private sideblog that was not linked to my main, here at chalupacabras, that i made unsearchable, untraceable, unviewable from a browser, and I used it to write my feelings out, which were often very personal, still tender, and raw. Thankfully, I didn’t post it all, because I just learned that apparently people had gotten hold of that blog and used it to screenshot all of the posts I thought would never find an audience, and circulate it on here and on twitter to belittle and humiliate me. “Why make a blog at all? Why not write in a journal?” I have, most of my life, written in a journal, several, in fact. Before I made that blog, I actually lost one of my journals, and with it, all the irreplaceable content. I thought nothing would ever get lost like that again if I put it on a private account I could access anywhere. I see now, that was a mistake.
I am extremely hurt by this, and feel vulnerable and exposed. I made chalupacabras as a preteen so i could entertain and be entertained, and always wanted to keep my personal life personal. Blogging is no longer fun for me, I have been constantly harassed for nearly a year now by people seemingly determined to dig their teeth into me. Now that I have just learned about this last breach of trust, there’s nothing to keep me here. I’m relieved I learned of this at all, but wish it hadn’t happened. I don’t feel any need to conceal my hurt by this, and I don’t think there’s any weakness in feeling this way. Within the next week, I’ll delete this blog, or at least lock/deactivate it if possible. Find me somewhere else if you’re interested, if not, then a wonderful life to you all
