I’m laying in bed sobbing right now, not because I’m sad nerve is at it’s ending but bc it is truly one of the best works I’ve read on here to date and I am not exaggerating. At all. Not one bit. The emotions I’ve felt while reading this coupled with the plot twist?! Like I just, I don’t have words. This story will forever be so special to me. It took me places far from my own sad thoughts and ugh please accept my virtual hugs 😭 tysm Dee, for sharing this masterpiece with us 💜💜💜
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Nerve [Namjoon x Reader]
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Word Count - 3.4k
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A/N - This is it. The end of the first era. GODDAMN. I mean 13 months is a long time. And just for context, the whole au, is over 300k words. So if you've read all of that, hats off to you.
My amazing betas. Thank you for being with me on this long journey. @hxseok-honee for the first ever read of Nerve, spurring me onward. My sister from another mister, my love, @casnextdoor for the prompt, the one that started it all, betaing numerous chapters, reading my rants and essays on who what when where and why, for naming chapters like Dependency, and giving me strength for chapters like Finale [R] and for loving me, to always check on me and make sure I'm not putting writing before food and sleep and mental health which I have before. @shina913 for the whatsapp messages, the inspiring talks, the ideas and discussions, the betaing and the friend that you are thank you so much for treating Nerve as you have, as your own. @jaysdimples for the betaing, for the hype and the love and the genuine support and the voice notes and asks, sigh, I adore you. And my best guy friend who I know usually checks in on here because he's as invested in my writing as I am, and he's watched me pace around my office and squeeze in writing time and bitch about the emotions my characters are feeling, I appreciate you.
My honourable mentions, @moresarcasm for listening to me bitch about my plot endlessly and for always welcoming me with open arms every single time I needed it.
Some of the supports that I would not have continued to update without @justmewondering-recs you are absolutely the one that dissects and makes me think and research and believe and I have loved every single reblog even when they were long and clogged up the TL. @onlythehobi as if I can ever do without your username popping up, thank you for being there every single week and having me look forward to your feedback. @cuteipat , three reblogs at a time, the hype cannot be compared, thank you for being such a great friend to me. @blushingatyou, @codeinebelle, @toriluvsfics for the dms, that hold my hand and remind me that I can talk, that I can be true to my vision, that I am a great writer and how much you love Nerve and I have loved every single second of your support, you are absolutely amazing people. To my commentors I would love to name you, but the post only allows for fifty mentions and I'm out here like?? But thank you for the weekly reads, the comments, the INVESTMENT.
Sharing Nerve was something life changing because of the ones who have read it and have appreciated the au for how it's played out. It was by far one of my longest commitments and something challenging that I seem to have accomplished.
Thank you for being a part of this with me. Truly.
- Dee 🖤
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Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways. - Sigmund Freud
Ok first things first, congrats for finishing this fic and thank you a million times for sharing your beautiful work of art with us! This fic has touched me so deeply and it all comes down to your touching words and the way you convey characters and emotions 💜 I’m just so sad I joined the journey so late - I wish I were in it from the start!!
now, onto the actual epilogue: fuck Helen/Neenah.
We’ve known for a while that Huru was also a piece of shit but to have him so deeply rooted into the game was so surprising. I remember you saying that you wanted to focus on real endings instead of just happy ones and you’ve done that so so well here! As much as I’m fuming that mc has another hurdle to get over, and as much as I’m livid that they might never know that Namjoon’s drink was laced (oh and believe me I am so so SO so angry about this), it just makes sense. it just makes sense that not all the truth will necessarily be out in the open in the end.
I’ve loved the premise of this fic (the aftermath) and it’s really fitting that it ended this way with mc and Namjoon about to deal with the aftermath of yet another event. I’m just happy that they’re endgame and that they recognise this. It’ll take time but I hope they come out stronger on the other side (and ugh my happy-ending-loving mind just hopes and prays and wishes for them to somehow find out about Namjoon’s drink being laced)
once again, thank you so much for sharing this wonderful piece of work with us and I look forward to more of your works. 💜
p.s. I see those hints on the stories of the other members of the band 👀👀👀
You literally steamrolled your way through here OMG, your username showing up in every single Finale, I was like heck yeah i like this person already,
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Nerve [Namjoon x Reader]
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Word Count - 3.4k
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A/N - This is it. The end of the first era. GODDAMN. I mean 13 months is a long time. And just for context, the whole au, is over 300k words. So if you've read all of that, hats off to you.
My amazing betas. Thank you for being with me on this long journey. @hxseok-honee for the first ever read of Nerve, spurring me onward. My sister from another mister, my love, @casnextdoor for the prompt, the one that started it all, betaing numerous chapters, reading my rants and essays on who what when where and why, for naming chapters like Dependency, and giving me strength for chapters like Finale [R] and for loving me, to always check on me and make sure I'm not putting writing before food and sleep and mental health which I have before. @shina913 for the whatsapp messages, the inspiring talks, the ideas and discussions, the betaing and the friend that you are thank you so much for treating Nerve as you have, as your own. @jaysdimples for the betaing, for the hype and the love and the genuine support and the voice notes and asks, sigh, I adore you. And my best guy friend who I know usually checks in on here because he's as invested in my writing as I am, and he's watched me pace around my office and squeeze in writing time and bitch about the emotions my characters are feeling, I appreciate you.
My honourable mentions, @moresarcasm for listening to me bitch about my plot endlessly and for always welcoming me with open arms every single time I needed it.
Some of the supports that I would not have continued to update without @justmewondering-recs you are absolutely the one that dissects and makes me think and research and believe and I have loved every single reblog even when they were long and clogged up the TL. @onlythehobi as if I can ever do without your username popping up, thank you for being there every single week and having me look forward to your feedback. @cuteipat , three reblogs at a time, the hype cannot be compared, thank you for being such a great friend to me. @blushingatyou, @codeinebelle, @toriluvsfics for the dms, that hold my hand and remind me that I can talk, that I can be true to my vision, that I am a great writer and how much you love Nerve and I have loved every single second of your support, you are absolutely amazing people. To my commentors I would love to name you, but the post only allows for fifty mentions and I'm out here like?? But thank you for the weekly reads, the comments, the INVESTMENT.
Sharing Nerve was something life changing because of the ones who have read it and have appreciated the au for how it's played out. It was by far one of my longest commitments and something challenging that I seem to have accomplished.
Thank you for being a part of this with me. Truly.
- Dee 🖤
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Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways. - Sigmund Freud
CAN'T BELIEVE WE FINISHED (didn't) NERVE LIKE THIS????????
i know the universe continues but oh boy what a ride. i will never forget my nerve fridays and smts saturdays too like esp it was my last year of school like its ingrained on me u don't get it
whenever cheating is brought up i know it will strike a nerve on me LOL SEE? NERVE!
i cant wait to see the route this universe wilñ take i just want her™ ugly psychotic stupid ass GONE
TAKE HURU TOO I BEG
also wdym huru has seen that crazy bitch's ass up close 💀
AND THEY DRUGGED MY BABY?@?@?#, IM ABT TO THROW HANDS^!^#&#&#*# KILL EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM ND THEN MYSELF BC WTF SHE'S RLLY FUCKING INSANE
PROTECT Y/N GIRLIE AND THE BAND AT ALL COSTS
I like the subtle (didn't) inserted in there 😂, we really ain't done, not by a long shot,
I may have sniggered at that pun 🤭
Sigh, she really is psycho, and now there's dealing with her head on 🤔
🫢 more than a little triggering on the topics involved in the finale huh, coz I was mad mad when I twisted things to make it hard to figure out the spiking the drink part of things
No but like overall? Every week? Can I just give you hugest hug with the biggest i will protect you vibe ever, 🤗❤️
Coz you've literally been here throughout and you've handled every single topic with so much understanding even in the dms 🥺
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Nerve [Namjoon x Reader]
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Word Count - 3.4k
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A/N - This is it. The end of the first era. GODDAMN. I mean 13 months is a long time. And just for context, the whole au, is over 300k words. So if you've read all of that, hats off to you.
My amazing betas. Thank you for being with me on this long journey. @hxseok-honee for the first ever read of Nerve, spurring me onward. My sister from another mister, my love, @casnextdoor for the prompt, the one that started it all, betaing numerous chapters, reading my rants and essays on who what when where and why, for naming chapters like Dependency, and giving me strength for chapters like Finale [R] and for loving me, to always check on me and make sure I'm not putting writing before food and sleep and mental health which I have before. @shina913 for the whatsapp messages, the inspiring talks, the ideas and discussions, the betaing and the friend that you are thank you so much for treating Nerve as you have, as your own. @jaysdimples for the betaing, for the hype and the love and the genuine support and the voice notes and asks, sigh, I adore you. And my best guy friend who I know usually checks in on here because he's as invested in my writing as I am, and he's watched me pace around my office and squeeze in writing time and bitch about the emotions my characters are feeling, I appreciate you.
My honourable mentions, @moresarcasm for listening to me bitch about my plot endlessly and for always welcoming me with open arms every single time I needed it.
Some of the supports that I would not have continued to update without @justmewondering-recs you are absolutely the one that dissects and makes me think and research and believe and I have loved every single reblog even when they were long and clogged up the TL. @onlythehobi as if I can ever do without your username popping up, thank you for being there every single week and having me look forward to your feedback. @cuteipat , three reblogs at a time, the hype cannot be compared, thank you for being such a great friend to me. @blushingatyou, @codeinebelle, @toriluvsfics for the dms, that hold my hand and remind me that I can talk, that I can be true to my vision, that I am a great writer and how much you love Nerve and I have loved every single second of your support, you are absolutely amazing people. To my commentors I would love to name you, but the post only allows for fifty mentions and I'm out here like?? But thank you for the weekly reads, the comments, the INVESTMENT.
Sharing Nerve was something life changing because of the ones who have read it and have appreciated the au for how it's played out. It was by far one of my longest commitments and something challenging that I seem to have accomplished.
Thank you for being a part of this with me. Truly.
- Dee 🖤
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Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways. - Sigmund Freud
I FREAKING KNEW IT OH MY FUCKING GODDDDDDDDDDD
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHE
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Attempted Sexual Assault(Aftermath); Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate;
Word Count - 7k
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I KNEW I HAD TO REMEMBER THE LAWYER SHIT OMG IT'S COMING BACK I'M CRYINGGG
WDYM HELEN OMG I THOUGHT HE HATED Y/N, OUR ASS lol, BUT NOT THAT MUCH?#?!?@?
fawk this is INSANE oml abt to read the next-
THE INCOHERENT YELLING is EVERYTHING
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Attempted Sexual Assault(Aftermath); Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate;
Word Count - 7k
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UGHHH I can’t say I didn’t see this coming but reading it just made me so angry and it’s the hint of a rift between yuna and mc that makes me really fucking nervous. At the very least, Namjoon got to tell mc he’s here to stay 🙌
(I have a lot more thoughts on the epilogue though - and that just got me fuming on a whole new level)
Since I'm done with this era, I feel like I can be expressive, so bear with me coz I talk alot, and you really have your head wrapped around this au and I am fully immersed in the characters,
Yuna and Yns bond from here on out not only changed because of Yuna's marriage but now more so because she knows about what her uncle has done. And that becomes a sort of black mark on a perfectly white cloth,
Not to say that they can't be friends, theres too much love for that to happen, but adapting around it is going to take time. And when bonds adapt they're never the same again unfortunately.
On the brightest side, joon and yn endgame 🥰
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Word Count - 3.4k
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A/N - This is it. The end of the first era. GODDAMN. I mean 13 months is a long time. And just for context, the whole au, is over 300k words. So if you've read all of that, hats off to you.
My amazing betas. Thank you for being with me on this long journey. @hxseok-honee for the first ever read of Nerve, spurring me onward. My sister from another mister, my love, @casnextdoor for the prompt, the one that started it all, betaing numerous chapters, reading my rants and essays on who what when where and why, for naming chapters like Dependency, and giving me strength for chapters like Finale [R] and for loving me, to always check on me and make sure I'm not putting writing before food and sleep and mental health which I have before. @shina913 for the whatsapp messages, the inspiring talks, the ideas and discussions, the betaing and the friend that you are thank you so much for treating Nerve as you have, as your own. @jaysdimples for the betaing, for the hype and the love and the genuine support and the voice notes and asks, sigh, I adore you. And my best guy friend who I know usually checks in on here because he's as invested in my writing as I am, and he's watched me pace around my office and squeeze in writing time and bitch about the emotions my characters are feeling, I appreciate you.
My honourable mentions, @moresarcasm for listening to me bitch about my plot endlessly and for always welcoming me with open arms every single time I needed it.
Some of the supports that I would not have continued to update without @justmewondering-recs you are absolutely the one that dissects and makes me think and research and believe and I have loved every single reblog even when they were long and clogged up the TL. @onlythehobi as if I can ever do without your username popping up, thank you for being there every single week and having me look forward to your feedback. @cuteipat , three reblogs at a time, the hype cannot be compared, thank you for being such a great friend to me. @blushingatyou, @codeinebelle, @toriluvsfics for the dms, that hold my hand and remind me that I can talk, that I can be true to my vision, that I am a great writer and how much you love Nerve and I have loved every single second of your support, you are absolutely amazing people. To my commentors I would love to name you, but the post only allows for fifty mentions and I'm out here like?? But thank you for the weekly reads, the comments, the INVESTMENT.
Sharing Nerve was something life changing because of the ones who have read it and have appreciated the au for how it's played out. It was by far one of my longest commitments and something challenging that I seem to have accomplished.
Thank you for being a part of this with me. Truly.
- Dee 🖤
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Attempted Sexual Assault(Aftermath); Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate;
Word Count - 7k
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First of all: le gasp
Tumblr has never done this before 👁️👄👁️
Second of all: ngl there were some stray tears while I was reading this update but the SOB I let out when I read the oreos and coffee part.. absolutely adore it and them
I HAD to mark it mature. 😥 Both posts were abit ...much. Its annoying how they don't show up on reblogs, but it's a small price to pay for a little safety.
I love how it's their thing now 😭😭 like I want a thing, I mean i have a thing, we have our long lost braincell thing 🥺 but you know what I mean *stomps feet aggressively*
The vacation was okay, but I’m now stuck with a cold and feel like absolute crap and you know just stuck with that overall feeling of needing 3 or so business days to recover from vacay 💀 i’m honestly just living right now. I can’t necessarily say im okay if im being honest. The holidays are a rough time for me, it’s when my dad passed away so i still go through the same funk every year. Like joon said, life is not fun but it’s worth trying and living so that’s that 😭
Ah hell. The flu is the most irritating thing ever. I mean if I'm gonna get sick I'd rather get fully blown sick so I can stay in bed. But I suffer from chronic sinus which means everyone who knows me, knows I need tissues on hand at night and the early morning because it's a whole thing with my nose. So when I get the flu my nasal passage and my throat are forever the first two things fucking up my life but my legs and hands are working and I have to be an adult about it. So I have to do adult things while thinking back on how ungrateful I was that I could breath through both nostrils the previous week.
And also, sorry for making this about me, I hope you flu has flown away and you're feeling much better?
Ah, I'm sorry about the holidays being a sad time for you 😥. I can understand why it's a touchy time of year. But its okay to be in a funk. Sometimes we can't help it. Emotions need to be felt and you need to process however you need to to get through the holidays.
So just do the best you can, ❤️
I knew it would be heavy, I knew it would be and I was prepared for the somewhat closure of the situation with Kwang but I was NOT PREPARED FOR YUNA. Which admittedly is pretty stupid of me cause how did I expect everything with Kwang to come to a head and Yuna not be part of it? Like, DUH! There’s just so much I want to unpack about this update and it’s times like these where I wish tumblr had a voice note option cause I just wanna word vomit my entire thought pattern without having to sit and sort them out properly but I’ll just talk about the two sections I screenshotted and then bombard you with voice notes on whatsapp 💀
Okay so this part lmao
Idk if you intended this to be some kind of comedic relief for the intensity that was happening or if I just find instigation hilarious but I did let out a hefty laugh 😭
And then this..
When I tell you I let a loud ass gasp out when I read “daughter” and then double backed to reread and make sure I read that correctly. It’s like on one hand, thank you for jumping in to protect your daughter but on the other, where were you when she really needed you?
I also have a question regarding Yuna and Kenta but I’ll ask you later.
Alrighty I’m off to scream at you in voice notes! Love you, you’re doing great! ❤️
To tell you the mfkn honest truth, I was not ready for Yuna either. Like I was stuck on the update, literally stuck because why is it lacking that oomf and lo and behold, Yuna was that oomf
It would be pretty dandy to have a vn option in here ngl, especially when I get wrapped up in au talk because anyone whose ever had convos about them with me (you being one of them), know I can transcribe essays about them
Receipt 1 - 👀 it was actually in the moment and even tho its comedic I feel like Hoseok was just getting into his anger and so I left it. Because man's is MAD. WE KNOW THIS. But he's still giving Namjoon his right of being yn's husband and I feel like Hobi was very flustered and angry and I also really didn't want to take it out 😂
Receipt 2 - I definitely wanted to give Sung a chance here, alas it was not enough. Even I wouldn't forgive him. Sometimes it's too little too late. 🥲
P.S Yelling with you in voice notes for the better portion of my Monday was thee best time ever 🤭
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Part 30 - Finale [V]
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Borderline Assault(Sexual); Attempted Sexual Assault(Aftermath); Explicit Sexual Implications; Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Panic; Dissociation; Self-deprecation; Angry/ Protective Namjoon;
Additional Warnings - Graphic Depiction of Sexual Assault; Rage; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate;
Word Count - 4.7k
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A/N - After every trauma, there's always the aftermath and in this au we are somewhat veterans of the 'after'.
It's quite concerning how much research it takes to depict something as real as this, even if some of the aspects are pulled from a past experience. It just goes to show how much of an impact something like this could have on someone.
Needless to say, our oc definitely deserves a bunch of happiness... but then... some of the best people, aren't meant to be happy.
We're almost to the end of this era of the Nerve Universe. I will be posting [E] and the Epilogue together, tomorrow.
xx Dee
I can’t believe we’re so close to the end!!!! Im so glad mc let namjoon hold her through this and opened up to him - I’m glad they’re regrowing together and ugh I just wish I could give mc a million hugs because she’s been through hell and back 😭😭😭
bring on the last chapter 🥺
p.s. I almost cried at how she acknowledged he’s more than made up for his cheating 😭
He definitely has done his best in making up for his mistakes. I feel like yn knows that she's made peace with it because she's finding it easy to let joon be her husband and she feels now more than ever that she can't lose him.
I love where you say they're regrowing together because they truly are, they're handling it together with more communication even if it's in arguments and they're doing their best to fight.
Sigh oc needs love, and some happiness soon.
Sexual themes
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Part 30 - Finale [R]
Part 30 - Finale [V] - coming soon
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Borderline Assault(Sexual); Attempted Assault(Sexual); Explicit Sexual Implications; Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Panic; Dissociation; Self-deprecation; Blood and Violence; Angry/ Protective Namjoon; A very very angry band;
Word Count - 11.3k
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Additional Warnings - Graphic Depiction of Sexual Assault; Intent of Sexual Abuse; Rage; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate; Violence! Blood; Injury; Verbal Humiliation; Narcissistic Behaviour; Mentions of Grooming; (Implied) Unhealthy Obsession); Explicit Language;
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A/N - This is it. The following update may have potential triggers for psychological trauma not only on the OC but on the reader. It was hard to write. It was hard to read. It was hard to finalize. Please understand that the following chapter contains a complete representation of OC's current psyche and mental state as she goes through the intended events. PLEASE!! Proceed with caution as this whole update is a MAJOR trigger warning.
this took me so long to read because one, i kept getting interrupted and two, bc it was so damn triggering to read.
y/n is truly a mess. see? this is why i see her as a character/oc nd not a reader bc altho to some may resonate how she feels is so complex: yuna, the people involved nd their reactions, her father, the grooming, the numbness, self hatred...
i imagine this is how assault victims feel like. i don't even feel like i've got the right to say something bc i have never experienced anything (thank God) close to assault.
it hurt me so much. your writing is beautifully sharp.
thank u for nerve
I am grateful that you have been here through the journey, and you got through the update in whichever way you could
I agree it was a very triggering update and you were determined to get through it nonetheless. I appreciate that.
However you perceive yn, know that you are right there with her and you have been. <3
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Borderline Assault(Sexual); Attempted Assault(Sexual); Explicit Sexual Implications; Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Panic; Dissociation; Self-deprecation; Blood and Violence; Angry/ Protective Namjoon; A very very angry band;
Word Count - 11.3k
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Additional Warnings - Graphic Depiction of Sexual Assault; Intent of Sexual Abuse; Rage; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate; Violence! Blood; Injury; Verbal Humiliation; Narcissistic Behaviour; Mentions of Grooming; (Implied) Unhealthy Obsession); Explicit Language;
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A/N - This is it. The following update may have potential triggers for psychological trauma not only on the OC but on the reader. It was hard to write. It was hard to read. It was hard to finalize. Please understand that the following chapter contains a complete representation of OC's current psyche and mental state as she goes through the intended events. PLEASE!! Proceed with caution as this whole update is a MAJOR trigger warning.
This was so intense and SO REAL. Dee, you are an amazing writer. I can't emphasize this enough. I love you and I love this story
🥺 Thank you so much!! Those words really mean alot to me.
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Borderline Assault(Sexual); Attempted Assault(Sexual); Explicit Sexual Implications; Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Panic; Dissociation; Self-deprecation; Blood and Violence; Angry/ Protective Namjoon; A very very angry band;
Word Count - 11.3k
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Additional Warnings - Graphic Depiction of Sexual Assault; Intent of Sexual Abuse; Rage; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate; Violence! Blood; Injury; Verbal Humiliation; Narcissistic Behaviour; Mentions of Grooming; (Implied) Unhealthy Obsession); Explicit Language;
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A/N - This is it. The following update may have potential triggers for psychological trauma not only on the OC but on the reader. It was hard to write. It was hard to read. It was hard to finalize. Please understand that the following chapter contains a complete representation of OC's current psyche and mental state as she goes through the intended events. PLEASE!! Proceed with caution as this whole update is a MAJOR trigger warning.
Ahhh it is WAY past my bedtime but there was no way I was going to sleep without reading this update! Firstly, FUCK that was so heavy, I felt like my heart was flung to the ends of the Earth and back all within this chapter
You know when I said Kwang deserved a right hook - yeah, scratch that, he deserves worse than jail tbh there's no space in the world for people like him - it's just pure sickening
But also, I love oc's family and the way they all protect her with every fibre of their being - Namjoon fighting for her just had me in a puddle 🥺 like, fuck, they really are endgame
I was surprised to see her dad jump in but he really missed his window sigh...
OC's healing journey is a long (and non-linear) one and I just hope she can let (at least) Namjoon in before it spirals into something unsalvageable! Bring on the next chapter!!! 💜
Nerve >>>>> Sleep. 🤭
That seat next to me on my bench is still available 🤗
Kwang was definitely not one of my favourites to sketch tbh. He's just got so many intelligent and calculated characteristics about him, that make his actions so unbelievably derogatory. I agree that he deserves a fate worse than jail and death. It was not great to write any of his actions out. But Atleast he served his purpose in the au.
Goodness i loved every single second of writing angry band members. They adore her. And yes Namjoon being so angry was something expected but Jin has my whole freaking heart for being so protective of her.
Oooh Sung is just,
As for oc, 🥺 a long hard journey awaits her. But our yn is strong. And she's dealt with happiness evading her at every turn. Hopefully this is the last bit of bullshit thrown at her. (the writer who is the cause of all of OC's pain says ruefully)
Just hopping on here to post today's update. Will get to reblogs and asks and comments tomorrow <3
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Genre - cheating; aftermath; husband au;
Summary - You would never expect it really. He’s doting. He’s sweet. He’s hardworking. But he’s forgotten his morals. Suspecting it is one thing, but when he confirms it, will you stay or walk away.
Warning - Cheating(Aftermath); Angst; Borderline Assault(Sexual); Attempted Sexual Assault(Aftermath); Explicit Sexual Implications; Heavy Angst; Anger; Anxiety; Overwhelming Feelings; Memories tied to a traumatic event; Psychological Trauma.; PTSD; Sadness; Emotional Hurt; Comfort; Panic; Dissociation; Self-deprecation; Angry/ Protective Namjoon;
Additional Warnings - Graphic Depiction of Sexual Assault; Rage; Hopelessness; Guilt; Self-loathing; Self-hate;
Word Count - 4.7k
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A/N - After every trauma, there's always the aftermath and in this au we are somewhat veterans of the 'after'.
It's quite concerning how much research it takes to depict something as real as this, even if some of the aspects are pulled from a past experience. It just goes to show how much of an impact something like this could have on someone.
Needless to say, our oc definitely deserves a bunch of happiness... but then... some of the best people, aren't meant to be happy.
We're almost to the end of this era of the Nerve Universe. I will be posting [E] and the Epilogue together, tomorrow.
xx Dee
Sexual themes
