A post with lots of words
I know I haven't been very active here for the past 8 months, but so many things have happened and I've mostly kept my fangirling activities to Twitter (@ikinariyabai, mostly multifandom trash with sprinklings of personal stuff for good measure). I'd like to say it's not because I've lost interest in JUMP, though I still love them to bits, just not as intensely crazy as before.
I'm not writing this post to explain my absence from tumblr, but to just to organize some of my thoughts someplace less likely to become toxic.
I've branched out into other JE groups as well, and so my love has been spread out. First it was Sexy Zone and Arashi, and then NEWS took over. Then SixTONES snuck up on me and then blew tf up.
Since May 2019, I've been to Germany on a field course and went camping in Banff, so I've been doing a bit of travelling. I also lost a family member this summer and I'm not sure if I'll ever recover from it completely. I'm also finishing up my last month of undergraduate studies and I have no idea what to do after I graduate. In short, it's been quite a hectic year.
But most importantly, the reason I've been subconsciously staying away from the main body of Tobikkos is, well, the fandom, Japanese and international. It's not the fault of any one individual, but the impression as a whole (2 wholes? Japanese fans are kinda separate from international fans). I guess bad news is often louder than good, but the bad behaviour of a few Jpn Tobikkos really put me off. There are also some intl Tobikkos who kind of rub me the wrong way (some a bit more understandable than others because they're technically still in high school but still).
Tl;dr I didn't fall off the face of the earth, I'm super busy, and the fandom is giving me pause.
PS I intend on going back to helping the confessions tumblr after my exams. Oh I also have subbing projects, let me know if you want to know more about them!
