Fluxtides

From our first date night out in at least 6 months?

Still here, still fucking with Snapchat filters, just 20lbs heavier than I was last year.

I’m still here

So today consisted of pushing my physical limits, and being proud of myself, and making dreams come true.

Something special

The past year Iv moved twice, roadtripped through 13 states in a car I bought myself, got into my first choice university, got an internship with one of the top aquariums in the world..

after feeling like a loser for so long and finally winning, I can look back at this year feeling accomplished, i wasn’t losing, just in transit to greater things.

I never could have done it without me * pats self on back *

but really I’m so proud of myself and now I’m just sitting here in my mid winter break like... what now?

My dreams are coming true, and maybe that’s why I’m so anxious?

I’m going to graduate this year and go on to university, and from January to June 2019 I’m going to be interning with the Monterey Bay Aquarium with their sea otter research program.

I got word today that I was selected, and I still can’t believe it, I’m happy, but overwhelmed

Out of over 50 people I’m one of the 3 people they chose, how did I do it?

Iv been told I deserve it, it’s everything Iv been working towards and will be me job security fin the future, I’ll be living my dream working for the aquarium, and maybe I’m just scared because I don’t want to fail?

I’ll be so busy, working 24 hours a week, interning 24 hours a week, and taking a full load at school.

I don’t know how I’ll do it, but if Iv accomplished this much so far, I can do anything

My bf just decided he likes the office now, 2 years in, after Iv been trying to get him to watch it, for 2 years!