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The Umbrella Academy: 4x03

seokjin x that part in airplane pt 2 (for @kimseokjin)

Yours truly, Penelope Bridgerton.

Bridgerton (2020—) 3.06 | Romancing Mister Bridgerton

Bridgerton, Season 3 Episode 6: 'Romancing Mister Bridgerton'

I should like to dance with my husband in the light of day.

Bridgerton (2020—) 3.07 | Joining of Hands

I went back and read all of the letters you have sent me. Your letters have always been the ones I am most eager to read. Bridgerton 3.08 - “Into the Light”

LOVE (noun) a) affection and tenderness felt by lovers b) affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests c) warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion d) an assurance of affection

#you know it's serious when they pull that face

Eloise and Benedict + swings through the seasons

some things stay the same

BRIDGERTON (2020 - ) | s03 ep07 'JOINING OF HANDS'

"pen, ever since i found out you are whistledown, i have done everything i can to try to separate you from her. but the other day, i went back and read all of the letters you have sent me. your letters have always been the ones i am most eager to read, and i realised, you are her. you have always had one voice. there is no separating you from Whistledown and after seeing you speak today, well I would not want to. but forgive me that was bloody brilliant. i think, in truth, i...have been envious of you, of your success, of your bravery, and now i cannot simply believe that a woman with such bravery loves me. how lucky i am to stand by your side and soak up even a little of your light. if my only purpose in life is to love a woman as great as you...than i will be a very fulfilled man, indeed. i love you."

but can we talk about the fact that Colin really truly has NO IDEA Penelope loves him? It broke my heart when at the end of the episode, he was there basically going 'If you got caught up in the carriage and you change your mind, I understand' when she left for a while at their engagement ball and constantly said 'I have to tell you something'

like he's of the belief that what she wants to tell him may be that she doesn't reciprocate his feelings and that it's a love match just on his part. he thinks she's settling for him because he's the one who mucked up her chances for a different proposal but he cares for her so much he can't let her go

both of their sexual encounters so far have been Colin giving her pleasure partly to prove that he's worth holding on to, reinforcing his belief that he's only worthwhile if he can provide something. he truly doesn't believe he's loveable just for who he is, but for what he can do. in the carriage, he asked if she accepted Debling's proposal and she said Debling didn't propose at all because of the scene Colin caused, thus eliminating the choices for her. It was him or nothing, basically. Colin said he had feelings for her, but she said she wanted to be more than friends. It makes sense to me that, in part, his motivations in that carriage were threefoldfold: to show her he was serious, to revel in her pleasure, and 'let me prove how nice I can be to have around'. Then in the first time scene, they had sex after he stood up for her to Portia, providing a defense and informing he loves her and that's why he proposed. He complimented Pen, talked about how much he wanted her, and said aloud repeatedly that he loves her, but she tells him that no one else had defended her like he did before, and that she appreciates it. Not that she loves him back. He wants to be intimate with her, of course, but also he wants to prove himself a good candidate for her affection, because he doesn't believe he already has it. 'Don't you want to keep me around? Don't you see how good I can be? The good I can do?'

And it just gives added weight to his 'Then what good am I to you?' because he genuinely, from the bottom of his heart, doesn't know that she loves him for him, but that her agreeing to marry him is conditional on what he can provide for her

for Penelope, her love for him is a constant, like her heartbeat, something she feels she doesn't have to announce because to her it is so obvious and so strong, but for him, it's not at all obvious, and he knows she wants something more than friendship with him, but does not know that's because she returns his feelings.

I know she's got a lot on her plate right now but Penelope please come tell this man that you love him body and soul, I am crying

i knew colin had his insecurities (and that was especially seen in the church scene) but this was just so eye-opening to read. i also read something somewhere else about how colin needed to tell pen that he loved her more because it seemed like pen was the one who said “i love you” more to colin but i think it was that reassurance he needed to hear, while on her part, his love was something that needed to be shown to her.