we leave our catalyst people so underrated and forgotten, that person who showed you that thing that now you like so much and you forgot them cause that thing wasn’t relevant at all to you in that moment,, and then when you finally grew fond of that thing you only remembered the friends you made when you all already liked it, when there was one person who was the first to introduce you to it

I just returned to tumblr and tiktok suddenly implants a dislike button

I was talking with my little sister about anime and talking about Hunter x hunter I remembered all my shenanigans around it, for example that at the time it was airing I was at high school and entered this social network/app and discovered the whole world of role play, the hxh roleplay community especially really left me marked forever like today I was listening to the ost (god that hyori ittai) and almost cried with the memories, what a time it was, it was full of happiness and actually a lot of learning to me, I learnt english since it wasn’t even my main language or mother tongue and all of the interaction was in english, I remember so many friends that at the moment I can even only tag @irregardlessly-tish and name and remember Captain, (Captain Kyosai) @eon-nabari I think Miso too, I remember being amazed that I could talk with people who were from different states and countries, usa, canada, argentina, even with spanish speaking friends we talked mostly in english, and I was online so much time, my english was never cleaner and fluid, even now I don’t have that level, I forgot some things, rn I’m double checking my words in google translate and I’m still sure I’m making mistakes hahahah I remember such kindness between all members, how fun it was, the interactions in character, how we would comment on hxh’s chapters as we watched them all at the same time, (the last eps from chimera ant arc Istg, we were all crying) I remember playing the online games that I can’t even find now or know how to look for to play by myself but still, without any of you <\3 time really has passed, I remember talking with all of you through skype (bc that was where our connections reached, to the personal, in real life realm) and I don’t even remember how that app worked nor my username and password to all those conversations that are now a lost treasure, I bust a brain cell trying to remember even tumblr and this personal account and definitely cried when I remembered that I probably deleted my roleplay account, my dear “lovelyblind”, my komugi, the queen as some of you called it, what a honor actually to have been behind such a character and many moments, my thoughts and writings, my key to that lost community gone fr, why did I do thatttt, I could have just left it there, in hiatus, suspended, but it’s irreparable and sadly I can get over it as I thought I did all these years but it was just forgetfulness, now I really cried my and all’s departure (omg that is also hxh ost), now I can claim again those memories and carry them with me forever. Gone from my precious hxh community I after tried to join kagerou project, pmmm and ghibli rp communities and it wasn’t the same at all, not to mention tumblr itself was at its climax when hxh also was, and I was part of that fandom at its peak, even before hxh rp I was in One piece rp, I also remember one luffy @rubberbastardout-blog who interacted with my komugi, a blast, but friendship at last, all of it, the one piece is truly the friends we made along the way hahahah, it made me sad to see the accounts I follow here, some I’m sure were hxh rp friends, and have not been used in years, more sad it makes me that the rest will not get to read me even if they are active somewhere, ah my online, far distance friends, I’m here, I’m Dei, I was Komugi :’( my gons, killuas, shaiapouf, neferpitou, meruem, main characters in hxh and in my life as their rp writers. My komugi blog was created early morning and I say goodbye to that phase same hour, who would have known:’) Anyway now it is a farewell and we shall continue life, we are still the same person and through years we’ll carry that person we were deep inside. We are all still somewhere remembering that we had a glorious and happy past and a royal life <3