twice as many stars as usual

wish i could go missing for a little bit and no one would freak out and then i could come back and they'd be like "did you have fun going missing" and i'd be like "yeah, thanks" and then i could do that every couple of months or so and it wouldn't be a big deal

when life has no meaning n u feel hopeless u must turn to russian literature to tell u to kill yourself

I tire of the tragedy of looking into a beautiful maiden's blog page and finding the word "taken." who has taken you where? how can I help you return home?

part of why i recognize little to no difference between so-called "recreational" vs "medical" drug use is because i recognize stress as a medical issue. mind-body dualism has us all convinced that stress is an ephemeral emotion that doesn't affect our bodies, but like daily stress, particularly if you're also disabled in some way, just Will Kill You. it can destroy your organs, overclock your brain, weaken your immune system... the effects of prolonged and consistent stress are underresearched (because then we'd have to question how we allocate labor. lmao), but they're there. if you use weed every day for no reason other than you need to force yourself to relax chemically so you can have fun and take your mind off stress, that is indistinguishable from medical use to me, having discarded mind-body dualism.

“but i don’t like how blood tastes :(” well. grow up. get well soon. i don’t know what else to say to you

Grit: A Poetry Collection, Silas Denver Melvin

Eileen (2023) dir. William Oldroyd