when you do the stretchy stretch and your joints go pop pop
lmao, i hate that my mind immediately went to "what did i do" to the blocking instead of the more appropriate "i guess they found something about me that was an issue in their eyes"
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sometimes I see pictures from when I was younger and it makes me wonder why I spent so much time hating myself. sweet little baby me. I was still growing. I was still learning. I was still getting used to my own skin. I didn’t deserve that
Remember when i disappeared from all of social media for 2 months back in 2019 and literally nobody noticed 🙃
lmao, a guy asked if the trauma that came to light last year caused any after effects and i said not that I'm aware of. did some googling to see what some after effects would be and turns out yup. i do in fact have em. a whole bunch. and it's not just one thing, it's an endless cycle. I do this because this happened, but that also lead to this happening. which leads to me believing this. which of course circles back.
that last post is a perfect example even though it's incredibly true. making myself believe that i don't deserve happiness
maturing is realizing that i should not have children of my own because despite really wanting to be a mom eventually I will never be in the right state of mind for it. and as much as that hurts I can't risk my mental health as well as any child's health and wellbeing
Growing up I would get so jealous seeing/hearing what others (in school and online) got for Christmas but now I'm just jealous seeing people who actually have decent families to spend the holiday with.
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But why is John so sexy when he smokes? He's absolutely delicious🔥😍
And I'm not a smoker😭
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Art by Linnea Sterte.
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Numb // Linkin Park 80s Remix
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martinidog
I didn’t know how much I needed this until I heard it.
The original song is how depression felt at first, this version is how it feels now
@l-heure-du-the this is so VIOLENTLY your fucking aesthetic
From “… nothing matters…” to “NOTHING MATTERS! :D”
LOVE THIS
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AND YET A TRACE OF THE TRUE SELF EXISTS IN THE FALSE SELF
this post is about plastic dinosaurs
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Learn to articulate how you're feeling without accusing anyone of having bad intentions. You can say "I'm afraid of being alone" without saying "you're just going to leave me like everyone else." You can say "I need some reassurance" without saying "you probably don't love me anymore." You can say "I'm afraid I've hurt your feelings and I'd like to talk it through" without saying "you don't even like me anymore." You can say "I want to spend more time with you" without saying "you've gotten tired of me." You can say "I feel misunderstood" without saying "you always judge me." Try not to let your emotions get the best of you. Have a conversation focused on finding solutions instead of escalating the conflict.
More than having anything to do with avoiding conflict, I see it as being about taking responsibility for your emotions and other needs. Also just not being manipulative or passive aggressive about your support seeking.
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Reblogging for excellent addition by @amysubmits
I dont know if this is considered an unpopular opinion but....
If you're going to shit on John Lennon for being a piece of shit person (which he definitely was), shit on the other 3 Beatles as well bc they were just as big pieces of shit as he was.
I love how i can go from getting dressed and being ready for the day to changing back to pjs and going back to sleep crying in like 20 minutes every single day.
God forbid the house looks loved with plants
Honestly, im done hiding my self harm scars from my mom. She deserves to see the pain they she put me through.
Maybe if she hadnt stayed with the man who abused her kids i wouldn't be doing it.
Maybe if she had kept me in therapy when i was in high school i wouldnt be doing it.
And just maybe, if she had kept her promise to me that she would protect me and call out the man who molested me, instead of what she did instead of lying to my face, protecting HIM instead and going along with his plan to make the entire family think im a compulsive liar....
I would not be cutting my arms.
I would not be praying to be hit by a car whenever i do go out.
I would not be praying for the strength to just down the painkillers and alcohol in the unlocked kitchen cabinets right now.
Just maybe
And you know what. I hope the pain of failing to protect her child sticks with her the rest of her life.