p. syndrome

Hyemin thinks she can’t be any happier. That is always the thought lingering in her mind whenever they go on trips together. Uninterrupted quality time just for the both of them, away from the hustle and bustle of real life, an escape from reality. This getaway was no exception. They had spent the day doing whatever their hearts desired; sightseeing, watching a movie and before the long awaited birthday party, an amazing Italian dinner with scrumptious food plus great wine.

It is during dinner time that she noticed something was amiss. Her boyfriend seemed to be in his head even though he was trying his best to be present. The constant glances at his phone were hard to miss. In the middle of the meal, she reaches a hand out to grab his in an attempt to capture his attention, “Are you okay, baby?” When he explained it was due to nerves for the upcoming party, she accepted the reason with no further questions asked. This group of friends must be precious to him, she thinks to herself. His nerves are contagious. She can’t help but worry about the party as well.

Her worries are unfounded because in fact, there is no party at all, according to Jisoo. As soon as he announces that, her brows furrow, her facial features taken over by complete confusion. “What? What do you mean…” There are so many questions running in her head but when he brought her into their newly decorated hotel room, they are all answered. Her once confused expression turns into utter surprise. Eyes widening, mouth agape, she takes in the sight of the balloons, the gifts, the bouquet, the candles and rose petals sitting on the bed and lastly, the man kneeling before her. And while the view outside the large window behind him is picturesque, Hyemin can only see the love of her life and the shiny diamond ring he is holding. Her heart skips a beat upon hearing him pop the question.

They have been jokingly proposing since last year but this is truly unexpected. She would have been convinced that she is dreaming if not for the warmth she feels while cupping both her cheeks. Overwhelmed with emotions, happy tears well up in her eyes. “Oh, sweetheart…” Earlier today, Hyemin thinks she can’t be any happier but this evening’s event proved her wrong. Her entire being is now filled with so much joy and love that she had never felt before and it is all thanks to him. There is no hesitation when she nods in response, her coloured lips mirroring his bright smile, “Yes, Bang Jisoo, I will marry you. For realsies.”

365 reasons why I love you:

1. You make my soul tingle.

2. We clicked instantly.

3. You felt so familiar to me, like an old friend that I haven’t met in a long while and we were just catching up with our lives.

4. We had a lot to catch up on.

5. We can talk about anything and everything. (Well, maybe except for exes and you respect my decision about not discussing about them too much since I dislike the topic)

6. Talking to you is fun, mind stimulating and entertaining.

7. I feel the need to reply to you quickly because I like talking to you.

8. We can talk for hours on end and it’s not boring.

9. You talk to me everyday.

10. You don’t leave me on read for days on end.

11. You always respond to me as quickly as possible.

12. I don’t dread our conversations because you’re not draining.

13. Getting to know you was (still is) a fun journey.

14. I like your perspectives on life, they are refreshing.

15. Your thoughts are interesting.

16. I love how your brain works.

17. Our silences are comfortable too.

18. I like resting beside you and doing nothing except holding each other and enjoying each other’s presence.

19. You are so amiable.

20. You send memes all the time.

21. And memes is your love language, that means you show me your love all the time.

22. Your endless supply of memes that makes me chuckle/smile.

23. The tiktok videos spam never fails to brighten up my day.

24. You respect my boundaries.

25. You listen to me well.

26. Whenever possible, you try to avoid actions/behaviours that would upset me.

27. You are so patient with me.

28. You answer all my questions even though I ask a lot.

29. You explain things well so that I can understand.

30. I like hearing your thought process and explanations.

31. You are honest.

32. I can ask you for your opinions and advice and you don’t sugarcoat your answers

33. You are forgiving.

34. You are understanding and always listen to my side of the story.

35. You accept me, flaws and all.

36. You chose me out of everyone else.

37. You ask questions about me.

38. You want to learn about my past.

39. The way you think silly, childish and bratty young Hyemin is cute and funny after you hear my embarrassing stories.

40. You want to hear updates about my day.

41. I love how you check in on me to make sure that I am feeling okay.

42. You like to make me happy.

43. And you do make me happy. It’s so easy to be happy with you around.

44. You give the best kisses.

45. Your hugs are heartwarming.

46. You spoil me often.

47. You buy things for me that I like, like make up, plushies and food.

48. You feed me even when I’m physically not around you by delivering food to me.

49. You miss me.

50. You’re not afraid to tell me you miss me.

51. You can be vulnerable with me.

52. You talk about your feelings with me.

53. You’re open to deep conversations.

54. You like talking about lighthearted things too.

55. You don’t put a wall between us.

56. Our conversations are the highlight of my days.

57. We can go through many topics in our conversations, from serious to silly, and that’s what I look forward to daily because I always wonder how our next conversation would go.

58. Wednesdays and weekends are (now were) the highlights of my week because I get to be with you.

59. Other days too, whenever I get to see you, it is a good day.

60. You like hanging out with me.

61. You’re so clingy just like me.

62. We are so similar in many ways.

63. I like how we understand each other deeply.

64. The deep understanding makes us love each other better.

65. You always want to be around me.

66. You are good company.

67. It’s always fun with you around.

68. Whenever I do something fun, I long for you to be with me.

69. I want to share many fun experiences with you.

70. I like making new memories with you.

71. You invite me to sleep over often.

72. Your sleepy face is really cute.

73. I like sleeping in your arms.

74. Sometimes you snore when you’re exhausted and it’s really cute.

75. Sleep is better with you by my side.

76. You are more effective than melatonin.

77. You tell me about your dreams.

78. You are warm.

79. You smell nice.

80. I want to be in your arms forever.

81. You react cutely when I play “Don’t Wake The Baby” whenever we sleep in.

82. I like waking up with you next to me.

83. Your deep sleepy voice makes me melt.

84. Morning sex with you is the best way to wake up.

85. Late night sex with you is the best way to sleep.

86. I like how comfy your PJs are.

87. I like how you don’t wear PJs to sleep sometimes.

88. You take showers with me.

89. I love feeling your hands on me when you scrub my body.

90. You let me watch you whenever you take showers.

91. You tell me if you had a good pooping session.

92. You ask me about my pooping sessions and make sure my digestive system is doing alright.

93. You take bubble baths with me.

94. We make love often.

95. You know how to satisfy me.

96. We are both perverts.

97. We have this game of touching each other inappropriately even in public. ㅋㅋ

98. You can turn me on so easily, with just a picture or even with your words.

99. You are so incredibly sexy.

100. You are so incredibly cute too.

101. You are such a tease.

102. I am weak for you.

103. You work out with me. 히히

104. You know how to make me feel good.

105. You send me dick pics even though taking them is risky.

106. You drew a smiley on your dick just for me.

107. You drew on your butt cheek just for me too.

108. Your scrotum mole.

109. Your beauty spots.

110. How we have matching cheek moles (on our faces).

111. How possessive you are.

112. And how you don’t mind that I am possessive too.

113. The way you remind me that I’m yours and only yours.

114. And how you assure me that you’re mine and only mine.

115. You give me the freedom to go out with my friends and do whatever I like.

116. The way you can quiet down the noise in my head when I’m overthinking.

117. You trust me.

118. I know I can trust you.

119. You are reliable.

120. Your broad shoulders that I like to rest on.

121. I can lean on you when times are rough.

122. You give the best massages when I need them.

123. You have lovely hands.

124. Your long fingers are magical too—

125. You cut your nails short.

126. You share your sensory spa sessions with me.

127. You share your weighted blanket with me.

128. You make me feel special.

129. You still give me butterflies after all this time.

130. You are responsible.

131. You are kind.

132. You are a good friend.

133. You’re family oriented.

134. You take good care of the people around you, especially your loved ones.

135. You are so caring.

136. You are so loving.

137. I know you’ll take good care of our little family.(It’s not that little actually, we have 8 pets but I love it)

138. You are a man of your word.

139. You are manly.

140. A manly man who loves stuffed toys is cute.

141. You share your stuffed toy collection with me.

142. You share many of your personal belongings with me, mainly your clothes.

143. You let me steal them even though there are some that you really like.

144. Your clothes are so comfy.

145. You take care of your babies well.

146. You are a good catdad.

147. You are a good dragondad too.

148. You love my babies like your own.

149. The way you talk to our babies. It’s adorable.

150. Your gentle scoldings when they are misbehaving.

151. How you comfort them if they seem sad.

152. The way you spoil them with treats and toys.

153. When you run around and play with them, making sure that they are entertained and happy.

154. How you only want the best for our babies.

155. You are a good pupdad to Choomie.

156. How you allow Choomie to join us on our long walks.

157. You holding both my hand and the leash. It’s a small gesture but it feels protective somehow.

158. When you carry Choomie back from walks.

159. You are so gentle and loving with babies.

160. You take care of your biggest baby (me) so well.

161. You are a good boyfriend.

162. You are a gentleman, you open doors for me.

163. You soothe my anxiety by giving me reassurance whenever I need it.

164. We can rely on each other for support and comfort.

165. It feels like we are team players in this game of life.

166. Spending the rest of my life with you is going to be so fun, I just know it and I can’t wait to see what life has in store for us.

167. You try your best for us.

168. You’re an animal lover.

169. Even though you’re scared of large animals, which I find endearing.

170. You hold my hand tight when we experience turbulence on the airplane.

171. Trips with you are so healing and fun, sometimes too fun that it leaves me with a gaping hole when we come back. ㅋㅋ

172. I like how we both get post vacation blues.

173. Traveling with you is a good break from reality and I can’t wait to see more of the world with you.

174. How you patiently wait for me to snap pictures before we indulge in our food.

175. You feed me often and make my tummy happy.

176. You are so brave.

177. You can be spontaneous at times.

178. You are open to new experiences.

179. You tell me about what’s going on in your life and include me in it.

180. You include me in your family gatherings.

181. You let me meet everyone in your family even your baby nieces.

182. I love how gentle and affectionate you are with your baby nieces.

183. Your shy grin. It makes me feel accomplished when I can make you shy.

184. And it usually happens when we talk about pegging.

185. I like pegging you.

186. Your moans whenever I get to peg you.

187. You are such a good boy.

188. How it is not easy to make you blush even though you make me blush so easily.

189. The way you admire the sea and the waves.

190. You look like a mermaid when you’re in water.

191. The way you are amazed by nature when we are surrounded by it.

192. Your little cute pouts. It makes me want to snog you so badly.

193. Whenever you snuggle up close to me when you’re still in dream land.

194. How you can pull of many different hair colours (I still want to see pink in real life and not just in pictures—)

195. Your smooth, shaved (ㅋㅋㅋㅋ) skin against mine.

196. You tell me that you want to shave your pubes into a heart shape for me.

197. Your gentle nuzzles.

198. I like it when you bury your face in my chest.

199. How you love my boobs unconditionally.

200. The way you care for your friends and go out of your way to make them happy or cared for.

201. How you never forgot me despite the one year absence.

202. You always remind me that I deserve good things.

203. You are my good thing.

204. Your knowledge about Avatar.

205. The way you spazz about Avatar-related news.

206. The way you patiently explain about anything Avatar-related so that I’m up to speed.

207. You bought for me Avatar-themed makeup.

208. How you trusted your gut, went against the naysayers and allowed us to happen.

209. How you tell me that I shouldn’t go through things alone and that we can be scared together.

210. You greeted me at the airport and gave me flowers when I came home from a business trip.

211. You didn’t care that there were people around, you kissed me in front of the arrival gates like you couldn’t help it.

212. Your obsession with Lego.

213. You surprised with me Lego flowers that you built all by yourself.

214. How we build Legos together.

215. The way you look so focused when building them.

216. How you get so excited about new Lego releases.

217. How you get excited over Avatar-related things too.

218. The way our hands fit together.

219. The way our bodies fit together.

220. You allow me to be in your purrsonal space.

221. How you like my cat puns.

222. How you speak in cat puns too. That’s really sexy.

223. You are so punny.

224. You are so funny too.

225. You make me laugh so easily.

226. You have a great sense of humour.

227. Your support. It makes all the hard work worth it.

228. You work hard too.

229. You’re so independent.

230. You are inspiring.

231. When you tell me that I inspire you everyday.

232. When you tell me that you are proud of me.

233. I am proud of you.

234. How respectful and polite you are to my mother.

235. You bought my mom a gift.

236. My mom loves you.

237. How you share YouTube channels that you are currently watch.

238. MrBallen marathons with you.

239. You ask me to be your plus one when you get invitations.

240. You want to introduce me to your friends.

241. How we share animal/cat videos often.

242. The way we are planning our future together.

243. When you tell me you can’t wait to marry me.

244. How we are both looking forward to our adventures.

245. The way you can read my thoughts.

246. When you know what I want to say when I start off with “Baby”.

247. When you say “I love you too” even before I said it myself.

248. The way you know me so well.

249. You are my best friend.

250. You feel like home, you make me feel safe and secure.

251. We are both learning to be better partners everyday.

252. How my oversized hoodies and shirts fit you.

253. The way they smell like you after you borrow them.

254. Your cute complaints after you find that I’ve been stealing your clothes again.

255. When you tell me those three words daily.

256. When you show me your love through your actions and supplement them with those words.

257. The fact that we found each other again.

258. You are like the first cup of coffee in the morning, you make my soul feel alive.

259. You are my soulmate.

260. You are my quackquack.

261. Your fascination with duckies.

262. Your fascination with frogs.

263. How you are my boyfrog to my girlfrog.

264. Our matching headers and display names.

265. You cook for me.

266. You are a good chef.

267. How you are obsessed with tomatoes/cherry tomatoes.

268. When we discuss about our future wedding/home.

269. The random proposals.

270. You saying yes to my random proposals.

271. When you tell me you want to spend forever with me.

272. When you tell me how excited to you are to be my husband and how you can’t wait for me to be your wife.

273. How you show me things that I’ve already seen. It shows that our algorithms have matched.

274. You know so many languages. What a sexy polyglot.

275. When you speak in a different tongue and I can barely understand what you are saying but it’s still sexy somehow.

276. I am so whipped for you.

277. Your buns are whippable—

278. You are so smart.

279. How good you are at games. You beat me in most things.

280. You introduced me to the chaos that is Plato.

281. We played Battleship and even though it seems like I’m winning sometimes, you always end up sinking all my ships first!!!

282. How you get so mad at me for throwing in the towel when you are clearly winning. ㅎㅎ

283. How we used to laugh while playing mini golf on Plato because we are so bad at it.

284. The way we end up not playing mini golf seriously and just try to knock each other’s balls into the water or away from the hole instead of aiming for it.

285. How you don’t get mad if I win you in Ocho… not too much at least.

286. You used your baby picture to guilt trip me so that I wouldn’t let you lose. ㅋㅋㅋ

287. Your baby pictures are cute.

288. Your dumbo-like ears.

289. Your yummy cheeks (face and non-face).

290. You introduced me to Zepeto.

291. You like having matching outfits in both Zepeto.

292. You give me gifts on Zepeto.

293. You’re not ashamed to wear matching items with me in real life.

294. When you teach me how to play certain games or new phrases in another language.

295. The way you teach.

296. You are a great teacher.

297. You are dedicated.

298. Your weekly uploads.

299. You have a lot of great ideas.

300. You teach Korean in an unconventional way and it motivates me to be creative with my makeup tutorials too.

301. You watch my makeup tutorials even though you don’t wear cosmetics.

302. You watch the show I was featured in even though it’s not something you’re interested in.

303. How hot yet cute you look in glasses.

304. Do not get me started on you in suits. You look like a present in suits and I can’t wait to unwrap you—

305. You look adorable in my oversized hoodies.

306. The way you let me feel my feelings and tell me not to apologise for them.

307. You let me be myself.

308. The songs you’ve played for me. Whenever I hear them, it makes me warm.

309. Your voice.

310. The way your pretty fingers dance on the keyboard.

311. You can play the piano.

312. You are very cool.

313. You constantly want to be better.

314. You have a black belt in Hapkido.

315. You would Hapkido anyone who tried to be funny with me.

316. You know Judo too.

317. How you want to be the best in everything that you do in life.

318. How you won’t settle for anything less.

319. You work hard in your hobbies too and it shows.

320. You don’t give up easily.

321. The way you remind me to take care of myself and take it easy when I’m busy.

322. When you send coffee or sweet things when I’m busy or having a rough day because you know I have a sweet tooth.

323. How you take care of me when I don’t feel well.

324. You taking over Choomie’s walks when I can’t do it myself.

325. How you stay next to me even when I’m sick and not fun at all.

326. The way you would think and consider things in every angle before coming to a decision.

327. You discuss with me and consult me before making decisions. It makes me feel included.

328. You are very thoughtful.

329. You look handsome everyday.

330. You look cute even with your bed head and puffy face.

331. You know just what to say in order to comfort me.

332. You hold my hand whenever I feel nervous and it calms me down.

333. You are a sweetheart.

334. The sounds you make while eating which is strange considering I don’t like eating ASMR.

335. The way you eat makes things look extra delicious, I swear.

336. The way you eat me—

337. You have a talented tongue.

338. You have great lips too.

339. I like kissing your lips, but my favourite is your plump lower lip.

340. I like kissing on other areas of your body too.

341. You are beautiful, inside and out.

342. I can be weird with you and you don’t judge me for it.

343. I love how you don’t mind taking 294729472 photos with me when we go on trips/dates.

344. We looks great together.

345. You live in my mind rent free.

346. You willingly give me kisses when I jokingly demand for them as payments for anything I do for you.

347. The bond we have was not broken by distance or time, it’s still there even after all this time.

348. I feel comfortable around you.

349. You are in touch with your feelings and you’re not afraid to show it.

350. Seeing your progress and accomplishments over the years makes me the proudest girlfrog ever.

351. You spend quality time with me.

352. You don’t complain even though I take long to get ready for our date nights.

353. The way you stare at me after I’m done dolling up and I’m ready to go out.

354. Your sexy stare which makes me shy.

355. How you look at me when I wear lingerie for you.

356. How you are obsessed with Mario and the way your face lights up when we went to Super Nintendo world.

357. You love Thai cuisine as much as I do.

358. You would sacrifice your life for me and your loved ones.

359. I love running my fingers through your fluffy hair, it calms me.

360. The way you are enigmatic and give me difficult hints that I can’t guess your surprises.

361. The way you lift me up from the ground when we hug because of our height difference.

362. You are in this for the long haul.

363. I feel you are the right one for me.

364. You want to have matching rings with me.

365. You are my dream come true.