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What really affected me with Egwene's dreamwalking is that this is a woman who has lost a bit of herself and her connection to others due to trauma. She uses Tel'aran'rhiod to reach out to her loved ones, whether they are physically or emotionally cut off from her. They cannot see or hear her though, so Egwene is haunting them, content in seeing them at peace again. In turn, we see through the characters' dream that sleep is the space where we can find again those we lost, those who are far away from us, those we will lose, even those we can never be.

Sleep becomes the last refuge from grief. Unlike memories it is a world in its own right where the people we lost persist and where we can meet them.

And that might be one of the truest, kindest depictions of grief I've seen recently.

being a symbolism enjoyer should humble you because at the end of the day no matter how eloquently you articulate it youre essentially saying "i love it when things have meaning"

my hobbies are Colours and Shapes but, like, in a mature, sophisticated adult way

You know, when I see fictional characters who repress all their emotions, they're usually aloof and very blunt about keeping people at a distance, sometimes to an edgy degree—but what I don't see nearly enough are the emotionally repressed characters who are just…mellow.

Think about it. In real life, the person that's bottling up all their emotions is not the one that's brooding in the corner and snaps at you for trying to befriend them. More often than not, it's that friendly person in your circle who makes easy conversation with you, laughs with you, and listens and gives advice whenever you're upset. But you never see them upset, in fact they seem to have endless patience for you and everything around them—and so you call them their friend, you trust them. And only after months of telling them all your secrets do you realize…

…they've never actually told you anything about themselves.

Adding onto this: characters who are so deeply repressed that they don't even realize they're not fine, or at the very least not supposed to be fine. Characters who do tell you about a situation they're in that should be bad, but instantly laugh it off saying they can handle it (spoiler: they can, in fact, not handle it). Characters who laugh with you and listen to all your woes and much later you learn that they were actually going through something at least equally bad at the time, but they wave it off and don't want to speak of it. Characters whose main coping mechanism seems to be "don't think about it" on endless loop.

Basically, the fictional embodiment of the "this is fine" dog.

No, but the thing that got me, having just rewatched S2, is how Egwene is still so open to learning from the Wise Ones.

We come from her feeling unseen in the Tower, to Renna's incredibly abusive teaching, using Egwene's desire to be special to dehumanize her, to treat her like a special treasure owned by Renna, to finally land her in the lap of two good, caring teachers.

And despite the simultaneous bitterness of feeling overlooked in the Tower and being coerced by Renna, she doesn't hesitate to promise a worried teacher she won't go into the Dream World by herself.

(which I understand she doesn't, as she went into other people's dreams, at the end, not the Dream World itself.)

She learns SO FAST given proper guidance, my beautiful, beautiful girl.

ALSO RAND. BREAK UP WITH HER IF YOU WANNA SMACK FACE WITH LANFEAR, YOU ASSHAT.

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