Ahahahaha here I am

I have not been on Tumblr in literal years but I just quit my job so like how has everyone been? Is it still gay as hell here? If not I'm leaving again

I posted these as asks four years ago and never got to answer any so

THOUGHT YOU WERE DONE SEEING THESE FROM ME, DIDN’T YA? Me too, I’m so sorry

this one is actually a little different

We know by now that I have an addiction to these stupid things and they were getting repetitive and boring. But going through my facebook memories I found one that I didn’t complete, it was actually done by my sister and she tagged me in it. 

So I thought it’d be cool, since she answered these questions when she was 29, I would leave her responses and add my own now that I’m the same age. 

my sister - 2009/me - 2018

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size... changes by the day...hahaha Is way overrated. I need back surgery. 2. I've come to realize that my job... is rewarding, but one of the biggest challenges Sucks balls, but I have no qualifications to do anything other than retail. 3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving... i dance in my seat Sometimes I’m so caught up in the music that I don’t remember getting to my destination. 4. I've come to realize that I need to take more time out... to have fun myself To get things accomplished instead of sitting in the same chair watching netflix all day. Which is a bit hypocritical since that’s what I’m doing right now. But I never said I was actually gonna follow through. 5. I've come to realize that I have lost... a lot of time to resentment Most of my twenties to depression. 6. I've come to realize that I hate it when... Mark is right...it doesn't happen very often, so it sucks when it does LOL!!!! I can’t bring myself to function like a normal adult. 7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk... I'm not going there... I’m a sloppy mess. That’s why I don’t drink anymore. 8. I've come to realize that money... isn't everything...can't take it with you when you go! Is the cause of most of my problems. Or the lack of it, more specifically. 9. I've come to realize that certain people... will never give you the approval you need from them Can’t just accept you for who you are. Especially when you don’t accept yourself. 10. I've come to realize that I'll always... miss being a kid... Have to work at overcoming my demons. 11. I've come to realize that my siblings... are my best friends and worst enemies at the same time...just as it should be! Mean a lot more to me than I allowed them to in the past. 12. I've come to realize that my mom... has the ambition i wish i had Really was on my side all this time. She just didn’t come from a time where it was okay to show it conventionally. 13. I've come to realize that my cell phone... is for work...but has great pictures of my kids on it! Is not that important. 14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning... I was still kinda bitter I didn’t do any of the things I said I was going to do today. 15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep... I can't always make everyone happy I should’ve taken some pain reliever and a sleep aid. 16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking... I had a chair to sit in... Absolutely nothing. 17. I've come to realize that my dad... is one of my three favorite guys Is the only person on the planet that I can always trust one hundred percent. 18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook... I look at my own pictures...not of me, but those that i've posted, because ya know I've never seen them before It’s all a bunch of bullshit that I don’t really care about. 19. I've come to realize that today... was the one and only time I will ride the Predator...but today was the day we needed I wasted time reading fanfic and watching Criminal Minds when I should’ve been cleaning and packing. 20. I've come to realize that tonight... will be for the kids I have to get something else done. 21. I've come to realize that tomorrow... I'll be hanging in State Park Same as my previous answer. 22. I've come to realize that I really want to... be the best mom to Austen and Maranda Become a better person when I make it home at the end of the summer. 23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is... who knows... Obviously nobody. 24. I've come to realize that life... is the best gift and the worst pain at the same time...especially when you're bringing one into the world. Has to be taken a day at a time or you’ll drown in it. 25. I've come to realize that this weekend... will be way too short Means nothing. I don’t have a set schedule for the difference between weekdays and weekends to be significant. 26. I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset... is definitely country...relates too well most times Only makes me more upset. But sometimes you just have to wallow. 27. I've come to realize that my friends... are my friends because of who they are Are what’s kept me alive this long. 28. I've come to realize that this year... has been one of the best, yet one of the worst Was really freaking hard but I think I’m gonna come out of it alright. 29. I've come to realize that my ex... who cares... Is one of the two best friends I’ve ever had, and I would never have made it without him.  30. I've come to realize that maybe I should... put my laundry away and get the kids' rooms organized...for the love! Get off my ass and clean the bathroom, which I’ve been putting off for a week and a half. 31. I've come to realize that love... happens when you least expect it... Takes a LOT of work. And patience. And not making it all about yourself. 32. I've come to realize that I don't understand.. why i try so hard to please everyone but me Why I’ve made everything so difficult. 33. I've come to realize my past... had some great times with great people, but nothing compares to life as it is now Is my past. I’m done worrying about it. I’ve got a lot to look forward to now. 34. I've come to realize that parties... can be fun, depending on who's there and the purpose Also overrated. I prefer to chill with just one or two other people at a time. 35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified... of not being there for my kids That I’ll always feel like I’ve been a burden to everyone in my life, and they feel it too. 36. I've come to realize that my life... is what it's supposed to be...everything happens for a reason! Is still a complete mystery, even though the Vulcan part of me claims to have it all figured out.

It’s been so long since I’ve been on tumblr I actually had to LOG IN

i cannot stop watching Riverdale on repeat

I just love Jughead Jones so freaking much okay.

2010/2018

Ready for some hard truth twisting questions? i'm sure they're real deep. I’m sure I’ve answered them all already. What was the longest time you've liked someone? this long. Over ten years. Will this weekend be a good one? no. I have to work so probably not. The last person that made you angry, did you tell them? kind of. Can’t remember who it was. Is it hard to make you laugh? no. Not if you have memes. Is there a guy that knows a lot about you? yeah. A couple. Do you have make-up on? no. No I actually took it off for once. What's something your starting to realize? that you can't spell. That I’m never gonna be happy no matter where I am, who I’m with, or what I’m doing. Are you the type of person who seeks out revenge? no. Nah I’m just bitter forever. Do you have condoms in your room? yes. Haven’t used condoms in many years. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about your feelings? amanda. Michael. Amanda and I try to avoid feelings. Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? well sure. Back in the day. Have you ever kissed someone who's name started with N? no. Not that I can recall. Do you believe in Karma? no. I don’t believe in much of anything. Have you argued with anyone in the past 24 hours? my mother, pretty much all the time. Don’t think so. I’ve had some surprisingly pleasant conversations. Anyone crushing on you? doubt it. I don’t know that I’d call it a crush. Has anyone ever given you roses? my parents. Same. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? no. I definitely would not. I can barely survive in the suburbs. Who do you hate a lot? people. Myself. Fess up, who was your New Years kiss with? there was no kiss. he hardly ever kisses me. I’m pretty sure Dave was working on New Year’s. Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around? i'm always my complete self. That. Are you angry with someone right now? me. Not really. Where is the last person you kissed? going to work. At work. Do you believe what goes around comes around? that's the same thing as karma. no. Still this. Are you easy to get along with? no. People think I’m weird. Do you tend to hold things against people? yes. I’m very good at that. Is there a song that every time you hear it, you think of someone? all songs make me think of someone. Anything by the Spill Canvas. Have you held hands with anybody in the last 4 days? yeah. I have not. If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? lip. Nose. Ring, not stud. Like Kesha. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? no. Yeah. What's up with you and your number 2? i am in love with him. Well since this isn’t myspace, I don’t really have a number two anymore. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? not really. I wish I could believe that. Do you have a hickey anywhere? no. Haven’t had a hickey since about a month and a half after the last time I took this survey. Where do you wish you were right now? not here. Home. Who are you gonna be with Friday night? no one. Dave, finally. Did you sleep alone the last two nights? yes. I did. Excited for anything? not at the moment; i kinda just wanna crawl under a rock. House hunting next week. When you are out with your friends, are you loud and outgoing or shy? the loudest. I don’t go out with my friends because my friends live four hours away from me. Honestly, who are you texting? amanda and david. Nobody. Do you get frustrated quickly? very. I’m in a permanent state of frustration. Who was the last person to grab your butt? dave's the only one allowed. But he doesn’t. Do you cross your legs when you sit? sometimes. Occasionally. Do you have sex everyday? no but i would if there were no risk of me getting pregnant. No but I would if it would increase my chances of getting pregnant. Are you uncomfortable staring in to someones eyes who likes you? not uncomfortable, more like nervous. Not anymore. When someone catches your eye, do you try to make eye contact or avoid it? avoid it. Avoid it. I don’t want to engage with people. Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back? i don't know if he loves me or not. because he never said anything when i told him. I always care more about people than they care about me. Do you care if people smoke around you? no. I smoke. Would you pretend to like something to please your partner? no. I’d rather make fun of the thing that he likes if I don’t also like it. Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call, but never do? i gave up caring. It annoys me when people call me. What is your background on your phone? maranda. Jensen and Misha are my home screen, Dave is my lock screen. Think back to January this year... Who did you like? david. My spouse. Do you hate being the first person to start a conversation? no? Not really, as long as I’m around people I want to have a conversation with. What's most important in a relationship: honesty or trust? without honesty there can be no trust. Honesty. Ever kissed a brown hair brown eye person? my favorite. Married one. What shoes did you wear today? none. Haven’t gone anywhere. Do you like flavored water? certain flavors. Wild berry. Have you hung out with any guys recently? that's pretty much all i hang out with. Not recently enough.  What's the best thing about summer? camping. Bonfires, whether camping or not. Would you rather someone just listen to you, or try to give you advice? listen. i vent a lot. Usually people’s advice is stupid. Can you remember how old you were when your appearance started to matter? it still doesn't. It only matters to me. How many times have you cried in a person's arms? not a lot...i don't let too many people see me cry. A few. Like probably less than ten. Has karma had it's way of showing you that it's real? again, i don't believe in it. I love how this was asked three times.

this is actually not from facebook

I am so bored I googled myspace surveys and found a fresh one. Well not fresh because nobody has done myspace surveys in years but yaknow.

1. State your name: Chelsea. 2. State the name that your parents almost named you: I have no idea. I think Charles if I was a boy. 3. Which of your relatives do you get along with the most? My dad and my niece.  4. What was your first job? Cook at a bowling alley. 5. Which of your relatives do you despise the most? I mean technically not a relative anymore since my aunt divorced him but my uncle Jay...he was super abusive and tried to kill her. 6. Did anything embarassing happen this week? I don’t really get embarrassed but it is kind of humiliating having to miss work all the time for health reasons. 7. Do you miss your ex? Only in the sense that he’s my best friend and lives four hours away, plus he’s going through something really shitty right now and I wish I could be there for him. 8. Do you ever dream about your ex? Sure. 9. What is your favorite color of clothing to wear? Black and red. 10. How do you wear your makeup? I had a full face phase. Now I pretty much just wear foundation, concealer, something neutral on my eyes, mascara, and lipstick. Which still sounds like a lot. But I’ve cut out primer, multiple eyeshadows, eyeliner, contour, and highlight. 11. What are some of your nicknames? Nobody calls me by a nickname anymore. 12. How many bedrooms are in your house? Two. 13. How many bathrooms? One. 14. Do you have a job? I do but I keep having to call off and I hate it anyway so either they’ll fire me or I’ll quit and find something else to tide me over till we move. 15. Do you have a car? Yessir. My Impala, Baby 2.0. 16. Do you think you will go to college? No. It’s too late for me to get my life together. 17. Tell me what you think hate means: When you feel strong negative feelings towards someone but still care what happens to them. Not caring is worse than hating. 18. What is your definition of ugly: Being a shitty person. 19. What is your definition of beauty: Jensen Ackles. 20. Do you have muscles? None other than the bare minimum required to keep my body upright. 21. How about abs? Fuck no. 22. Do you work out every week? I physically cannot work out until my arthritis improves. 23. Did you brush your teeth this morning? Nope. 24. Name a fact that you think is bullshit: Well if it’s a fact obviously it’s not bullshit. 25. Have you ever seen Penn and Tellers Bullshit? No I think they’re annoying. 26. Do you like Obama? No. 27. Did you like Bush? Yes. 28. Something about your neighbors that you hate: She repeats stories, asks me stupid questions, and keeps trying to talk to me when I’m trying to go somewhere. 29. Something about your neighbors that you like: Um.  30. Has your neighborhood ever thrown a block party? Not since I’ve lived here. We’re not block party people. 31. Have you ever kissed someone you never saw again? Actually yes. My first kiss. 32. Have you ever held hands with someone of the same sex? Children don’t count. I don’t think so. 33. What kind of bathing suit do you wear? I haven’t owned a bathing suit in fifteen years. 34. Do you like your eyes? Yes. 35. Do you think you are pretty? Not at the moment because I’m gross but yeah I can be. 36. What do you think of girls who are ugly, who think they are hot? I don’t care. 37. Have you ever called someone fat? Sure. 38. Have you ever confronted someone who was making fun of a stranger? Nope. 39. Are you a bully? Probably. But I was bullied incessantly so. 40. Have you ever called a complete stranger fat before? This is almost the exact same question as before. So I have the same answer. 41. Do mean people lack a soul? Nobody lacks a soul. They’re just assholes. 42. Have you ever put a curse on someone who said something mean about you? I’ve tried. 43. Have you ever practiced witch craft? Yes. 44. What do you think of Satanists? I am a Satanist, and most people have no idea what that means. 45. Did you know people who practice satanism could curse you? No, they really can’t. People who practice Satanism simply believe in self-indulgence instead of self-flagellating. 46. Do you believe in hexes? No. 47. Do you believe in vampires? No. 48. Who was the last person you cussed at? The universe. 49. Do you have a jacuzzi? I do not. 50. How much money is in your pocket right this moment? I’m wearing leggings. No pockets. Also I don’t carry cash. 51. How much money is in your checking account? Enough for the time being. 52. How much is in your savings? 42 cents. No lie. I don’t even use that account anymore.

53. Are you well off? I get by. 54. Do you have kids? No. 55. Do you want kids (for those who dont have them)? One.

56. What do you think of people on welfare? I think if they actually need assistance that’s fine but where I come from people abuse it like crazy. 57. If we had a war over a tax on tea, why the hell have we accepted a tax on everything else? Because people are sheep. Taxation is theft. 58. Are you smart? Less smart than I used to be, more smart than people think I am. 59. Did you ever get left back in school? I almost failed grade 11 but pulled my shit together at the last minute. 60. How many times have you gotten after school detention? Never. 61. How many times have you gotten in school suspension? Zero. 62. Have you ever been expelled? If yes, what for? No. 63. What is your worst subject in school? All the sciences. They interested me, I’m just bad at them. 64. Tell me what your back pack looks like: I haven’t had one in eleven years. 65. Who is the ugliest person in your school? Based on 'the inside': That is not a real question. 66. Who is the happiest person you know? Fucking Kerri. And she’s so annoying with her positivity I want to unfollow her on Facebook. 67. Who is the loudest perosn you know? That would be me. 68. Who is the most annoying person you have ever met? BARB. 69. What celebrity do you think is hot? Lots of them. 70. Did you read Twilight? Yeah. 71. Last movie you saw in theatre: Deepwater Horizon. We only go to the movies once a year, if that. 72. Are you dating the same person you dated last year? I’ve been married for three years and we were together for six years before that. 73. Has someone you were dating ever cheated on you? Everyone. 74. Have you ever cheated? No I haven’t. 75. Have you ever flirted with someone online that you never met? Sure. 76. Have you ever met with someone you met online? No. 77. Have you ever been mean to someone just to make yourself feel better? Constantly. 78. Tell me one thing, about yourself, that makes you an ugly person? I don’t give a shit about anything anymore. 79. Have you been honest? I’m always honest, even if I’m a shitty person. 80. Have you ever done drugs? Weed and pills.

i was gonna stop buuut

I’m still not emotionally equipped to deal with the Supernatural finale so I’m gonna continue to distract myself with Riverdale, Cole Sprouse interviews on Youtube, and these stupid ass surveys.

2010/2018

Are you ready for this? probably not but i'm a procrastinator. I’m never ready for anything. What do you think about Love? it's hard. I try not to think about it because I’m already so depressed I can’t move from my spot in this chair and if I take even just a moment to ponder why I’m so miserable I’ll probably just melt right into it. Who has your heart? david. I don’t think it exists. Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you, wheres it from? i don't normally wear necklaces. I don’t wear jewelry except for my rings. Are you tall for your age, or short? taller than average but not tall. Yeah that. What are you about to do? bathe. Keep listening to Cole’s beautiful voice. Tell me about the person you like? i wouldn't know where to begin. I’d rather not. Do you like the smell of coconuts? no. Not really. I like woodsy scents more than fruity. And I hate florals. Expecting something to change in the next month? stuff changes all the time. I’m hoping we find a house. Tell me the truth,ever kissed your boyfriends/girlfriends best friend? no, unlike all his other girlfriends. I don’t even think he has one anymore. What are you looking forward to? my birthday. Moving home. Did you get anything off your chest today? i did a few days ago. I’ve avoided talking to anyone for the most part. How many rings do you usually wear? none. Three. Do you have a bestfriend of the opposite sex? a couple. I do. Can you sleep without blankets covering you? no. I cannot. What did you wear to bed last night? basketball shorts and a tshirt. Pajama pants and a t-shirt. What do you do in you spare time? pretty much this. Watch tv and feel sorry for myself. What were you doing at 10:00 this morning? hanging with maranda. Watching tv and feeling sorry for myself. What time do you think you're going to bed tonight? like 8pm. i'm exhausted. and i'd go to bed now if i didn't have to bowl tongiht. Well it’s already 3am and I’m nowhere near tired so. Which is funny because I have to be up at 9:00. How do you feel about the person who texted you last? i love him. He’s my best friend. Anything irritating you right now? pretty much always. Not really. I’m just being a Debbie Downer. Did the person that hurt you most apologize? yeah actually. idk how sincere it was though. or if he's just really bad at communicating. He did but I still don’t think he meant it, and I haven’t trusted him since. Yaknow, even though we’re married. Do you want to get married? maybe someday. i don't want kids though. at least not my own. I am. Would you ever get your lip pierced? yeah. Still thinking about it. Where would you like to live in the future? nashville. anywhere down south works but that's my first choice. georgia's a close second. I just want to go home. But if I didn’t miss Bradford so much I’d still choose Nashville. It’s fucking amazing. Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh? no. Never. What college do you plan on going to? uh...none. i want to get my cosmetology license buuuut i don't have the money for school. Oh my god WHY did I ever consider cosmetology? I wanted to go to Penn Tech for construction but obviously that’s never happening. Do you have good vision? it's not terrible. It’s much worse than the last time I took this. My old glasses are just prescription readers but I definitely need new ones. Did you speak to your father today? yep. No it’s been a couple days. What do you usually do right when you wake up? go back to sleep. Pee and smoke. Are you too shy to kiss the person you like? sometimes. he doesn't really give out the vibe that he wants to be kissed. kinda sad after being together for a year if you ask me, but oh well. No. Can a girl love sex and not be a whore? i love sex and i'm not a whore. i've only been with one person. so yeah. I mean yeah.  Hate the last person you kissed? sometimes. i love him more than anything though. Same answer. Are you someone who hates to read? used to love it. now it bores the shit out of me. I don’t read books anymore. Just fanfiction.   If you could change your eye color what would you change it to? i wouldn't. Never would. Do you think age matters in relationships? to an extent. Not between two consenting adults. Name of your first cat? steven. Steven was my first cat but he was a family pet. Marshall is the first cat I got living on my own so he’s all mine. And he fucking knows it. That’s my baby. Would you rather be at the beach or lake? lake. Lake for sure. I’ve never been to the beach and have no interest in it. What would you do if you found out the person you liked had a girlfriend/ boyfriend? i AM his girlfriend. I’m his wife sooo...I’d probably be pissed but not surprised. Do you feel like you have life figured out? nobody does. I wouldn’t even want to try. Ever dropped a cell phone? i throw it more than i drop it. Now I drop it more than I throw it. Who last hugged you? randa. Dave. Ever had a pet fish? no. Nope. Do you want your tongue pierced? no. Negative. Gross. Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? kind of. Not happy but slightly hopeful. There’s a house back home that I’ve loved for like ten years and it just went on the market so we’re going to look at it in about a week and a half. Last time you spoke to the person you have feelings for? in person, 2 nights ago. he just texted me a few minutes ago though. Texted him earlier. Haven’t seen him in person in over a week. Have you ever kissed 2 people at once? no. Nope. Was your last kiss drunk? no but it was severely hung over lol I don’t get drunk anymore. What are you listening to at the moment? nothing. i should be showering. Riverdale theories on Youtube. Your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens? haha...she's not retarded. she wouldn't do that. My best friend IS my ex. Do you think you will be married by the time you are 25? probably not. I got married a month before I turned 26. Whats the first thing you did when you opened your eyes today? shut off my alarm and went back to sleep. Took a piss like I do every day. Do you believe exes can be friends? sometimes. it just so happens that my exes are all crazy so we don't speak. You betcha. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a q? no. I don’t even know anyone whose name starts with a q. Where is the last person you kissed at right now? i would imagine he's on his way to work. Working. In Texas. Yes, at this hour. He’s on nights so like 4pm to 6am. Last person you held hands with in the past 24 hour? randa while she was walking. I haven’t even seen a human being in the past 24 hours. Would you go on a road trip with your friends? i've been dying to. I think I was just in love with the idea. Because now the thought of a road trip terrifies me. I hate traffic. Would you shave your entire body (including your head)? no. I don’t shave. Except my vagina when I have the opportunity to get laid. Which is rare because I only see my husband one week out of the month. And even then he doesn’t bother with me. Did you sleep alone last night? unfortunately. I sleep alone almost every night. Have you ever kissed just a friend? yeah. Sure. Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today? no. Well “today” I woke up at 2:30 in the morning yesterday. But yeah I did. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? i know they do. i don't give a shit cuz i probably talk about them too. Don’t care. Is it possible to be single and happy? yes. I wouldn’t know. I’ve never been happy, single or in a relationship. Everyone deserves a second chance, right? not remotely true. Nope. Did you stand on your tippy-toes when you had your last kiss? i don't think i had the strength to. No. Who was the last person to call you? wes. My doctor’s office. Think back to this time last year, were you happy? i was getting there. No. Do you smoke weed everyday? nope. I haven’t smoked weed in years. Have you broken the law in the past 5 days? probably. Don’t think so. Do you have siblings over the age of 21? yep. My sister is pushing 40. lol Have you kissed someone with braces? no. I have not. Did your last kiss take place on a bed? no - my entry way/mudroom thing. Living room. What was bad about today? ha. Nothing really. This is just my permanent state of being. What's been your biggest shock this year? nothing shocks me anymore. I can’t think of anything. Currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? several. Oh hell yes. Can you call the last person you kissed without it being awkward? not really cuz we both hate talking on the phone. i mean it's not awkward just out of character. No. Phone conversations are always awkward, no matter who they’re with. Who was the last person you had sleepover with? i mean i stay at dave's on the weekends but it's not really sleepovers...it's just staying there. I’m almost 30. I don’t have sleepovers. Do you like family get-togethers? well i don't like my family. so no. Complete opposite of my previous answer. I miss my family so much and only get to see them a few times a year.   Do you hate the last person who called you? nope. I don’t have an opinion one way or the other. If you are being extremely quiet, what does that mean? could mean anything. I don’t feel like talking. Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone? no. The cats. Do you like to spend time with people? occasionally. Very rarely. Do you want a relationship right now? i'm in one and yes i want it. Obviously. Where did you last fall asleep other than a bed? couch. I mostly sleep on the couch. Have you ever been called heartless? usually. Not in a while.