10805) To be honest, not having a sex drive anymore makes me feel a lot better and clear-headed.
10804) I'm finally accepting myself, I've been suffering for the past 5 years with the question "Who am i?" i couldn't sleep and most of the time i couldn't eat.
and a week ago i finally just said to myself "Be who you feel", I plan on HRT in a year.
10803) When I see very non-passing trans girls it kind of makes me feel bad because it reminds me that I'm still incredibly masculine and might never pass.
I know it's shitty and horrible to say and all of you are amazing, I just really need to get this off my chest.
10802) Back when I was a "femboy" I had a boyfriend who fetishized my femininity.
He got off on forcing me to wear dresses and generally putting me into a subservient role. He was a creep/abuser in general and that relationship messed with my ability to relate to my gender. For a while I thought I had fooled myself into thinking I was a trans woman due to how he treated me. Now I've accepted being trans but oddly enough wearing dresses, heels, etc. is almost triggering for me and it makes no sense.
10801) My dogs keep me from killing myself every day.
Every day, for some time now, I am being crushed by an overwhelming and very painful sadness and my desire to die comes more clearly into focus and ever larger in my view such that I am less able to see anything else. I am at the point of despair. But I will not abandon my doggies.
10800) i'm scared to come out because my bf is a gay man and i'm afraid he'll leave me.
10799) I'm aroace but for the longest time I thought I must be a straight dude because I could not keep my eye off cis girls.
Turns out I wasn't attracted to their bodies at all but rather jealous!
10798) I haven't got a clue if I'm Trans or if dressing feminine is just a comfort thing for me at home...
It's awful, I wake up feeling feminine some days. Others I don't. I don't know how to figure it out :( Feel like I'm in hell not knowing... :(
10797) I'm supposed to be happy about it, but it feels like I transitioned *too* fast.
In June I went as a guy and in September I was (almost) stealth in my new school. I like to be seen as a girl but I didn't have enough time to get used to it before the real thing happened.
10796) I'm addicted to sissy culture and men's validation because I'm that desperate to feel feminine. It doesn't actually help.
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10795) I thought I was a straight guy for nearly 2 decades but I never related to other cishet guys.
I really liked media with f/f pairings- I'd be drawn towards them and my heart would flutter whenever I saw two girls kiss. Other guys would get boners over lesbian porn but I always found it awkward and fake and I couldn't see the appeal. I'm just now making some connections with my gender identity but I feel like it's a waste of time because I'll never be a "real" lesbian, just an ally at most.
10794) I like who I am as a guy, but I feel no connection towards him.
10793) My first exploration of my gender identity wasn't typical.
I dated guys (and the rare girl) with gender transformation fetishes. It wasn't sexually gratifying to me but I didn't realize it at the time. I just thought this overly restrictive, fetishized way of being a girl was the closest I could get. My partner calling me she/her and by a girl name in a degrading way was the only way anyone would refer to me that way. I wish I knew differently but I can't take it back.
10792) I thought I had "reclaimed" words like tranny and shemale.
But really I think the truth is that I think so lowly of myself that it's easier to think of myself in terms of slurs than words that reflect any degree of humanity.