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r.h. Sin

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22 minutes in a neon room.
i was searching for you
while you chased
after someone who wasn’t me
i was in love
with the idea of knowing you
before I knew you
living in the hell
that i labeled love
while dying to meet
the one in my dreams
not realizing
at the time
that in order to begin
with you
i had to first end it
with any and everyone
incapable of loving me correctly
and you
would only find me
once you decided
to go after more
than you settled for

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you wear the sadness.
the joy is replaced with sadness
your expectation becomes disappointment
the truth was just an attractive lie
a bunch of letting, forming words
that came together to create sentences
of manipulation
the heart becomes cold
as if to lose its summer
the soul becomes tired
you and your restless spirit
what’s behind those dead eyes
you wear that blank expression
like new skin
you wear sadness like the latest fashion
you wear pain like garments
you’ve been draped in anguish
don’t you miss who you were
before who you became
took over your life
do you miss yourself
like i miss you
do you even remember
what it felt like to be happy
have you forgotten yourself
beneath your troubles
and all of this for a love
that turned out to be hatred
all of this for a heart
that never deserved yours
all this hurt
for a relationship
that would never work
all of yourself
all of everything
invested into something
that now feels like nothing

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you need to feel.
Your joy is constantly fading because you’ve built your happiness on temporary things. Your peace has now become reliant upon a weak foundation. Sadly, you’d rather pretend to be happy, smiling in photos, crying when the lights of social media are off. Giving the world a fictional version of who you are, hiding your truth to appease others, your sadness is not a burden. Your sadness is significant. Your sadness is important. This thing that you feel will strengthen your soul if you let it. So feel whatever it is that you need to feel. No matter what it is, you don’t have to be silent.

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on my second glass of whiskey.
You don’t even know how much love you’ve stolen from yourself while trying to maintain unhealthy relationships with people who have proven time and time again that they’ll never be able to love you the way you deserve. You don’t even know how much time you’ve robbed yourself of. All those late nights and early mornings, spent chasing the thought of a person who rarely even thought about you.
You don’t know, and I wish you did. I wish the love you wasted on others would somehow have found its way back to you, but you insisted on finding someone new after every person you lose, not realizing they were never actually losses because you never had them in the first place. I wish you knew that they were never losses because they were never valuable enough to be that, but you were always everything, and you were always giving your everything to a person who insisted on doing nothing, giving nothing. Using you up until they deemed you to be empty every time they were finished. You don’t even know, but I wish you did, or maybe you’ll finally get it after reading these words.

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one hell of a midnight.
i hear the angels
their voices like the rain
touching, tapping my window
begging for my attention
as i lie here, weighed down by sadness
unable to move beneath the madness
the misery is so heavy
the misery is so thick
i hear the angels
but i can’t see them
i hear the angels
but i can’t move
this must be hell
this must be the place
my mother warned me about
this must be the place
i swore i’d never visit
but i’m here
and for some reason
it feels like home
i hear the angels
but they won’t reach me

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the third shot.
What if I told you that you were wasting your time, sitting there waiting for a call that’ll never come from someone who never even deserved to reach you? What if I told you that the love you’ve been craving does not live in the heart of the person you’ve been losing sleep over? All those restless nights, and for what? You could be asleep dreaming dreams that make you smile; instead you sit there all alone in a dark room gently lit by the moon, feelings of being stuck in a nightmare that seems to be playing on loop. It feels like the walls are closing in on you, the ceiling is collapsing. Time is passing, the night sinks into itself, and you become a little less sure of everything you were already questioning.
What if the love of your life is alone, just like you, feeling some of the same feelings? With questions as big as yours and doubts as deep as the doubt that now consumes you? What if holding on to someone who no longer deserves your attention is distracting you from being with the one person who would never hurt you in the ways you’ve grown accustom to? You could really be in love instead of pretending to be in love with someone who does nothing to earn the love you been wasting on the person who isn’t the one you should be with.
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the second shot.
i think you should leave him
i think you know this already
but you’re afraid to start over
you’re afraid of being alone
but don’t you feel alone
whenever you’re near that person
don’t you feel like
there’s something more
out there for you
i think you deserve more
but you already knew that
and i think you’re strong enough
to walk away
from anyone undeserving of your energy
i believe that you are mighty enough
to separate yourself from the people
who are less than you deserve
because you are, in fact,
powerful enough to free yourself
from those who want to keep you in bondage

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the sleeping city
they say New York city never sleeps
but I’ve seen it close its eyes
like a child too tired to fight slumber
i’ve seen the city empty itself
like a soul craving nothingness
and a heart growing numb
it’s almost 2 a.m. and the streets
feel like a ghost town
there are moments after midnight
where i often hear no sound
the sirens arent screaming
on this particular night
just the hum of the wind
and a chill in the air
in just a few hours
the whispers will begin again
the cabs will stampede
down a one-way path
stopping for those who are prepared
to be transported
into the chaos of the city
but until then
the city that never sleeps
is barely awake
and i’ve stayed up for witness it

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the first shot.
She’s tired of giving the wrong people the right pieces of herself. She looks at the one she loves and silently screams within her own mind. She feels stupid at times, but in all honesty, the only one stupid with in this situation is the one too stupid to comprehend her love. Some men are not really men or, simply, they’re not man enough to treat a woman the way she deserves. It’s not your fault that you fell for someone who could say the right things yet fail to act on what they expressed. You’re not weak. Why? Well because you’re strong enough to love even when the love isn’t returned. Your love is unconditional and beautiful. Your love maintains its beauty even when you’re stuck in an ugly, unhealthy relationship, and you still maintain your value even with someone who fails to value you.
Your smile is a symbol of your strength. Broken is what you felt but that isn’t who you are. I want you to know that your love is a flower waiting to blossom, only to be shared with someone devoted enough to pick you up from a garden where only the truth can grow. Every failed relationship was just an opportunity for you to learn what to avoid as you begin to preserve yourself for the one who deserves a space in your life.
She is good enough, she is beautiful, she is almighty and majestic. She is strong and intelligent. She is a Queen deserving of more than what she has had. She is you, and when you discover the type of love that mirrors your own, hold on to it.

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After all,
the world is made up
of different kinds of people,
so sooner or later
you’re going to run into someone
just like you
and you’re going to analyze them
and say,
“Damn, I am complicated
but I am also beautiful.”
And that will be enough
to inspire you
and give you the perfect amount
of courage
to continue being
who you are.

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The thing about you is,
you carry this kindred sadness
that draws me in
and it’s a lot like mine.
It peaks from the edge
of my eyes
when it wants to
and only a handful people
take notice.
It is the same way
I’m noticing yours
and that’s a beautiful thing.
It’s a miracle when similar people
find one another
and that’s why
I’ve got to know you,
that’s why
I got to break you down,
to see if you love
the same way
as I do…
to see
if I’m really
not meant
to be alone.

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You have so much
inside of you.
Like a thousand oceans
and a thousand moons
and here you are…
hurting over something
you will soon grow out of…
something
you’ll soon forget.
So why carry this pain?
When all the love
in the universe dwells
within you.
Find it.
The happiness you’re seeking
begins
and will always begins...
with you.

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