Hey. Haven’t been on here in literally three years I think? Don’t know if anyone still follows this page but just needed to vent somewhere.
TW: RApe
I was raped on December the 15th of 2019. I was drunk at a club with some friends, my girl friend and I got separated from the two guys we came with. We ended up talking to some other dudes who invited us to an afterparty. They were mostly talking to my friend, I was not coherent at this point and was mostly tagging along because I did not understand where else to go or what else to do, because without her I was alone.
They took us back to their apartment and raped us both. I did not process what happened til after we finally got away and our guy friends picked us up in a lyft. I soon began to panic when we got back to my friends apartment and cry, terrified my boyfriend would think I cheated on him. I kept repeating “I didn’t mean for that to happen.” I tried driving myself home so that I could talk to my boyfriend in person and explain what happened, even though he never indicated he was mad. I was scared, I just wanted to shower. I felt so stiff. I ended up getting pulled over and getting a DUI. My life has pretty much been a fucking mess since then. I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m trying hard to be a successful and good person and I feel like I’m failing.
This is going to haunt me for the rest of my life, not only mentally and physically but legally and in terms of my future job pursuits. I hate my life.
