This Blog Is No Longer Active
( Aug. 17, 2020)
Don’t worry, I’m alright and will explain my reasons as to why. No, this is not due to the recent drama in the fandom (contributing a lil bit, but not causing); those issues have been tossed around since....January, was it? (Idk anymore...) Nor is it the lack of game activity. It’s my fault.
A couple months back, I said something that hurt a friend....I mean really hurt. She needed time and space to heal....I didn’t know how long that would be, and I’m sure as hell not proud to say that I didn’t give her that. She didn’t block me at first, I didn’t know what or if it meant anything (in hindsight, she was probably trying to be nice because that’s the kind of person she is; a good person). I didn’t know what to do or what the parameters were, if I should ask or no... BUT THAT WASN’T ANY EXCUSE FOR MY BEHAVIOR. She was in enough pain already, she was hurting, and I don’t know if it was all because what I did or not! I really hope it was! Because at least then I know that blocking me is all it took!!! But you know what?! Tumblr will still show reblogs from blocked blogs....we have so many friends in common, I don’t want her to stress out if she sees my artwork on their blogs, and I don’t want to put our friends in an awkward position. I can’t contribute art to this blog knowing it’s going to hurt her. Let’s face it; I should’ve left long ago. I’ll leave the blog here, there’s too much to simply get rid of and I already left the discord servers I modded for. It’s time for me to move on, away from here. All I ask is this: If she writes a rant calling me out on all of this, DO NOT DEFEND ME. I AM IN THE WRONG. I AM THE BAD GUY. I don’t care about loyalty or whatever other excuse anyone can pull from thin air! LISTEN TO HER. And you know what? Whi,e we’re on that note: LISTEN TO EACH OTHER!!!! If you have time and energy to argue or send hate mail, then you have time to talk through your problems; remind people how amazing they are; how beautiful their artwork is; what amazing writers they are!!!! BE KIND, FOR THE LOVE OF THE EARTH BENEATH US!!!!!
To my friends; I’m sorry for not saying goodbye to you personally, you all deserve better...so much better. Thank you for giving me the name “Blue” (not the fairy, but really me), thank you for always saying such beautifully kind things about my art and writing, thank you for sharing the stories about your ocs and aus with me, and thank you for helping me grow as a person through this year. It’s ok if you’re disappointed in me...I am too....and I hope you will all be able to find happiness wherever it is life takes you. Please remember, you’re all amazing, incredibly talented people with imaginations that can rival the heavens. I love you.
Thank you for letting me be Blue!
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