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Seraphine and Rowan are walking through the neighbouring towns, looking for any signs of magical children or magical families.
Seraphine: We would save time if we were to go our separate ways, you know.
Seraphine: *Chucking incredulously* Oh, can’t you?
Seraphine: *Jokingly* Are you implying that I require your help?
Are you planning on rping soon?
Man, even just this ask gives me a pinch of oomph to try get started again.
The last 2 years have been a shit-show for my mental health, and to be honest I’m still not back on top.
I’ve also been really unmotivated because in the last 18 months I’ve contributed to half a dozen collabs that have never seen the light of day, which has been really disheartening. I totally understand that things crop up for other people and I can’t blame them (especially since I haven’t been bold enough to message people and find out what’s happening) but I feel like I’ve just had a run of bad luck.
Also, I’m still working my 44 hour work week and trying not to panic about the state of the world while my boss 1) doesn’t listen to my input about things at work and 2) complains about rich white people problems, so that’s eating up a lot of my energy.
I guess I’m just struggling in real life and it’s totally taken my spoons from all my creative endeavours. Hopefully I’ll find some inspiration and motivation at the same time and be able to get back into this wonderful community soon.
Yesterday, upon the stair, I met a man who wasn’t there He wasn’t there again today I wish, I wish he’d go away… ― Hughes Mearn
RATING: T WORD COUNT: 7357 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Canon Divergence-Everyone Lives!, post second war, Horror, mentions of mental health issues, Mentions of Brain Disease, Malevolent Presence, Luna Is Very Wise, strange happenings, Unsettling Encounters, Supernatural Gaslighting READ IT ON AO3: The Man Who Was(n’t) There
RATING: M WORD COUNT: 10080 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Remus Lupin Lives, rumination on absence, Depression, home is where the haunting is, haunting with a happy ending, sexy hallucinations, not sexy hallucinations, Number Twelve Grimmauld Place READ IT ON AO3: Hollowing
Harry’s words spiraled out through Remus’ mind in dangerous fractals. What exactly did ‘gone’ even mean? He had thought Peter was gone for a dozen years, only to find that he was alive. The entire Wizarding World had thought Voldemort gone until he had returned! Why should he assume the permanence of Sirius’ death when that line was blurred, when that line was as fragile as the flutter of a Veil? Could fabric not be torn? In which Remus Lupin must come to terms with third chances coming at a very dear price.
RATING: E WORD COUNT: 63000 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Bring Back Black, Canon-divergent in OotP, Dreams, Dreams and Nightmares, Flashbacks, Afterlife, Character Study, remus lupin character study, gothic/Byronic horror vibes, something goes bump in the night, (and that something is definitely Remus Lupin), Dark Magic, Blood Magic, Necromancy, Resurrection, Angst, Self-Hatred, Dissociation, Grief/Mourning, Suicidal Thoughts, Interiority, Body Horror, Body horror/gore including the following:, Splinching (Harry Potter), Severed body part, (it’s an ear), (but it’s got a lot of screentime), Tooth-Pulling, (very brief mention), Ear Piercings, (description of actually giving an ear piercing), Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, imposter syndrome, Panic Attacks, Insanity, Hurt/Comfort, Established Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Mutual Pining, Pining across dimensions, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, (Snape’s a homophobe in one scene sorry not sorry he is Bad), Implied/Referenced Underage Sex, Top Remus Lupin, Bottom Sirius Black, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Blow Jobs, Face-Fucking, 69 (Sex Position), True Neutral Dumbledore, (still sorry not sorry he is also Bad), The moral compromises of a grieving Remus Lupin, Performing Dark Magic in the name of twoo luv
READ IT ON AO3: Be With Me Always
Sirius has changed, but Remus still loves him.
RATING: M WORD COUNT: 753 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Implied Sexual Content, Necrophilia, Implied Necrophilia, Ambiguous/Open Ending READ IT ON AO3: What Isn’t There
The Twilight House is a myth. Unfortunately for Sirius, sometimes the myth is stronger than reality.
RATING: M WORD COUNT: 11691 ADDITIONAL TAGS: camping, snow, getting lost in the woods, death, afterlife, blood, off screen cult, wolves, breaking up & making up, supernatural elements READ IT ON AO3: Twilight House
Magic once existed in England and has finally returned. Mr Sirius Black, a gifted magician, ventures, rash and ill-prepared, into Faerie.
RATING: T WORD COUNT: 11384 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Alternate Universe - Magic, Alternate Universe - 19th Century, Fae & Fairies, Mildly Dubious Consent, (not between sirius and remus), Magic, Curses, Alternate Universe - Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell Fusion, Spells & Enchantments, Romance, Class Differences, RS Fireside Tales, Mythical Beings & Creatures, POV Third Person Omniscient, Happy Ending, Implied Sexual Content READ IT ON AO3: Untold Blessings
Remus has become a master at ignoring everything that’s going wrong in his life. When he hears a voice in the woods that he really shouldn’t, can he ignore that too?
RATING: T WORD COUNT: 3186 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Not Canon Compliant, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Implied/Referenced Character Death, RS Fireside Tales READ IT ON AO3: Woodland at Dusk
When Remus Lupin was eight years old, his mother flung herself off the tallest cliff in that grey little Welsh seaside town, mumbling nonsense about the stars, and about the sea swallowing them all up. Everybody knows that stars don’t exist. Remus has always believed in stars. The people in his village have looked at him like he’s odd since before he can remember – and he knows what they whisper, that it’s Loony Lupin again, as he walks past them in the street. But he doesn’t care, because he knows something they don’t.
RATING: G WORD COUNT: 6000 ADDITIONAL TAGS: wolfstar, Stars, remus believes in stars but nobody else does, Mental Illness, Hallucinations, suicide briefly mentioned, Suicide, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Welsh Remus Lupin, Seaside, Angst, Haunting, Ghosts, Abandonment, Loneliness READ IT ON AO3: If We Believed in Stars
A defunct shopping mall! Totally abandoned, Yet still frozen in time, Bright white lights shining, Artificial turquoise fountains spewing out clear water, Eerie eighties elevator music drifting by… — Rebecca McNutt The zombie apocalypse happened slowly. Pockets of humanity cling onto life, in various safe houses dotted through ravaged countryside. Safe for how long, though?
RATING: E WORD COUNT: 6595 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Alternate Universe - Zombie Apocalypse, Blood and Gore, Gore, Existentialism, Surgery, Blood and Injury, Zombies, Zombie Apocalypse, Minor Character Death, Strangers to Lovers, Getting Together, Non-Explicit Sex, RS Fireside Tales, Banter, Mentions of Pregnancy, Past Character Death READ IT ON AO3: I’m Not Afraid to Keep on Living
RATING: M WORD COUNT: 12649 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Minor Character Death, Corpses, Scavenging Animals, Wolves, some gore, Animal Attack, Major Character Injury, Airplane Crashes, Wilderness Survival, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - Muggle, Canada, Magical Realism
READ IT ON AO3: Eyes that scare the dark
There was once a cozy cottage with a nice room, Then during a bright full moon, Ba-dump, ba-dump, ba-dump, Something went bump, bump, bump. RATING: T WORD COUNT: 592 ADDITIONAL TAGS: RS Fireside Tales, Poetry, that I winged and really should apologize to all the poets for, vague mention of Fenrir’s attack on wee Remus, Remus Lupin tries
READ IT ON AO3: Ba-Dump, Ba-Dump, Ba-dump
DAY ONE
Doomed, Remus must hold winter at bay with a season of sequestered prayer and cold meals all alone at the edge of the world. He would hope for return, but winter has teeth and a taste for blood. RATING: E WORD COUNT: 6335
Remus Lupin thought that life would become better. He was far from home and old worries, in a place where everything was flowers. It felt like a luxury, like a dream. Dreams, however, tended to be brief. And the winter, though momentarily forgotten, caught up with him. His father lost him in a game of cards to Sirius Black. Remus was now imprisoned in an enchanted palace with a cursed Beast. RATING: T WORD COUNT: 6395
DAY TWO
Some sleepless nights and general confusion. - Something’s wrong, Remus whispers. Sirius tightens his grip on Remus’ wrist, his lashes brushing against the back of Remus’ neck. Remus - The tolling of a bell fills Remus’ head, the brittle edge of panic, something screaming at him to run, this isn’t right. Memories - falling, fighting, kneeling in an empty grave as the sun rose over the horizon. RATING: Not Rated WORD COUNT: 1020
There is a legend in the old city of Grimsfall that a large, black creature used to emerge from the forest at night, and anyone who met its gaze would be driven to madness before the thing dragged them into the depths of hell. RATING: E WORD COUNT: 11280
DAY THREE
We are the other of the other. ― Marco Aurelio RATING: T WORD COUNT: 5103
Sirius needed a change of scenery and thought that New Orleans would be the perfect place to get away. The ghost stories were fascinating until they all started to seem a little too real. RATING: T WORD COUNT: 4443
DAY FOUR
Remus lives an unassuming life. He does his best to keep a distance between himself and the ones who could come back for him. He does his best to keep a distance between himself and the world that would condemn him for what he is. This new job seems good. But the further he runs, the more he comes to realise you can’t keep a distance from yourself. RATING: M WORD COUNT: 5816
The magic was wilder here than anything Sirius had ever felt. The muggles were exceptionally superstitious, and to begin with Sirius had scoffed at their wards drawn in chalk and different beads and strings and charms hung outside the run-down and time-worn shacks, but the longer he spent in the village the more he understood. Magic was so thick and untamed that even they could feel it, and mystical beasts that he had not heard of before intermingled with their normal creatures until it was impossible to tell where the magical and non-magical worlds began and ended in relation to one another. RATING: G WORD COUNT: 3506
DAY FIVE
Remus had read the news of Sirius’ escape in the Daily Prophet the day Albus Dumbledore approached him with a job offer. His timing was quite obvious and both men were very aware of this. This employment would mean surveillance, but it would also mean security. And if it only meant financial security, it would probably have been enough to have Remus accept it. Also it was not as if he was abandoning anything – or anyone – if he left for Hogwarts on September 1. So he said yes, despite the news. They had stirred up again everything Remus had tried to contain in the far end of his mind, of course they had. He was in for a lot of sleepless nights, he was sure. And so, when it was time to go to bed Remus lied awake, the faces of Harry Potter and Sirius black ghosting through his mind, invading his dreams and waking him up drenched in sweat from the horrors his subconscious imagined would follow soon. A re-telling of Prisoner of Azkaban from Remus’ perspective. RATING: T WORD COUNT: 51502
“Remus had read the news of Sirius’ escape in the Daily Prophet the day Albus Dumbledore approached him with a job offer. His timing was quite obvious and both men were very aware of this. This employment would mean surveillance, but it would also mean security. And if it only meant financial security, it would probably have been enough to have Remus accept it. Also it was not as if he was abandoning anything – or anyone – if he left for Hogwarts on September 1. So he said yes, despite the news. They had stirred up again everything Remus had tried to contain in the far end of his mind, of course they had. He was in for a lot of sleepless nights, he was sure. And so, when it was time to go to bed Remus lay awake, the faces of Harry Potter and Sirius Black ghosting through his mind, invading his dreams and waking him up drenched in sweat from the horrors his subconscious imagined would follow soon.” A re-telling of Prisoner of Azkaban from Remus’ perspective.
RATING: T WORD COUNT: 51502 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Book 3: Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, but from Remus perspective, Canon Compliant, Canon Rewrite, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Minor Violence, Canon-Typical Violence, Depressed Remus, Because he’s isolated, RS Fireside Tales, NaNoWriMo
READ IT ON AO3: And the Violence Caused Such Silence
Remus lives an unassuming life. He does his best to keep a distance between himself and the ones who could come back for him. He does his best to keep a distance between himself and the world that would condemn him for what he is. This new job seems good. But the further he runs, the more he comes to realise you can’t keep a distance from yourself.
RATING: M WORD COUNT: 5816 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Childhood Trauma, lyall is a good dad, Flashbacks, pre-wolfstar, set in a bar so there is alcohol mentioned, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Grief/Mourning, Werewolf Angst, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, background jily if you squint
READ IT ON AO3: The Scent of Fear and Hope
The magic was wilder here than anything Sirius had ever felt. The muggles were exceptionally superstitious, and to begin with Sirius had scoffed at their “wards” drawn in chalk and different beads and strings and charms hung outside the run-down and time-worn shacks, but the longer he spent in the village the more he understood. Magic was so thick and untamed that even they could feel it, and mystical beasts that he had not heard of before intermingled with their normal creatures until it was impossible to tell where the magical and non-magical worlds began and ended in relation to one another.
RATING: G WORD COUNT: 3506 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Raising Harry Potter, Pre-Relationship, Get Together, Celtic Mythology & Folklore, Irish Merrow, merman, Single Parents, Alternate Universe - Fairy Tale
READ IT ON AO3: Wild Magic
We are the other of the other. ― Marco Aurelio
RATING: T WORD COUNT: 5103 ADDITIONAL TAGS: fireside, fireside 2019, there’s a cat
READ IT ON AO3: The Other of the Other
Sirius needed a change of scenery and thought that New Orleans would be the perfect place to get away. The ghost stories were fascinating until they all started to seem a little too real.
RATING: T WORD COUNT: 4443 ADDITIONAL TAGS: New Orleans, cemetery tours, haunted history, Remus is cold, Sirius is suspicious
READ IT ON AO3: Afflicted
Some sleepless nights and general confusion. - “Something’s wrong,” Remus whispers. Sirius tightens his grip on Remus’ wrist, his lashes brushing against the back of Remus’ neck. “Remus - “ The tolling of a bell fills Remus’ head, the brittle edge of panic, something screaming at him to run, this isn’t right. Memories - falling, fighting, kneeling in an empty grave as the sun rose over the horizon.
RATING: Not Rated WORD COUNT: 1020 ADDITIONAL TAGS: wolfstar, wolfstar angst, sirius x remus, Remus x Sirius READ IT ON AO3: Sleepless
There is a legend in the old city of Grimsfall that a large, black creature used to emerge from the forest at night, and anyone who met its gaze would be driven to madness before the thing dragged them into the depths of hell.
RATING: E WORD COUNT: 11280 ADDITIONAL TAGS: wolfstar, Psychological Horror, Soulmates, Romantic Soulmates, American History, that i mostly made up, medium!Remus, Demon!Sirius, unexplained phenomena, palmistry, Tarot, the grim, Shapeshifting, tiny bit of blood, tiny bit of homophobia, Open Ending, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - Modern with Magic, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Alternate Universe - Fantasy, Explicit Consent, Explicit Sexual Content READ IT ON AO3: Grimsfall
Doomed, Remus must hold winter at bay with a season of sequestered prayer and cold meals all alone at the edge of the world. He would hope for return, but winter has teeth and a taste for blood. RATING: E WORD COUNT: 6335 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Somnophilia, Alternate Norse Religion & Lore, Old Norse, Inspired by Music, Pagan Gods, Alternate Universe - Norse Religion & Lore, Fictional Religion & Theology, Isolation, Winter, Loss of Faith READ IT ON AO3: Strönd
Remus Lupin thought that life would become better. He was far from home and old worries, in a place where everything was flowers. It felt like a luxury, like a dream. Dreams, however, tended to be brief. And the winter, though momentarily forgotten, caught up with him. His father lost him in a game of cards to Sirius Black. Remus was now imprisoned in an enchanted palace with a cursed Beast. RATING: T WORD COUNT: 6395 ADDITIONAL TAGS: Magical Realism, Gothic, Alternate Universe - Fairy Tale, Fantasy, transformations, Self-Acceptance, Magical Elements, Self-Discovery, Fairy Tale Curses, Curses, Beauty and the Beast Elements, Nudity, stripped bare, mild romance, Romance READ IT ON AO3: the idea of you
It’s almost time!
So I’ve been MIA for a while, oops.
I had a rough start to 2020. Lost my fur baby Fred, had some unhelpful conversations with family and the SADs were really affecting me.
I pushed through because I really wanted to try and kick this year in the ass. I took a week off from insta and tumblr to get a fic finished for a fest and then just never returned.
In this time, I also found out that the immense 18-month struggle I went through to wean off some medication that I was told by my doctor was awful and potentially dangerous for me to be taking long term (and had horrendous side effects in the six-month weaning off process) were actually fine and necessary for me all along. So there was a lot of anger and resentment that went along with the depression that followed that revelation.
I’m super sorry for the awesome content I’ve missed; I’m going to be trying to go back and catch up.
