- it said ask again later //
-boy was I wrong// you never wanted me I just wanted you to want me
-why are you giving him all of you//
“Maybe I am Winter and you are Spring. Or maybe we are both trying to grow, but I can no longer thrive in your soil. All I know is I am wilting again, and it seems as though a storm is brewing. How I wish I could take root in something, though. I’m so tired of letting go.”
— Wilting, V.P.
-how do you fall out of love // you can’t
-you looked at me like I had stars in my eyes so why didn’t you take my hand that night?
- I’m looking for a new shell in the mirror but I forgot I can’t see
-everything that was there, is now lost.
As of tomorrow I will have circled the sun 18 times
I don’t know much from 18 years
But here’s what I do know
Youth is fleeting
High school flies by
Friendships are the most valuable currency we have next to kindness
Love sucks and hurts and sometimes makes you want to die but, if even for a single moment you have it, it’s worth it
Learning to love yourself is harder than any math problem I’ve ever tried to solve
Learning to accept that not everyone will love you, is even harder
I will never understand comma splices but I do understand that that every person I meet deserves to feel loved
I know that painting, even really badly, can cure almost any pain
And that writing bad poetry can heal broken hearts
I know that the future will not crumble just because I stumble
I know that stopping to smell the roses is a bad idea if you have spring allergies but taking the long way home to feel the sun puts your mind in the right place
That the world is mine to fix
That I can’t just wait for others to create change
To make a difference
The world is on my shoulders but I’m not holding it alone
I know to laugh every chance you get because yes the joke was stupid but why hold onto a pride that keeps you from smiling
I know to take bike rides and go to farmers markets and listen to music you love
To tell people how you feel when you feel it
And that every chance you get, you should take because regret is worse than failure.
I know that car rides at sunset And picnics in the park are the holiest of moments that God himself gifted to us
I know that singing loud and whispering are two of the most important forms of communication
I know that who I am is a stepping stone to who I can be
And that growth is hard work but so is living
I’m sure I know more
I have to
But at least for now
Here’s what I know
I took the long way home today
To walk a little longer,
feel the sun on my face
And try to remember warmth
It’s been two years
I still don’t feel heat
the same way since you left
You still live everyday like you’re afraid of being alive
I beg of you to start watching the stars
I beg of you to lay in the sun
To make a snow angel and kiss in the rain
To feel more than disappearing.
oh my this is the world in a song
-I should have told you I loved you before it was too late.
i feel so alone without you
“To the boy who told me he was the Night and that I could be a star in his sky: I have daydreams darker than you.”
— and you would get lost in me || O.L. (via poetbitesback)