About me:
Eleanor/Eles/El . 38. England, UK
My views and my beliefs have changed an awful lot in the last few years. I no longer believe in things I once thought were real. I thought it was harmless believing in such things, but it was actually harmful. Though I never partook in any harassment or bullying of any kind, and kept things to myself, I’m not here to deny anything about who I used to be when I believed in what I did, because I’m honest. I will own my sh!t and that I used to believe in something that is actually quite toxic. I know I clung to that something because I needed a distraction from stuff I needed to sort in my own life. It wasn’t right, but I also know I wasn’t mentally sound at the time. It’s no excuse but it explains why I got sucked in like I did. All I can say, is that I sorted my own sh!t, got my head straight and got back to reality. I did a lot or re-conditioning, and learning. I learnt, I grew, I matured. Once you’re out you realise just how manipulative everything is, how it’s all projection and bias and nothing more. I’m glad I’m out. I’m glad u can focus on my fave and not a make believe version of them. I’m glad I can be happy for them. I’m glad I can listen to their music without having to over-analyse every last word and make everything into a ‘narrative’ tbh I wasn’t about that life anyway. I still had my own mind. I agreed to disagree with a lot, but end of, I wasn’t in a good place and being part of that environment made it worse. I’m out now I’m happier now and I don’t have to worry about the life of someone I don’t know, and a life I’m not privy to. I can just enjoy what my fave shares with me, and support them in all they choose to do. That’s it. That’s what I’m here for. I’m on my other blog more than here but I wanted this pinned so it’s clear and I’ve been true to myself and how I currently feel. I’m here to immerse myself in the amazing content; that always adds a sprinkle of sparkle to my day. I’m here for everyone just doing them, but I’m just doing me too. What I’m mostly here for, is: Harry 💚 and I’m beyond grateful to all the content creators who constantly make and post the most amazing hontent. Thank you, for YOU 😘 xxx
