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Life Update!

Hi, my lovelies!

I know Iā€™ve been pretty MIA on this blog the past few months. I do want to let you know that I havenā€™t completely abandoned it or anything like that. (I still very much am following Connorā€™s career, still adore him, still always want to talk about him lol), I am however not posting any new fics right now. This is not for a lack of ideas, but because I am using these ideas for more personal writings.

For those of you that are unaware, I published my first novel, Love in the Classroom, earlier this year, in April. Since then I have been focusing on writing my novels.

I have two more coming out at the beginning of next year. One on January 24th, and another on May 31st. Januaryā€™s release is titled You Were Never the Plan, and Mayā€™s is My Boy(s) of Summer.Ā 

All three of these stories hold a very special place in my heart, and if any of you happen to be missing my writing and are wanting to support, all three books are available on Amazon. Love in the Classroom is currently available in both paperback and on Kindle (and if you do read it, the characters may seem a little familiarā€¦). The other two are only available to pre-order in the Kindle version, but will be available in paperback on the release date.Ā 

I also now have a website that you can check out. It tells you a little bit about me, my works, where to get them (Love in the Classroom is also available on Barnes and Nobleā€™s website!!), and some extras/sneak peeks into my new releases.

If any of you are interested, Iā€™ll leave the link below and you can get a sneak peek into Januaryā€™s release, and maybe even pre-order if youā€™re feeling a little crazy. My website also holds links to order and pre-order under theĀ ā€œWorksā€ tab.Ā 

I also just want to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart because if it wasnā€™t for your continued support on my writing, I wouldnā€™t have been able to publish my first book as soon as I did, or at all. You have all been so amazing, and I am truly grateful for everything that you have done for me, and the friendships that I have made on here.

I will keep you guys updated on any other life events (and a two books series about twin musicians that Iā€™m working on as well.šŸ¤«)

Thank you, and I love you ! šŸ’™šŸ’™šŸ’™

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The (Not So) Good Olā€™ Days | Connor Brashier

A/n: This chapter has literally been ready since March and I keep forgetting to post it when I come on here, but anyway, here it is after a very long wait. So sorry about that.

Summary: After Connorā€™s ex shows up randomly, y/n starts having doubts about her relationship with Connor, but they boys are there to reassure her.

Warnings: angst, obviously. Itā€™s not me if itā€™s not angsty

Word count: 6.8k

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I think Iā€™ve stopped breathing. Because Iā€™m standing here watching the only man Iā€™ve ever loved stand in front of the only other girl in the world that has had him the same way I have. Iā€™m suddenly back in high school, watching from the sidelines as Connor loves and cares for another girl in a way I had only wished he would love and care for me.Ā 

The first couple of weeks were hard. It was difficult to figure out what I could and couldnā€™t do anymore now that Connor had a girlfriend. A girlfriend who isnā€™t me. Things between Connor and I didnā€™t fully change immediately. It was gradual, and to anyone else it probably wasnā€™t even noticeable, but for me it was. It started with a side hug when he slid into the seat next to me. Then a nudge, then nothing but a ā€œhey.ā€ Then it became a thing where he had me scoot over so McKenzie could sit with us. Then they started to get to our seat before me, causing me to have to sit in front of them.

Iā€™d sit there and have to watch them hold hands over the table, and kiss. Iā€™d have to watch him move her hair out of her face, and her play with the tufts of hair on the back of his neck. Iā€™d watch her laugh at everything he said, and him hold onto every word she said. It was torture, but I was learning to live with it. That is until she approached me one day before class.

It was very much a coming of age, teen rom-com movie moment. I was in the bathroom, washing my hands when she came in. I forced a smile, same as I always did when I saw her. She did the same.Ā 

ā€œY/n, just the person I wanted to see. I was hoping youā€™d be here.ā€

ā€œMcKenzie,ā€ I nod. ā€œWhat can I do for you?ā€

She looks into the mirror, adjusting her ponytail so it sits higher on the top of her head. ā€œWell, Iā€™m glad you asked. I want you to stop hanging out with Connor.ā€

ā€œExcuse me?ā€ I turn off the water, facing her, but reaching for a paper towel.Ā 

ā€œI want you to stop hanging out with him. I donā€™t know what your relationship is or was before I came along, but I donā€™t like it. I donā€™t like how close you two are.ā€

ā€œUm, heā€™s my best friend.ā€

ā€œMhm, and I know you like him.ā€

ā€œUh, McKenzie, I donā€™t know where you heard that, but-ā€

ā€œOh, itā€™s obvious, donā€™t play dumb. Everyone knows you have a thing for him, except for him and itā€™s going to stay that way because Iā€™m his girlfriend now, not you. So that hanging out alone that you used to do, isnā€™t gonna happen anymore. If all four of you are together, expect me there too. And donā€™t even think about sitting next to Connor when you do go out together.ā€

ā€œDoes Connor know that youā€™re in here telling me this? Because I donā€™t think heā€™d be okay with it.ā€

She rolls her eyes, ā€œOh, Iā€™ll be telling him the same thing. Donā€™t worry about that.ā€

I toss the paper towels in the trash and look at her, my arms folded over my chest. ā€œIā€™m sorry, and what are you getting out of this? Like what is your end result?ā€

ā€œTo have you out of the picture,ā€ she says matter-of-factly.

ā€œOkay, butā€¦ he and I have the same friends. And we have for years. I highly doubt that heā€™s gonna let some girl that heā€™s only been datingĀ  for three weeks come in here and disrupt his life like that.ā€

ā€œConnor does whatever I want him to do. And if I tell him that I donā€™t want you around, heā€™s going to make it happen.ā€

ā€œBut-ā€

ā€œLook, I donā€™t have time to explain this more. Just stay away from Connor, okay? Thatā€™s it.ā€

I donā€™t respond, but she takes that as one.Ā 

ā€œOkay, perfect. Well, Iā€™ll see you in class. Iā€™m so glad we were able to have this talk.ā€

I watch her leave the bathroom, but I donā€™t leave. I lean back against the bathroom sink and take in everything she just said. Surely Connor wouldnā€™t go for this. I mean, weā€™ve been friends forever. He wouldnā€™t just cast me to the side because he has a girlfriend.Ā 

Butā€¦ isnā€™t that what heā€™s doing now? Pushing me to the side to make room for her.

ā€œWhat are you doing here?ā€ Connor asks. ā€œLast I heard, youā€™d moved to Arizona.ā€

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Bro I miss writing on here sometimes. I feel like fucking around and writing something for Shawn

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wondershawns

Maybe Shawn could just come over and stab me in the heart next time cause that would have hurt less than this song

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