Alone
I wasn’t devastated when it ended because at least I still had my friend. But then you went and ruined that. Now I’ve never felt more alone in my life and I have no one who understands
I give up.
Anonymous asked:
I'm sorry that happened, I know losing friends can be really hard. Trust me, though, you'll find better ones soon
The problem is I don't want new ones. I want the ones I poured my heart out to back in my life. I also don't want to start over again because I know the inevitable heartbreak that is coming will kill me this time
My biggest mistake
I realize it now. I should’ve a long time ago. Every time I make a friend I introduce them to another friend I have. Because I like to widen my friend group and allow them to feel included…
What I never realized was that by doing that I was actually just making it easier for them to leave me. I gave them a new friend, one that’s clearly better than me and it made leaving me a breeze.
So really it’s all my fault… but then again, I already knew I was to blame for everything
Just to clarify
“She didn’t agree with some things in my life so we stopped talking”
I never stopped fighting for our friendship. You’re the one that walked away from me. I never wanted you to leave me…. But then again, everyone does so why bother protesting at this point. You didn’t want to be friends with me anyways
Scholarships
I’ve learned that all my effort over the course of my senior year has all been for nothing. Not a single one of the 100 scholarships I applied for was awarded to me. Goes to show that literally no one wants me. Not even the people that have never met me and experienced how awful of a person I must be
Friends
To be honest I don’t even remember what it’s like to have a real one. To have that person that you can always rely on to be there for you. Maybe I’m just bad at picking people but every person I’ve ever let in always hurts me and leaves. They all make the same promise to never leave but then they inevitably do. But that’s just the life of me, an idiot girl who must also be an awful friend to have
The plus side
Of everyone not using tumblr and unfollowing me is that just like in real life I can now say something on here and no one will listen to me or even acknowledge I exist. Life is great like that you know?
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autistictsoni
do not upload videos of an autistic person having a meltdown
do not upload videos of an autistic person having a meltdown
do not upload videos of an autistic person having a meltdown
I don’t care if it’s your child, your sibling, a friend, someone you care for, or anyone else
I don’t care if you think they’ll see it or not
that is a fucking vulnerable moment and you should not be posting it all over the fucking internet where anyone can see it
I mean for fuck’s sake, do people have any respect for privacy and dignity, I shouldn’t even have to fucking say this
Source: sheisrecovering
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do you ever wanna listen to music but every song is just not the right song
half of me is a hopeless romantic and the other half of me is, well, an asshole
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Me @ Me: Damn girl you always so emotional chill out
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me @ me: don’t panic don’t panic don’t panic
me: [panics]
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things you need to know when talking to me:
- i talk really fast
- i mumble
- sometimes i talk really fast and mumble at the same time
- sometimes the words from my head don’t transfer right to my mouth so i sometimes just speak nonsense and im the only one who gets what im saying
- have fun trying to understand me
- i repeat stories a lot bc nothing interesting happens to me but i want to be validated
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why does no one talk about how friends can break your heart so devastatingly intimately sometimes a million times worse than romantic partners why does no one talk about friend break ups
Especially because friend break ups don’t always come with the courtesy of an actual break up. Friends can just stop talking to you and we let it happen. They don’t sit you down and say “hey it’s not you it’s me” or “I just don’t see us working out” They say “sorry my mom said no” or “I’m busy that day” until you eventually stop asking or you drift apart. They aren’t obligated to give an explanation and sometimes that hurts more. Friend break ups don’t usually offer closure.