hey ❧ its been a while
hi there. happy new year! if you still are following this page, i really hope you had a great new year and holiday season. whether or not you celebrate i truly hope the end of 2022 brought you joy, health, and happiness. i hope you feel rested and rejuvenated; i hope toxic relationships and bad habits stay in the past and that you can greet the new year with a positive, joyful outlook. more than anything - i hope you are happy <3
i know ive been absent here for several months. i took an unexpected hiatus from tumblr around september and i found it really difficult to come back here for several reasons. i had a queue going - i even had scheduled the announcement posts for chanvember and thought heavily about coming back, but i truly wasnt ready. ive told my friends my thoughts and feelings about this website, the habits i see people engage in, and the ways in which i want to establish boundaries for fandom but i figure now, with a new year, is a great time to start fresh and share them here.
tl;dr under the cut; heres the way this blog is going to function for the rest of 2023:
august and september were an interesting time for me in regards to tumblr. i had so many ideas for writing, and when i shared them with friends i was so incredibly motivated to get them down, edit the things ive had on the back burner; i was ready to post so many things. but then i would log into tumblr and i saw so many hurtful words going around. i saw hateful anons, hurtful asks; i was privy to drama - endless drama circulating around content creators and writers. specifically, a lot of this was occurring in the BTS fandom and while i was trying desperately to maintain an optimistic outlook some messages in my own ask box made that fairly difficult.
the reality is - a lot of the activity i saw here made tumblr feel like a hateful place and made me incredibly disinterested in writing for BTS. and to be frank - im still in this place, mentally and emotionally.
over the last several months i have logged in sporadically and unfollowed various accounts. i have started to limit the things i see on my dash and started following new accounts in other fandoms. the benefit of being a multi stan is seeing how other fandoms conduct themselves, and the difference is pretty jarring.
i will no longer be posting BTS content on this blog. i will still be completing the collabs i have open. there are two major pieces ive had drafted for months which are going to be posted asap, both of which are listed in my writing schedule. as usual, content will be posted on ao3 and a tumblr link will be posted here. once those two stories are posted, all future BTS content will only be hosted on ao3. i will no longer be posting tumblr links to my BTS writing. i will also clarify that the BTS content will only be the open collabs i have, many of which have not been announced yet.
additionally, once those two pieces are completed, my priority this year is on finishing hero and time runner. exo fics and series will be my main focus, as well as new ideas for ateez, seventeen, and a multi-group series ive been working that features exo, seventeen, and stray kids.
the only thing that wont be changing is that this page will continue to be a safe space for everyone, and negativity will continue to not be tolerated.
i hope you understand and respect my decision. fandom is meant to be fun, and i just simply dont see a lot of fun happening here. the shift in my boundaries and priorities excites me. i finally feel glad about being logged into tumblr. if youre still following, thanks for sticking through the last 6 years on this page.
