i didn't want it to get dirty.

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eddie  kaspbrak  by  rosy.  est.  sep,  2017.  revamped  july,  2018.
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hurt meme.

  • “ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”
  • “i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”
  • “my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”
  • “i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”
  • “don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!
  • “i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”
  • “please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”
  • “you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”
  • “you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”
  • “i can’t give up on you, so please don’t give up on yourself.”
  • “i love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.”
  • “i fucked up, why do you not care?
  • “i can’t walk, just go on without me.”
  • “you have broken ribs, take it easy.”
  • “i have no idea how to do cpr.”
  • “whose blood is that?
  • “apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”
  • “don’t you dare fucking let go!” 
  • “what the hell happened to you?” 
  • “are they dead? did you kill them?” 
  • “do you know what you’ve done?” 
  • “you’re either with me or against me.” 
  • “who the hell did this to you?” 
  • “are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…” 
  • “i can’t see!! what’s happening to me?” 
  • “when was the last time you ate?” 
  • “what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!” 
  •  “i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.” 
  • “for how long? how long were you bottling this up?“ 
  • “there’s so much blood, you won’t last.” 
  • “are you… throwing up in there?” 
  • “why aren’t you eating?” 
  • “just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” 
  • “i can’t breathe, i can’t –” 
  • “i woke up, & you were gone.” 
  • “just tell me something, was it really worth it?” 
  • “it’s okay to hurt & breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”
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important.

my  activity  on  this  account  is  fucked  from  a  video  i  posted  when  i  first  started  this  account.  i  have  no  clue  how  or  why  it’s  so  popular   ,   but  here  we  are.  that  being  said   -   if  you  write  me  a  starter  or  tag  me  in  something   ,   i  may  not  see  it.  if  you  tag  pillzebo  i’m  more  likely  to  notice  it   !
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“We’re h-here for you.”

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MEME   &.   ACCEPTING.

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❝   i  know.   ❞   eyes  shut   ,   a  shaky  exhale  leaves  him.  ❝   it’s  not  a  big  deal  anyway.   ❞
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“Can we stop talking about this?” frm bill !!!

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MEME   &.   ACCEPTING.

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   a  glance  is  shot  in  richie’s  direction  and  eddie  hopes  he  gets  the  memo  to  shut  the  fuck  up.   ❝   i’m  sorry   ,   bill.   ❞
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uuuuuhhh  can  y’all  link  me  to  ppl  who  do  graphic  commissions   ?
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❛  EDDIE  KASPBRAK  SENTENCE  STARTERS.

  • “They slice the tip of his dick off.”
  • “What training?”
  • “Is that how you wanna spend your Summer? Inside of an arcade?”
  • “Shut up. That’s freaking disgusting.”
  • “He’s probably the one doing it.”
  • “My mom loves them.”
  • “I mean, what if we get caught?”
  • “I’m saving them for your sister.”
  • “Bye mommy!”
  • “Where’s the poison ivy?”
  • “Well, I’m starting to get itchy now.”
  • “That’s so not funny.”
  • “Uh-uh. That’s gray water.”
  • “It’s basically piss and shit so I’m just telling you.”
  • “Okay, I can smell that from here.”
  • “Have you ever heard of a staph infection?”
  • “Whose sneaker is it?”
  • “Oh shit. Oh god. Oh fuck.”
  • “My mom will have an aneurysm. I’m serious.”
  • “What if I don’t want to find him?”
  • “I don’t want to go missing too.”
  • “I mean, he’s bleeding all over and you guys know there’s an aids epidemic happening right now as we speak.”
  • “How do you amputate a waist?!”
  • “Are you kidding me?”
  • “If my mom finds out I bought all this stuff for myself, I’ll spend the whole weekend in the hospital getting x-rayed.”
  • “There’s a kid outside. It looks like someone killed him.”
  • “I need to focus right now.”
  • “Can you get me something?”
  • “Get me my bifocals. They’re in my second fanny pack.”
  • “You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
  • “Why don’t you shut the fuck up Einstein because I know what I’m doing.”
  • “Did you see my loogie?”
  • “It’s always the mass.”
  • “The clown - I saw it, too.”
  • “He’s always after us.”
  • “What are you guys talking about?”
  • “It was like a walking infection.”
  • “Can we stop talking about this?”
  • “I can barely breathe.”
  • “I’m about to have a fucking asthma attack.”
  • “I don’t fucking know!”
  • “It knows where we are.”
  • “I can smell it.”
  • “Don’t fucking touch me!”
  • “What does placebo mean?”
  • “I didn’t want it to get dirty.”
  • “Okay, I’ll be there.”
  • “What sickness?”
  • “You know what these are? They’re gazebos! They’re bullshit!”
  • “Protect me? By lying to me? By keeping me inside of this hellhole?”
  • “You made me turn my back on them when I needed them.”
  • “Are you insane?”
  • “We’re here for you.”
  • “I’m gonna kill you!”
  • “The kids are floating down.”
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Anonymous asked:

Which part of Eddie's illness do you think is real and which part isn't? I saw your post about his asthma being real, so I'm curious to know your answer!

   sorry  this  is  so  late.  in  my  canon   ,   eddie  has  asthma   &.   mild  allergies.  he’s  probably  allergic  to  grasses   ,   some  trees   ,   &.  some  other  common  things.  he’s  not  so  much  a hypochondriac  but  more  afraid  of  upsetting  his  mother   &.   dealing  with  the  aftermath.  so   ,   to  sum  it  up   ,   his  asthma  is  very  real.  it’s  probably  induced  by  anxiety   /  strenuous  activities.  
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