Bayou Blues || Jackson & Hayley
“I know.” Hayley whispered back quietly as he reassured her that he was there with her. “I just-You’re the most important person in my life, Jackson. If you would’ve died out there tonight, I think some part of me would have too.” She whispered quietly into the abyss of silence that was now taking shape. The words weren’t easy for the wolf in the slightest. Admitting those things meant admitting that she cared about someone more than she cared about herself; it meant that she’d accepted the fact that maybe she could have a family, even one that wasn’t made out of blood and ancestry. As for as she was concerned, she’d found a home after two decades without a true one, and now anything that threatened that shaky foundation, left her at a lost and stagnant with fear. Hayley only prayed that Jackson understood that she was more upset than she’d let on she could be.
The silence in the cabin was appreciated. Hayley knew their wolves weren’t far out of reach, but they’d respected the fact that herself and Jackson needed a few hours of just peace before they got back into their daily routines. “You know we’ll never see a dime.” The wolf muttered as his hand patted her smaller one. She was glad to see a smile finally break through from the other before returning the gesture easily. “It’s good to see you smile even though you just played chicken with a bullet and lost.” She whispered, fingertips trailing against the bottom of the bandage as she checked to see if blood was seeping through in any areas.
Her fingers were idle against the curve down from his shoulder into his bicep while his own danced over them. She honestly wasn’t quite sure how the other alpha was even still conscious after the night’s affairs. Hayley was running on empty herself, and she hadn’t been punctured with a silver bullet. “I swear, if he in any way tries to blame us for this, your gonna have to drag me back to the Bayou by my hair because I will go ballistic on that prick.” She nearly growled, her fingers tensing around his muscle as she imagined whatever smart ass spin the vampire would try to put on the whole ordeal. “Me too.” Hayley muttered softly, as she looked up to him through her lashes and sighed quietly. “Would you tell me if you were honestly in pain?” She questioned, still hesitant to move knowing his arm had to be sensitive. Waiting for a rejection, the wolf then moved upwards slightly until her head rested against his shoulder so she could keep an eye-well, an ear, on his heartbeat.
Her words weighed on him as he thought them over. Jackson knew that she wouldn’t offer them lightly. The other wolf had been through enough in her life that they weren’t just fluff. He hoped Hayley knew she was just as important. It wasn’t every day a long lost wolf returned home and he damn well didn’t take that lightly. A part of him boiled at the thought that she had been put in a situation where she got hurt again. Maybe it was a little unrealistic and even a bit hypocritical but hell, he couldn’t help but feel it. Girl had been through enough.
He didn’t try to offer anything to playing chicken. The sight of his wolves falling in front of him was enough to leave a taste in his mouth. But he did offer another smile, if only a little one. He could still smell them, feel their blood on his fingers. It had a shaky breath teasing out of his chest as he sensed her leaned forwards, resting her head on his shoulder. His shoulder twinged in pain but he didn’t stop her. “It hurts but,” his voice was barely above a whisper, low with a seemingly permanent growl tainting them. “I’d rather have you right there,” was added just as softly. There were words on the tip of his tongue. Words that were just as violent as rage tearing to get out.
Jack focused upwards, looking to the ceiling and it took all there was in him not to whimper like the damn animal he was. “We lost two,” his clamoring emotions finally forced it out of his mouth. “They tried to help me but,” it was his fault of course. He couldn’t move fast enough. He couldn’t protect them. “I brought them home. I couldn’t-,” he paused to breath in a shuddering breath, “I couldn’t leave them.”
The alpha wasn’t ashamed of the tear that fell. He wasn’t ashamed of a god damned thing but he was tired. Oh god he was tired. When the sun came up they had to give them the proper goodbye. Just like the other wolves that had left them. “So just – be here,” he cleared his throat with the words, ignoring the way it shook his melding skin. “Then when the sun comes up we’ll do what we have to do,” was added as he let his eyes close again. Feeling her heat against his side eased something raw and jagged in his soul. Seemed like all he was good at was losing people he cared about. Losing wolves. Hayley wasn’t his but it was nice for one to finally come home.