i want to have romantic experiences, but i fear that i truly am an unlovable person and will mess up any kind of romance i have. and at the same time, i genuinely wished i didn’t care about dating at all. i like the idea of being alone for my whole life, but i know there is a big part of me that just wants to be loved, adored, and cared for.
also dating just gives me anxiety atm. i open hinge and then close it without sending a like back or any likes in general i feel SICK !