you make me feel so { SUMMER FLING }

               and you know that i know

                              that i owe you { EVERYTHING }

                                            𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝑪𝒉𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒈𝒐!

they say the captain goes down with the ship so, when the world ends, will god go down with it?

OUR LADY OF BLESSED ACCELERATION * SUPERNATURAL VERSE

so i thought it was saturday and told husband i had nothing to do today so he went about 2 hours away to help a friend move. i forgot it was visitation for my aunt’s death. asked my mom to pick me up and she said it was “unfair” of me to ask her to do that.

needless to say, i will not be spending over $100 on an uber ONE WAY much less trying for both ways so i will miss it. 

not that i want to see my mom after that.

so my best friends really came through for me and we are going to have a little memorial of my own, without my parents (who are so emotionally abusive i had to literally legally change my name to help move on from the trauma) and with just people i adore celebrating an aunt that i loved very much.

these are the people i choose to call family. my best friends. i dont know what i’d do without them. i am so grateful.

why is doc unfunctionally emotional every time she listens to bishops knife trick???

now imma break it down in chunks for you: 

I'm pedal to the metal, make no mistake - elwood, when he is interested/cares about something 

This is my pity party, pity party And I'm living out of time, eternal heatstroke - he really does live in different time in his head, in fact, he's always of the assumption that time is an illusion and while he ends up wearing two watches later, it's only because one is jake's broken watch and the other is his comfort object. 

Spiritual revolt from the waist down, from the waist down - yes he will indulge in premarital sex with any gender ESPECIALLY at the orphanage starting at about 15 probably

I'm just a full tank away from freedom - always. at any given moment. if he needs to run (and sometimes he really does), he's just a full tank from that freedom ALWAYS Spitfire - he is tho

These are the last blues we're ever gonna have Let's see how deep we get The glow of the cities below lead us back To the places that we never should have left The last blues we're ever gonna have Let's see how deep we'll get The glow of the cities below lead us back To the places that we never should have left The last, the last, the last The last, the last, the last The last, the last, the last The last, the last, the last - this part really gets me because i feel it more as a flashback to the original bb film, him and jake flying down the highway, full tank away from freedom again, but its the last blues they're ever gonna have and the chorus makes me cry like a whole bitch okay "to the places that we never should have left" - if they hadn't tried so hard to get the band back together, would things be different?????

I got a feeling inside that I can't domesticate It doesn't wanna live in a cage, a feeling that I can't housebreak  - he's always felt like this, this urge, playing the blues helps, the harmonica helps, it always did. he's got a wild, nomad soul and he cant have a "normal" life. he just cannot.

And I'm yours 'til the earth starts to crumble and the heavens roll away - he and jake will always be he and jake, regardless of what happens (au or canon). they are twin flames, soulmates, whatever you want to call it.

I'm struggling to exist with you and without you, yeah - i feel like this kinda goes w/his autism a wee bit like its hard to just exist and probably growing up jake kinda struggled learning him?? if that makes sense? it did in my head looks weird typed out  lol

I'm sifting through sand, sand, sand, sand Looking for pieces of broken hourglass Trying to get it all back, put it back together As if the time had never passed I know I should walk away, know I should walk away But I just want to let you break my brain And I can't seem to get a grip No matter how I live with it - kinda feel  this is pretty self explanatory given the rest of the context

*busts in singing fob’s bishops knife trick*

HELLO IM HERE TO BE ANGSTY