From Cake to carrots

It's been awhile.

I'm back on a health journey. We're in month 2. I'm not doing well. The gym part is okay, I'm making progress there but I can't get my eating under control. I believe I have an addiction to food, and I'm a binge eater. Undiagnosed. But it makes sense with what I deal with. Breaking that addiction is hard.

I've been reading a lot. I've read 75 books so far this year and it's been so good. I missed having a hobby.

2024 is right around the corner and I want to be better.

I've gotten extremely into reading this year.

The Quiet Tenant is my current read and it's been an amazing distraction from this depressive episode I'm going through

When I'm happy, I gain weight.

2019 I had just gotten married. I went from 250 to 293.

The pandemic was bad for my marriage and bad for my mental health. My weight went depression plummeted down to 249.

I got a divorce, and my weight has slowly crept back up.

I'm in the happiest, healthiest relationship of my entire life and now here I am, 31 years old, and 286 pounds.

When I'm happy, I gain weight.

Don't mind me. I'm just living my best life.

Honestly not a bad lunch for 340 calories.

Can of green beans. Ikea veggie meatballs. Single serving instant mashed potatoes.

If id known I was gonna love this so much I would have made it more aesthetic.

370 calories with 24g protein.

This is gonna be a staple for breakfasts now.

I'm in the healthiest relationship of my life and I honestly couldn't be happier.

Mental health walk

For Valentine's day my boyfriend had his friend draw us two pictures to paint.

This is the cutest gift ever.

Fat girls in bikinis.

That is all.

Craft date night 🥰

Today was definitely a much nicer walk.

Mental health walks are rough when the weather is dreary

Yesterday depression kept me from going to the park. I'm not ready to go back to the gym yet. Crowds are still insane.

We are under a hurricane watch so I couldn't go to the park again today.

I put in Pamela Reifs Ed Sheeran workout and did 12 minutes of cardio and 5 minutes of stretching.

It's better than nothing.

Another day, another walk for my stupid mental health.