....what if i..... returned here after being gone for like a year đł
âOooooh, is having more personality than a brick wall too hard for you? You think itâs all cool and mature of you to act like you donât care about anything?âÂ
âCongrats, Monaca! You win the prize of most basic teenager ever! Bully for you!â Her therapist would tell her that this is the exact opposite of anger management, but sheâs gonna keel over dead before she lets Monaca get away from this altercation without tears in her eyes. âIâm calling fucking bullshit on that, by the way. I mean really? Do you actually think Iâm that stupid? Youâre still wearing a Monokuma hoodie, for crying out loud. Youâd have to have a PhD in lying to yourself to really think youâre ~above~ anything.â
... Blink. Blink. â...No, Monaka just doesnât care. Itâs not about acting like anything. I just actually donât care. Is it really that complicated?â Sheâs not above anything. Sheâs simply tired. Of this. Of everything.
 She doesnât care what Kotoko thinks. She doesnât. And sheâll smother any part of her that tries to say otherwise. A shrug. âBelieve whatever you want, Kotoko-chan. But the truth is, Monaka doesnât care. You can hate Monaka as much as you want. It doesnât hold any weight on me.â Itâs not like Kotoko was anything to her other than a pawn. Just like everyone else. She didnât care about them. She never did. Never loved them. Never really was going to kill herself-- that was only a joke! Totally a joke! She just was using them! Always using them! She didnât care! She didnât!Â
But telling herself that doesnât do anything to quell the disgusting feeling deep in her chest.
That certainly wasnât the reaction she wanted, though sheâs not entirely sure what she had been looking for. Had she wanted Monaca to start crying? Get mad?âŠWell, she supposes she wanted anything really, as long as it was some kind of pain for her ex-leader.
Itâs clear, though, that jeering isnât going to work. Monaca is too much of a lazy butt, so wrapped up in that stupid game, dumb stupid lame stupid STUPID game, whatâs so great about it anyways!? Whyâs it more important than her!?
She rips the game system out of Monacaâs hand and flings it against the nearest wall. It shatters. The stupid annoying song finally shuts the fuck up, and she starts cackling like a hyena.Â
Well, thatâs irritating. A glance over at the now-shattered game console. Kotokoâs kinda begging for her attention, huh? A looooong sigh.
âWhat do you want Monaka to say? That Iâm sorry? Or maybe that I hate you? Want Monaka to get mad and yell at you?â She finally meets her gaze. ââCause I really donât care enough for any of that, yâknow.â She had considered just ignoring her, but. Seeing as thatâs not worked well so far, she decided she should just be blunt. Maybe that will be enough.
closed starter for @despairsuccessor
Monaca is distracted with that stupid game of hers that she never stops playing. Well, thereâs no real people around that she can use as toys, so Kotoko supposes she would naturally have had to pick up something else. Itâs annoying, though. What a brat. She wonders why she ever thought this girl was cute.
Thereâs this weird, sore itchiness in her chest that she wishes would go away. It showed up when Monaca came in, so clearly itâs all her fault. As such, she decides the best way to resolve it is to get everything sheâs thinking about that lying ugly stupidface out of her head.Â
She sneaks up behind her.
âIt must be nice, not having to think about the consequences of your actions or do anything with your life at all and just play video games all day, like the kind of braindead otaku shut-in all the teachers said weâd have to get our act together to avoid becoming. Guess thatâd be your first ever failing grade, huh?â
Future Foundation is boring. So boring. Sheâs been trying to entertain herself as best as she can, but she has no one to talk to (except for that therapist-- but sheâs annoying and Monaka doesnât like talking to her) so... video games it is. Busy rotting her brain out âtill Future Foundation decides to kill her.
...Oh, but hereâs something unexpected. Thereâs a glance up at Kotoko just for a moment-- confirming that sheâs actually talking to her-- before her gaze falls back to the screen. In other circumstances, maybe sheâd give a fake smile, or start crying because Kotoko-chanâs being âsoooo mean to Monaka!â But honestly, she doesnât have the energy for anything like that right now.
âMm,â Monaka replies. Itâs... not really much to go off of. Hardly a response at all, really. But she doesnât feel like talking to Kotoko. And she doesnât want to think about that gross feeling she gets when she remembers the Warriors of Hope. So she wonât. Kotokoâs bound to give up when she sees Monaka has no intention of giving her aaaany of the attention she so desperately craves, right? When she sees Monaka couldnât possibly care any less?
âItâs Monakaâs birthdaaaaay!~â Sheâs waiting on her birthday wishes and gifts. Brat.
Hey yall, itâs Anna/Topaz reviving their Komaeda blog! If youâre interested in interacting with this (cursed) boy, hit that like/reblog so we can start writing together!
(ïŸâăźâ)ïŸÂ *:ïŸâ§*:ïŸâ§ manipulation
(ïŸâăźâ)ïŸÂ *:ïŸâ§*:ïŸâ§ mindgames
(ïŸâăźâ)ïŸÂ *:ïŸâ§*:ïŸâ§ murder
"My city now." -[bloodpinkdevilhorns]
âYouâre the queen of the city! And Iâm also the queen! Weâre married now! Letâs have a wedding and weâll invite all the ugly NPCs so they can be jealous!â
âYou put that thing back where it came from or so help me!â
The most smug look she can give.Â
âSo help you what? Are you going to kill Monaka?â Dramatic, yes, but of course sheâs dramatic. He can try and take her games away, but sheâll just steal it back from him. She respects no authority!
Dialogue prompts with a raw, powerful energy
- âIâll do whatever you wantâ âThen perishâ
- âMy boy, this peace is what all true warriors strive for!â
- âWhat you gonna do? You gonna shoot me?! Better make it count! better kill me in one shot!â
- âIf god had wanted you to live he would not have created meâ
- âI am the monument to all your sinsâ
- âWill you fight? Or will you perish like a dog?â
- âYou know I had to do it to emâ
- âMy city nowâ
- âIâd die for youâ âyou willâŠâ
- âI wonât hesitate, bitch!â
- âIf it were not for the law of this land, I would have slaughtered you!â
- âYou are not immune to propagandaâ
- âWell, there is no god here today. Just meâ
- âI beg to differâ âthen begâ
- âWhat the hell is that?!â âYou know what this is, bitchâ
- âTrust me, given the legal opportunity, I will kill youâ
- âDonât ever talk to me or my son ever againâ
- âWhat the hell are you doing? Are you out of your fucking mind?!â
- âYou better scramble like an egg, before you get folded like an omeletteâ
- âMom says itâs my turn on the XBoxâ
- âYou put that thing back where it came from or so help me!â
- âNow I am become death, destroyer of worldsâ
- âWhy donât you just kill me?â âYour punishment must be more severeâ
- âI canât drown my demons, they know how to swimâ
- âI will face god and walk backwards into hellâ
- âSurprise, bitch. Bet you thought youâd seen the last of meâ
- âYou Fool! This isnt even my final form! Wait until you see my true power!â
- âDo not cry brother. Our time shall come soon enough. For they know nothing of our godâŠâ
- âEvery day we stray further from gods lightâŠâ
- âHey peebrain, you teleport?â
- âYou may spank it, Onceâ
- âTake it easy, dude. But take itâ
- âPatheticâŠâ
- âDonât believe his liesâ
- âEven now, the evil seed of what you have done germinates within youâ
- âI speak for the trees, and the trees say shut the fuck upâ
- âWe have nothing to lose but our chainsâ
- âItâs my sleepover and I get to choose the movie!â
- âWell Iâll tell ya what, you can give up now, or you can dig it out, because I certainly canât do it without you, and I know you canât do it without me!â
- âYou are already deadâ
- âThen whatâs there to stop me from becoming a god?â
- âIâd sell you to Satan for a single corn chipâ
- âItâs over! I have the higher ground!â âYou underestimate my powerâŠâ
- âWhereâs your god now?â
- âIf I were not a holy woman, Iâd beat you senselessâ
- âFrom hells heart, I stab at thee!â
- âEvery second youâre not running, Iâm only getting closerâ
- âWhat is a godâŠto a cowboy?â
- âI see now the circumstances of ones birth are irrelevant, it itâs what we do with the gift of life that defines who we areâ
- âItâs not over⊠itâs never overâŠâ
the last goodbye
When I was done with this I noticed that Towa looks like Kirigiri, Komaeda looks like Togami but friendly and Hajime sort of looks like Naegi
Also I might change adult Monaka Towas design I bit
ââŠThatâs all?â Kotoko sighs, bitter, tired. âSo it was nothing personalâŠâ
ââŠfunny. Now I feel even more pissed off.â Sheâd been so mad, so furious about her betrayal, but really, it had nothing to do with Kotoko at all, huh? It was never about her. Monaka had just wanted to get rid of her forâŠdespair. To hurt herself. Ugh, thatâsâŠthatâs justâŠunsatisfying, in a way that brings a cruel thought that she really shouldnât be having to the forefront of her mind, then out through her mouth.
âYâknow you couldâve just asked, I wouldâve helped you kill the boys off and got it done right.â Thatâs the source of her irritation, right there. Not that Monaka the bad person wanted to kill her. Just that Monaka the person that she liked didnât give her any consideration. That she had never been anyone special to her.
âSorry.â
A hand brushes through her hair. Itâs a lot longer than it was before. She kind of likes touching it, now. Itâs become kind of a habit.Â
That kind of hurts. She knew it, yes, but... Itâs different, hearing it. Kotoko cared about her.
âI know you wouldâve. Monaka needed you gone, too, though.âÂ
Sheâs not really sure what to say. They were expendable. They had to be. To feel the despair of being betrayed by a friend, and for her own despair. (Though sheâd done her best to convince herself that she didnât care at all.) But she doesnât really want to tell Kotoko all that. Itâs the truth, yes, but itâs cruel. And she doesnât want to be cruel, anymore.
Compliment sentence starters. Â
- âYour smile is breathtakingâ
- âOh my gosh, you look beautifulâ
- âTruly stunningâ
- âSorry, I didnât mean to stare you just look ravishingâ
- âNow how is the cutest person in the room doing?â
- âYou smell niceâ
- âYour heart is far too big for your bodyâ
- âYou care and thatâs what makes you such a wonderful personâ
- âYouâre the greatest friend EVERâ
- âYour hair is so soft and shinyâ
- âYou have the cutest laugh. I wish I heard it more oftenâ Â
- âYour skin is flawless, HOW?â
- âSomeone is going to be very lucky to have youâ
- âYou have a perfect body itâs not fairâ
- âSend over some of that perfection this way, Iâm in desperate need of itâ
- âYouâre an amazing artist. How do you draw like that?â
- âMmm, your cooking is amazingâ
- âYou have this way of making me smile even when Iâm sadâ
- âYouâre too adorable, Iâm claiming you. Youâre mineâ
- âEven the way you fall on your face is cute. Need help up?â
- âYou have the prettiest eyesâ
- âEveryone loves you, how could they not?â
- âYour cheeks are so cute, can I pinch them PLEASE?â
- âWith how amazing you are I might fall for you. Watch outâ
- âI love your frecklesâ
- âOnce everyone figures out how wonderful you are they might want to steal your time away from me but thatâs not happeningâ
- âYouâre very attractive, Iâm attracted to youâ
She's presenting him with a little box of chocolates. "Monaka knows you don't like sweets too much, so... They're dark chocolate, not super sweet!" A grin. "Happy Valentine's Day, Shingetsu-kun!"
You can see his face explode into a shade of red, fingers trembling as he takes the box from her. Slow.      âM-Monaka-chan, you didnât have toâŠâ Heâd never particularly enjoyed Valentineâs day, butâŠÂ âTh⊠thank you.â Because of her? Itâs now his favourite day of the year. Heâll definitely repay her on White Day.
Of course, of course Kotoko can see how hurt she is. Just like when the base was falling. But this time? It doesnât feel good. Doesnât feel like splattering a demonâs head on the floor. Thereâs no satisfaction. It just hurts.
Truly, she hadnât been acting at all when she said she loved her.
âNo IâŠget why you said it.â She sighs. ââŠStill donât get anything else though. Probably shouldâve asked this before chewing you out, but uhâŠâ
ââŠIf you could tell me why you thought you had to kill me, thatâd be nice.â
...She still wanted to talk to her? Ah-- waiting before she wheels herself away, then..
â...For Junko-onee-chan.â Thatâs why she did any of it. âFor despair.â Nothing else mattered to her except her plan, and she wanted to kill the Warriors of Hope before she went through with it. They were her weakness, and what better way to experience despair than killing the last people on Earth you care about?Â
â...If it matters, Monaka really didnât gain anything from it, in the end.â It just made her feel icky.
â» SHIT I HEARD AT COLLEGE: YEAR III â»
the thrilling saga of shit iâve heard at college continues; these are all from my first semester of junior year. feel free to change names/pronouns/etc.! more âshit i heard/saidâ starters!
- âBippity-bop, is that the name of a song?â
- âIâd like to die in Spain, in my loverâs arms. Or just not be murdered, thatâd be cool too.â
- âYouâve gotta hydrate before you die-drate.â
- âWe are going to steal Niagara Falls.â
- âRoundabouts are my bitch.â
- âBeing confused with a freshman isnât the worst thing to be confused with. Better than being confused with a serial killer.â
- âIt was when I was three and almost burned down the house.â
- âIs that in the interview? Howâs your immune system?â
- âThe devilâs weakness is shrubbery.â
- âI have a very strong immune system because Iâm gross.â
- âItâs supposed to help my hairline⊠itâs not gonna help my hairline.â
- âYou have to rest to fight the chairs.â
- âIf you scroll back far enough, youâll see her post pictures from her mission trip, as the whites do.â
- âShe used to be full of sunshine and rainbows and then she turned into a bitch.â
- âNo hand holding. Only blowjobs.â
- âElon Musk is gonna cry.â
- âAre you about to be in a porno but in real life?â
- âAutocorrect is a Jewish saint.â
- âHeâs a claymation penguin and he will change your life.â
- âOur fridge was just organized like⊠shitty Tetris.â
- âI had two bananas and six pieces of cookie dough⊠I need to go to the grocery store.â
- âGoodnight, you⊠peopleâŠâ
- âThereâs only four very very sticky coffee colored pennies.â
- âWhen youâre kinda kinky: spank-esque.â
- âOfficer, you canât arrest me. Itâs gameday.â
- âWelcome back to Sophie Doesnât Know How To Accurately Portion Food. On this episode, weâre making a fuck load of pasta.â
- âOn a scale of one to ten, he was fine.â
- âIâm gonna pour barbecue sauce all over my finger and act like I cut it off.â
- âThe cornbread might be a minute, but the porn-bread wonât be.â
- âFirst of all, fuck you. Second of all, fuck you.â
- âAfter this game, we could go to the dining hall and get unlimited biscuits.â
- âWe took a vote. Youâre going to have to start needlepointing.â
- âI thought it couldnât rain in hereâŠ! I thought that was a mythâŠ!â
- âNo, I can make soup. I canât make pie!â
- âThe leather riding crop. A classic.â
- âYou want me to distill the water? Harvest a fucking raincloud?â
- âI need to straight up snort caffeine pills for it to work.â
- âYou do your homework, you die.â
- âIf you accidentally stab me, it would be really funny?â
- âDo you guys take ghost money?â
- âWhen I was little, I really liked showering in the dark.â
- âNot to be dramatic, but are you going to tell him you love him?â
- âSomebody broke into my car last night and smoked meth.â
- âMaybe they were talking about someone else, but now Iâm sad.â
- âAm I eating sawdust or cardboard?â
- âAnd then he sent three pictures of Mediterranean food.â
- âJust stand there and be sad.â
- âThere are no more Toys R Us kids. Only Crate And Barrel adults.â
- âThat cake almost killed me. Iâll have more, please.â
- âWould you like some Jesus?â
- âI donât care how convenient it is, never buy milk at the gas station.â
- âHe just destroyed his table with an ax that he found on the street.â
- âDeep fried Coca-ColaâŠ! Solidify it, deep fry it, eat it.â
- âYou Uber to class? Like⊠all the time?â
- âIâm not even going to try. No, you know what? I am going to try.â
- âHow do you pronounce "p-h-t-hâ?â
- âThatâs a good cloud! Letâs cheer for that cloud!â
- "Also, I was sad and drunk, soâŠâ
- âWhat happens if you pour beer on a candle?â
- âNobody minds a little violence in October.â
- âApparently, they donât poop out of their mouths.â
- âAre you ever $270 in credit card debt and you just donât care?â
- âYou know what we had to read last year? 1200 pages of Don Quick-sote.â
- âShe had an attack of religious conscience and she was like, mmm, the devil.â
- âIâm Billy Wilder, and you can go fuck yourself.â
- âI paid for these with student loans and complaining.â
- âI was so stressed I blacked out.â
- âI was listening to a sad audiobook, about to cry on the Stairmaster.â
- âSo God comes out, dick swingingâŠâ
- âItâs only from May to September, because thatâs⊠prime goat season.â
- âReally tempted to buy a dog or a raccoon right now.â
- âHeâs such a cute little tall man.â
- âSammy serves no man.â
- âTell me I did a great job.â
- âIâll speak for everyone and say we have no idea whatâs going on.â
- âMaybe we can have an affair next week.â
- âThe colors of the wind need to chill.â
- âIt has 18 wheels! Thatâs too many wheels!â
- âI had a nightmare about that ham.â
- âItâs almost like Groundhog Day, but awful.â
- âCome to the darkness. We donât have cookies and we have sad but like still come.â
- âAlright, letâs go eat this ass.â
- âMilitary hardware is not my thing.â
- âPut me down for two scoops of pain, please.â
- âGotta get away from the capitalists.â
- âColor schemes like this are what happens when you donât have any gay men in your life.â
- âI won 86 cents.â
- âCan we kill death itself?â
- âStuff on bread â a category I can get behind.â
- âIf I canât be gay in my own home where can I be gay?â
- âThere was a little tiny towel that I used to dry most of my body.â
- âFrazzled onions - they have an exam tomorrow.â
- âEverybody loves you and the ones that donât, theyâre going to jail.â
- âItâs no big deal, but Buzzfeed told me Iâd find my husband abroad, soâŠâ
- âThese two men, a combined height of 12'10ââŠâ
- "It was one AM and I was not about to get into the Pussy Discourse but I am now.â
- âIâm a Suffering major.â
- âThatâs my 1/100th of a cent that I worked for.â
- âThey misspelled canoeing âcanerfingâ.â
- âI sent nudes in a Waffle House bathroomâ
- âOn Monday, letâs all get together and cry.â
- âIâm never going to do that again. But probably tomorrow.â
- âAll I know is that those two glasses look like six.â
- âIf you play a draw four card, Iâm gonna sneak into your room and slit your throat.â
- âI donât wanna drink for men.â
- âWe are stressing in Chiliâs.â
- âIâm just going to start violently screaming.â
- âNow youâve become a catfish with a cause.â
- âBlessed be the power of bullshit.â
- âI love that movie. Iâve seen it one time. I love that movie.â
- âTaco Bell could fist me in the ass.â