AH, YES,  it’s time to analyze mai and zuko’s relationship, but i can’t cover ALL of it in this one post, so there’ll be other parts, but in this one we’re gonna talk about how mai and zuko when they  WEREN’T  together.

honestly, throughout this whole little scene, mai got  fired up real quick. right when zuko said he missed her, mai just spat. zuko, if you saw his face in the comics, wasn’t really ‘angry,’ he just seemed a bit taken aback, but he still stood his ground. and i love how people are like ‘ mai’s the calm one !!! zuko’s the fiery one !!! perfect !!! ‘ and i can’t  COMPLETELY  disagree with that, they both have things that immediately set them off, but it’s clear here that mai jumps way too fast into a fight. even when she broke up with zuko over his ‘secret’ she didn’t even stop to  consider  how many things zuko was juggling now that he was the fire lord.

i thought about this a lot actually, but the way she broke up with him was almost wrong. say that to her and she’ll deny it ( at least in her younger years ), but she and zuko have been barely talking it seems. again, the comics don’t show us  EVERY PART  of their lives, but we can assume with zuko running around, he doesn’t much time to spend with mai. i still don’t think it’s just zuko’s fault, i just can’t tell you how bad i felt when he said ‘ i know im screwing up, but i love you mai. ‘ he was TRYING, and mai was not flexible enough. she didn’t compromise. and she still does have the right to be angry, i’m not saying she doesn’t, but maybe talking out would have been better. of course, the reason mai was so quick to break things off because she probably felt the distance between them and that made her  SAD. mai doesn’t like feeling sad, she doesn’t want to let someone have THAT much power over her. and zuko secretly speaking to his father was the straw that broke the camel’s back ( god i hate that saying, but for the lack of a better comparison……. ). ANYWAYS.

OKAY, LOOK !!!! look at the way she’s using ‘ you and i ‘ and ‘ our ‘ and  ‘ both of  US.  ‘ she’s not blaming HIM, here she acknowledges that BOTH HER AND HIM are just not cut out for each other. of course, that’s the way she sees it at that point. she just can’t get over the fact that she loves zuko so so much and it’s not that he doesn’t return the feelings, it’s that there’s just so much that could and IS keeping them apart. it could be their own personalities, their duties, their friends/family, whatever it might be. and mai can’t take that, she doesn’t want there to be any rifts, she wants HAPPINESS. but as a person who doesn’t deal with people well, mai doesn’t know how to achieve that happiness with zuko. and she knows zuko doesn’t either. THAT’S another reason she broke up with him. she thinks since they can’t find happiness, they aren’t meant to be together. she thinks they tried  EVERYTHING they could, and she’s frustrated, my dudes.

!!!!! this just reinforces my point above that zuko probably, also, acknowledges that they both think they tried everything in the god damn book to stay together and find true happiness in each other. but AGAIN .   .   .  he misses her. she misses him. they don’t understand .   .   .  if they really can’t be happy together then why do they still LONG for each other?? of course, their break up was relatively fresh but still.

zuko says ‘ USED TO, ‘ the guy thinks mai really moved on. and i wouldn’t be surprised, mai literally has a new boyfriend and she just snapped at him to move on. BUT HE WRONG, SO WRONG.

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GNAWS ON MY OWN HAIR……………………………. there’s just so much here !! mai clearly lays out for us that she DOES also blame herself for letting herself get hurt. and the thing is, when she says ‘ you broke my heart ‘ i just don’t think she’s fully blaming him. like she’s not saying zuko has malicious intent, but just that he and THEIR relationship broke her heart in general. and i’m not gonna delve too much into this because i already did so above but yeah !!

and MY DUDES, let’s talk about how she literally says that she rather have the guy like her more because then she won’t get hurt like THAT !!! AGAIN !!! she’s not saying she won’t get hurt, period, she just doesn’t want to get hurt like THAT. like the way she could almost feel her heart cracking when she walked away from zuko while he literally ordered to come back because he didn’t know what else to do ( also he’s like ‘ why would i say that?? ‘ right after and i fucking DIED ). the way mai hurt was DIFFERENT than anything else she had experienced and she HATES it, thus leading to her saying and doing what she did.

god, i cannot stress enough how much mai, and probably zuko, is afraid of LOSING her/his shit and balance because of her/their relationship. she doesn’t know what to do !! and they both don’t even confide in another person about their relationship, they just keep so much bottled in and then combined with that stress and then the stress of their duties and then this drama shit, they’re just LOST. and remember………………….. they’re not even adults, not even in their twenties, they’re literal teenagers tryna find their way, so that’s a BIG part of it. they’re literally young and in love, the Hipster™ dream…………

        listen  .    .    .  there is NO ONE mai loves more than tom-tom. and i mean that literally. forget any love interests she had/has, forget her parents and friends. tom-tom is EVERYTHING to her.

now, mai says she was a rich only child, all the attention was on her growing up. she was forced out of her childish whims at a young age. and honestly she was almost didn’t care when her mother told her she was pregnant. sure, she loved the idea that her parents would fret over her younger sibling rather than her all the time. it was a good way to get away with things here and there. ( by this time, mai really didn’t have to force herself into the mold her parents made, she WAS that mold. she already conformed to their ideals, and she even believed them herself to a degree. ) but other than that, mai was supportive bc, but she really didn’t know she felt about having a sibling; she was kind of in a grey area.

of course, her perspective does a complete 180 when she actually SEES tom-tom. as she got to spend time with him through babysitting or just casually seeing him coo and giggle at her, she honestly couldn’t help her adoration. she became protective, instinctive, and almost proud. HE was of her blood, HE would most likely face similar problems when it came to their parents and their rep, HE was her baby brother. and mai loves him with every fiber of her being. i can’t honestly tell you what made her change, it’s not like it was sudden, it definitely took time, but at the end of day, she was sold. i guess it’s that slow………. i don’t want to say burn, cause that’s not the right word, but her love took time, it took effort. but it was WORTH IT, bc im telling u, they’re really really close.

and as someone who is the first child and was going to be the only child until shit happened ( nothing bad tbh ), i’m super close with my baby brother. we do have a five year age gap which is nothing compared to mai and tom-tom’s, but it’s significant. but even now, mai and tom-tom are truly connected. they go to each other if they need advice or help. tom-tom knows he can confide in mai if he ever needs it, and mai knows tom-tom, despite his young age, will give her a straight answer. ( sometimes kids have this really simple way of looking at things, they don’t mess with the details, and their ideas can actually be quite helpful u kno ).

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