Since I joined Tumblr I didn’t know what I was going, when I met the suggestion blogs I smiled. I had fun interacting and it was amazing, life was simple and people seemed to enjoy themselves. Then Mercy left which put a hole in our hearts, she agreed in letting me be Yosano when I requested. And then I found the discord server. I felt excited I felt happy I was ecstatic to meet more people and help them and make them all smile! I wanted to help them in every possible way I could! And at first it was fine, we had fun, we joked around, we laughed, we smiled, we greeted, it was new and fun. Suddenly it changed, all of it did. When rules came in I was happy, there was going to be a system and that sounded amazing to me. No one gets to upset and no one gets to annoyed. Sounds simple enough, but then spiraled into this mess it is now. Things weren’t being enforced right, children got scared, people were scolded over the smallest things. And the best part of it? The excuses they gave to them. After the rules after it all happened people weren’t as happy but more stressed out. Negativity came into play more then before. And I suddenly started to suffer panic attacks every day, I suffered the fact of saying things to anyone. And seeing what happened with Yumeno, seeing what the result of the problem was, seeing the hell it became, all of it broke everything. This arguement and problems that’s “dragged out” is only for one thing. The fact that many have seen what happened, and I’ve seen the truth. I was shown how you guys feel, and Yosano showed everyone with your adult chat and how you guys feel superior against minors. You don’t allow Oda and Lucy into the adult chat because of their age and you talk horrible about any child there is. Let me say when I read what you guys said about me not even them! I didn’t feel upset, I didn’t feel betrayed, I didn’t feel any type of shock reading it. Do you know why? I saw it, I saw how no matter what I did I wasn’t your perfect 17 year old Yosano doing what she enjoyed. Being herself while helping others, so getting the wonderful name Yucky is nice to know. Because I promise you I have names for you all as well, I wanted to just say it’s just a small problem but it isn’t. I now vomit up about half of what I eat everyday because of the damage you caused. Yet you turn around and say nothing happened and you’re right. I even talked to Fitz and I don’t give any details but you must have enjoyed lying to me. You must have enjoyed every bit of tricking me, I’m not one to take screenshots, but I won’t just sit back while you do what you wish because you’re an adult. An adult doesn’t harass a child, they calmly speak things out no matter what’s going on no matter the lashing or name calling. No one thinks that way from that chat and I’m sick to say that I got to see that. I was able to feel how it was like, but this doesn’t matter now does it?
Because I’m a minor, I’m a child, I’m throwing a tantrum at you all adults for my actions and I’m just like Yum. Because vomiting up food and panic attacks everyday, and wishing every contact you had was gone is just a child thing. None of that actually matters now does it?