The hair thing is so emotional for me. About a year ago, I called my colorist and was like, “I’m going through so much emotionally. I need a reset. I need you to bleach my hair.” This has been really important for me, as a 27- and 28-year-old, to show myself every morning when I get up that I’m not someone who is going to live in the past. When it’s time for Neon Hayley to come back to life, she will. But right now, this is me.

yelyahwilliams | 05.03.18  

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Tilburg, Netherlands @ 013 (25/06)

OH, PLEASE! I BET EVERYBODY HERE IS FAKE HAPPY TOO.

“Following that gut feeling, even when it didn’t work out or look the way I thought it would, has always paid off. We’re on our fifth album, we’ve been a band since I was 13. I’m 28 now and - I’m still alive. Been through a lot of pain - still alive. Started a new company, really scary - still alive. And I think it is because I value that gut feeling. You’ll know if it’s worth going after or not, you’ll know that. And if you don’t, then you’ll know when it’s time to try something new. But… it’s not gonna kill you.”

“I was an only child, and I want to be a part of something really bad. When I got signed by myself, I felt very alone. If my dad was sitting here next to me, he would tell you about all the pages in my journal of me drawing me and four other faceless friends on different instruments. That’s why when I see a kid at a show that looks like they’re crying their brains out because they’re sitting in a room with thousands of other people who get it, I cry onstage. And I hide it because it’s embarrassing. But I get what that feels like to just want to find your place. And this is my place. This is my place.”