Phantom Pain (Shanks x GN!reader)

👑 CW: angst, hurt/comfort, thoughts of limb loss, phantom pain

👑 Brief description: late at night reader finds Shanks in the kitchen unable to sleep from a phantom pain in the arm he’s lost years ago

Enjoy!

In the middle of the night, you wake up. Something wakes you up.

You lie as if thrown ashore, your head half-dipped in sleep still washing over your mind in a low tide. Your senses are heightened, however, drowsy conscious having given reign to instinct. 

You strain your ears. No screams, no battle cries, no rowdy, drunken shouts. No clash of swords, no bullets flying into wood and flesh. So, nothing either dangerous or urgent. What, then?

It could‘ve been a single sound that died as soon as it woke you, a simple balance. But you know better, and you know that this isn’t the reason. 

Not without difficulty, you push yourself up on your elbows. You sway, hit with a wave of sleep intent on drowning you in unconsciousness; how dare something pull you from its murky depths.

You roll over the edge of the bed and hit the floor with a shoulder and a pained oof. So much for trying to clear your head faster.

From that position you turn your head towards the door to see light coming from the gap between the exit and the floor. Not bright, quite dim, though still a light peering in as if it was what rose you from your slumber, sheepish in its urgency but firm in its concern, calling gently for you to come resolve the problem you are yet to learn of; come and turn the light off, let it sleep again.

Your shoulder throbs; your head aches with demand for rest. You ignore them both and stand up. Move for the door and the light under it like an ship drawn by the beam of a lighthouse.

The door creakes under the weight you push onto its knob. In your current state you forget to mind the still silence of the night.

As it turns out, the light is coming from the kitchen, the door to which has been left ajar. One might have thought at first that was quite mindless and thoughtless, as for the ship is filled with people docking at the harbour of the night for rest. However, it has been meant as something opposite, as thus no creak will rise if the one in the kitchen decides to join his crewmates. 

Your bare feet make no sound as you move along the corridor, a palm on the wall for support. Nothing this night makes a sound, the world completely devoid of a major sense. This proves that something else indeed has woken you up. A sixth sense. A seventh, perhaps, even. 

Your hand rests on the doorframe and you peer inside.

“Ah, hello, angel. What’re you doing up so late?“

You squint. Droplets of sleep fall from your lashes and disappear between the creaks of wood under your feet. A rasp of a voice and a red head of hair like bright flags on a beach warning you of a storm already raging.

As your eyes adjust to the light, the room tells you more than the person in front of you would. A bottle squeezed in a white-knuckled grip; a face, pale and untrimmed of its stubble; a smile like a string pulled tight, a pop resonating through your mind the longer you look at it, about to snap. 

You don‘t give Shanks an answer; you simply take an unoccupied chair, put it down behind his own, rest the weight of your body on it and your temple on Shank’s shoulder.

His back is tight, his neck also, his whole body. Also a string ready to snap. Your nose finds a point of bare skin above the collar of his shirt and presses gently in. Perhaps, its cold will distract his body from the pain.

Shanks starts to shiver. You exhale, close your eyes and move your head to now press your forehead to the same point.

Your shoulder throbs. You wonder if the ache you feel is his or yours. You wonder how often it hurts, the arm that’s no longer there. How often and how much. For how much longer will it?

“Thank you, angel. Sorry I woke you up.”

It’s ok, your body answers for you as you sink under the surface of unconsciousness.

The redhead pirates find you in the morning, both asleep at the kitchen table, a bottle in Shanks’ hand, half-full.

Imagine | Rest (Zoro x Reader)

Imagine falling asleep at Zoro’s side.

Word Count: 783

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(Gif is not mine!)

The Going Merry rocks gently back and forth as the sun shines upon Luffy and his crew.

Master List: Completed Series

        The Elf and the Dwarf- Thorin x Reader: (15,841 words; 9 Chapters) Erebor was reclaimed and the line of Durin had not ended. You were an elf and now that your quest was over, you didn’t know what to do especially since you gained feelings for a certain King Under the Mountain.

         Kitty Cats: Thorin x Reader (23,085 Words; 27 Chapters) You and your son, Frerin II, accidentally turn Thorin, Kili, Fili, Dwalin, Balin and Gandalf into cats and this is the result (Spin off of The Elf and The Dwarf)

         Feisty Little Hobbit: (21,978 words; 22 Chapters) You’re Bilbo’s little sister, but the exact opposite of him. You are sarcastic and loved adventures so what happens when 13 dwarves show up to your door step? You join them of course!

         Perfect Two- Thorin x Reader: (11,554 words; 12 Chapters)  You and Thorin have been best friends for years, but you are more interested in his little brother. Thorn tries his best to get you together, but can he succeed? NO SMAUG or SAURON

           The Aim of Elves: Thorin x Reader (11,727 words; 12 Chapters) You disobey Thranduil’s orders and decide to help the dwarves which has a better outcome than you expected.

           Little Brat: Thorin x Sister!Reader, Reader x OC (41,352 words; 34 Chapters) You are the oldest of the Durins and you live your life happily until the day Smaug attacks. That is when you lost the trust of your little brother, Thorin.

           To Fix A Heart: Nori x Reader (4,748 words; 7 Chapters)- You say a few words that take a toll on your relationship. Can you fix this?

           Trials and Tribulations: Frerin x Reader (15,395 Words; 17 Chapters)- Sometimes being a dwarven skin-changer was helpful especially if you could see up to a year into the future. Using your powers, you try to keep the Durins, yes, including Frerin, alive. Can you do it especially when feelings for the light haired prince come to surface?

            Remember Me: Legolas x Reader (9,191 Words; 9 Chapters)- Because of your feelings for the Prince, Thranduil bans you from Mirkwood. A hundred years later, you are back with a company of dwarves.

               Love of a Father: Thranduil x Daughter!Reader (11 Chapters) You are the oldest child and yet your father treats you as if you are not even his.

Mistakes: Dwalin x Reader (5 chapters) - Dwalin accuses you of being in love with his best friend and ends the courtship but what happens when he finds out that it isn’t true? Will you take him back or is your heart irreparable.

Master List: Drabbles

Good Things Are Coming:  A breakup leads you to a good thing.

Justification: You visit Wakanda and aren’t exactly greeted warmly by the leader of the Jabari tribe.

 (Daughter/sister of Thorin, Dis, and Frerin or Kili and Fili)

Antsy: Sometimes being an aunt lead you to interesting situations

Conversations: A little talk between the three Durin cousins

Family Thing:  In which Fili makes his sister cry. (TTDWC 24)

If I Die Young: Boredom leads to unwanted memories. (TTDWC 15)

Just There: Growing up with Thorin, Dis and Frerin was not always easy.

Kili asks you to babysit and you are not cut out for it.

Not Good Enough: Fili and Kili always got more praise than you from other dwarves and it was starting to affect you.

Self-Doubt: Fili starts to doubt himself. (TTDWC 2)

Sorry: You feel like your Adad doesn’t love you anymore. 

To Be Loved: Being Dis’ daughter was hard especially since you think she doesn’t love you.

 (Daughter/Sister of Lord Elrond, Elladan, Elrohir and Arwen)

Chicken: Your father has a rather surprising guest.

Darling Daughter: You reassure your father that you will always be there.

Doubt: You are starting to doubt your father’s feelings for you

Reassurance: You return home after the war

Showers: You lose your brother and find them in the most unexpected place.

 (Daughter/Sister of Thranduil and Legolas)

Stolen Heart: Your father, Thranduil, is not too happy with you, but you could careless. As long as you got to see your thief.

Distraction: You fight with Dwalin and go to Balin for a distraction.

Happier: You look for Bard after the battle. (part 3)

Matchmaker: Thorin plays matchmaker, sort of.

No Promises: After escaping the elves, you run into the bowman and you do not like him one bit. (part 1)

Probably Wrong: You think that maybe you were being a little too harsh on the bowman. (part 2)

Staring: You can’t help, but stare at the handsome bowman.

Doggies: You finally get to play with a dog

Understanding: Imagine understanding Bifur without him knowing

Afraid of Love: You did not know whether being in love was a good thing or a bad thing.

A Break From Duties: Your family comes to visit you in the shire.

Mistaken Identity: Bilbo mistakes you for Thorin and you decide to have a bit of fun with that.

Moving Home: You really missed Erebor.

Tiny, Little Hobbit: Thorin doesn’t approve of your current interest.

Bofur: War is brewing.

Dancing: Imagine dancing with Bofur

The Right Dwarf: You and Bofur had a knack for being funny at the all the wrong moments.

Come Back to Me: You are not happy at the fact the Bombur is going on the quest.

Just Like Her: You offer to help Bombur.

Lord Be Damned: You and Dain think you don’t love each other. Thorin thinks you’re both idiots.

Little Shits: Fili and Kili let their mother in on a little secret and you aren’t happy.

Approval: Imagine trying to ask Dori for permission to court Ori

Advice: You go to Thorin for advice about his best friend.

Bad to Good: Dwalin is not having such a good day but you make it better.

Bulldog: Fili randomly gives you a dog.

Cheater: It’s game night with the boys and you meet Dwalin’s ex.

Courting Fears: Dwalin is a tad bit insecure.

Courting Problems: You want to starting courting Dwalin but where would the beads go?

Date a Rugby Player: Rugby was not your favorite sport in the world but it could be.

Definitely: The Company thinks you’re a man so when they find out that you’re not, one dwarf isn’t too pleased.

Forever: Questions as to why Dwalin chose you start to surface.

Leaving: You tell your adad, Dwalin, that you’re leaving.

Life: You saved their lives and that’s all that mattered.

Locked In: Fili and Kili, your best friends, try to get you and Dwalin together.

Lucky:You meet your upstairs neighbor and his doggo.

Mistakes: Dwalin accuses you of being in love with his best friend and ends the courtship but what happens when he finds out that it isn’t true? Will you take him back or is your heart irreparable.

Mr. Grumpy Pants: It’s Kili’s birthday and you have to bake pastries causing you to ignore your hubby.

Picking Up the Pieces: You catch your boyfriend cheating and Dwalin is there to help you pick up the pieces.

Pregnancy Woes: Dwalin is very over-protective.

Reality: Bad dreams leads you to Dwalin’s room.

Silly Dwarf: Dwalin, you find, is a very silly dwarf.

Teddy Bear: You did not like the way those dwarves talked about your Dwalin.

Unsavable: You deny Dwalin, but the reason is not as he thinks.

Welcome Home: You haven’t been home in 15 years.

Well, Shit: Sometimes, secrets are not as secret as you think they are.

Being Human: You decide to take pity on the dwarves.

Beadless: Fili loses a bead or two. (TTDWC 25)

Breaking Bread: Dinner with your families doesn’t go as expected. (TTDWC 14)

Boss Ass Bitch: You and Fili have a danceathon. (TTDWC 22)

Calling it Quits: Senior year of high school was not supposed to go like this. (TTWDC 12)

Cheesy: Fili has a hard time asking a question.

Don’t Leave Me: An argument makes you doubt Fili’s love for you. (TTDWC 3)

Expecting: You have news to tell Fili (TTDWC 9)

Fashion Baby: A model bails out on you and Fili takes her place (TTDWC 23)

Fixing the Mistakes: Fili fixes his mistakes.(TTDWC 20)

Guilty As Charged: You come home to an interesting sight. (TTDWC 17)

King Fili: You don’t really like the blonde prince, but people change and so do feelings.

Lion Man: You’re about to get married to Fili, but your nerves are starting to get the best of you.

Moron: Fili isn’t the brightest apple in the bunch. (TTDWC 21)

Neighbor: The fire alarm goes off and you and your neighbor isn’t too happy.

Not So Slick: Your son brings home another dog and you are not happy

Poking Fun: Fili has some rather interesting marks on his back.

Pretty Braids: You can’t help but play with Fili’s braids.  

Smitten: Love at first sight. (TTDWC 19)

Tears Gone Wrong: Fili wants a cat, you don’t. (TTDWC 28)

Too Late: Its your wedding day, but it’s not to Fili. (TTDWC 26)

True One: Fili finally gets closure. (TTDWC 1)

Until the Very End: Fili thinks you can do better. (TTDWC 16)

Whoops: Fili shows a bit too much and Ori is an evil genius. (TTDWC 4)

Apologies: You reunite with Gimli and Gloin apologizes. (part 3)

Parents or Children?: While on a school field trip, you and Gloin, the parents, get lost.

Regret: You and Gloin get into a little argument. (part 1)

Return: You return Gloin’s beads. (cont. of story above; part 2)

Dresses: Kili tries on a dress

Failures and Success: A prank goes wrong or so you think.

For Nothing: It’s time you meet Thorin.

Ghivashel: Kili lies to surprise you.

Gift Giving: Kili gives you gifts and you make a decision to give him one in return.

Godmother: Tauriel gives birth and Kili has a question for you.

Hold Him Close: You try to go back home, but Kili stops you. (part 3 of Let Him Go)

Let Him Go: You watch your dwarf fall in love with another elf.

Make Him Happy: You ignore Kili and he confronts you about it. (part 2 of Let Him Go)

The One: You’re angry at Kili for flirting with Tauriel and Thorin decides to have a one on one with you.

Stone Cold: It’s Kili’s wedding day and you try to be happy for him.

Stupid, Ignorant Dwarf: You finally confess to Kili (cont. of The One)

For You: You worry about the fate of Legolas after the battle.

Going Home: You and Bilbo embark on the journey home with a surprise guest waiting for you. (part 2)

Got You: Dwalin confronts Legolas about you traveling with him.

Home: You are finally home after ten years. (last part)

Interesting: Legolas takes an interest in you once he realizes that you are an elf and definitely not a dwarf. (part 1)

Let it Be: You’re sick and Legolas decides to take care of you.

Not So Bad: You and the company gets captured and you meet the Prince of the Woodland Realm.

Skilled: Legolas didn’t realize that you lived in the forest.

Caught: Lindir is being a grump and you try to bring a smile on his face. ‘Try’ being the key word.

Sober: The dwarves were going to give someone gray hairs.

Annoying Dwarf: Nori has stolen a drawing of you and you want to know why.

Return to Me: You go to find Nori before they go to the mountain.

Stolen Heart: Your father, Thranduil, is not too happy with you, but you could care less. As long as you got to see your thief.

Surprise?: You’re getting married to the thief.

That’s What Friends Are For: You catch your supposed one cheating and a certain thief decides to help you out.

Your Dwarf: The battle has ended and Nori has a few choice words for you.

Memories: Imagine bringing up Oin’s old memories.

The Last Goodbye: You don’t want your little brother to go to Moria

Promise: You see the Ri brothers off and give something to Ori.

Training: Ori doesn’t want to train.

All I Need Is You: Thorin forgets your birthday. Or so it seems.

Bed Pains: Thorin was always rough in bed and you typically didn’t feel it till the next day.

Catsration: You and Thorin find out Sheila is expecting. Thorin is not happy. (Sequel to Cats Day)

Getting His Way: Dwalin accidentally wakes you up in the middle of the night and you learn that Thorin is spending another night away from his bed. You decide to do something about it.

Forgive Me: Thorin finds out you’re an elf.

Keeping Secrets: You have yet to let your students in on a little secret.

Lovebug: You faint while on the journey and that causes feelings to surface.

Mahal Hates Me: You have a miscarriage and Thorin helps you through the pain.

Not Even In Death Do We Part: You and Thorin give your lives in the battle of Dale, but you were happy.

Practice: You accidentally put Thorin’s hair into a ponytail.

Punny: You and Thorin have a small pun-off

Smug: Thorin thinks you’re in love with him and he’s taking the piss out of you

Stupid Raven: Your raven is a little shit. 

Talking Bunny: Thorin gets turned into a bunny.

Unanswered: You have a secret to tell Thorin

Unbelievable: Thorin takes a blow and you are not happy about it.

What Sickness: The king is sick.

Worthy: You are having second thoughts about your wedding to Thorn

Your One: You visit Thorin as he heals and you notice that his hair is an absolute mess. Balin suggests you clean it for him.

Death of Him: Thranduil is sure you were going to be the death of him.

Cold Feet: Thranduil returns home from his meeting.

First Meeting: You meet Thranduil and he is not as Kingly as you expected.

Getting Somewhere : You and Sigrid have a very in-depth conversation about your past with Thranduil and the King tries to apologize in his own little way. (part 2)

Kicker: Thranduil tries to figure out what keeps on waking him up at night.

Not Fair: Bard is planning to marry Sigrid to one of the heirs of the two other Kingdoms and you’re absolutely livid. (part 1)

Rest of Your Life: Fixing Thranduil’s hair leads to a confession.

Reunited with the King: After spending years in the forest trying to clean it up, you decide that it was time to go back home.

Together Again: Thranduil visits the modern world and you pay him a visit as well.

Loved: You loved your two dwarves very much.

Worries: Being married to both Dwalin and Thorin had its downsides.

Help Not Wanted  Fili is fed up with the pussyfooting.

Broken: When you invited the dwarves in, you did not know what you got yourself into.

The Cute Warrior: You may be a cute hobbit, but you were also a warrior.

He’s A Girl: A prank goes wrong (TTDWC6)

Lost: You meet a few interesting people at the bookstore.

Miley Cyrus: Fili and Kili come over to bother you. (TTDWC5)

Mr. Snuggles: Fili and Kili bring home a cat. (TTDWC 18)

A Little Fun: (Non-Reader Insert)- Kili knows Fili’s pet peeve and plays it like a fiddle. (TTDWC7)

Princely Duties: Dis noticed that Fili is not as happy as he used to be. (TTDWC 27)

We’re Alright: (Non-Reader Insert)- Dis returns home to Erebor.

Reunited: You did not plan to fall into Westeros, but you did not regret it at all.

Sly Slytherin: According to Fred and George, you are getting weird looks from a certain Slytherin.

Fairest of Them All: You move to Rivendell and meet a very handsome elf.

A Little Crazy: Your husband might be a little crazy.        

Badass: Haldir questions things.

Idiot: In which Rumil and Orophin are jerks, you have an announcement to make and Haldir is an idiot.

 (Daughter/Sister of Feanor)

One Big Happy Family: Celegorm tries to train you, but your other brothers won’t let him.

 (Daughter/Sister of Sam and Dean)

No: You want to go on the hunt, but Sam and Dean don’t let you.

Invisible: You had feelings for a certain gatekeeper but you knew it was hopeless to fall in love with him.

Nightmares: You comfort Alex after a nightmare.

Color Blind: You run away from home only to run into a very yellow man

Dead and Forgotten: You don’t really know how this bald guy knew who you were.

Mind Your Own: Charles decides to read the minds in the school