If you want to be in the spotlight, don't push people off their stage. Either labour to make your own or be satisfied being in the background.

It's good to lick sugar-coated things when the only purpose they serve is sweetness to your tongue.

But sugar-coated words? They are the most bitter!

Hence, I love candy. And hence, I dislike you.

And that my love, would be us in a parallel universe Because no matter what choices we would make  No matter how many odds would be in our favour  The pieces of our broken hearts would never fit together  We aren’t one puzzle, and we can’t hammer ourselves into being one. 

A girl so young

A girl so broken

A girl trying so hard

A girl trying too hard

I know you miss his warmth  But his warmth was the kind that engines of air conditioners and cars leave The kind of warmth you deserve is the warmth of tea and coffee,  The warmth of fireplaces and custom-made blankets.  His kind of warmth would soon leave you black and burnt  So I know you’re cold right now,  But if you get through this,  You will develop a thicker skin And you will glow and giggle  When you come across the hot chocolate with 3 marshmallows kind of warmth that you truly deserve. 

Fairy Floss, to my ear, sounds like a dream.  When I realize that fairy floss is nothing but the original name of cotton candy,  My taste buds start craving that delight.  When my brain registers the fact that fairy floss was invented by a dentist, I laugh.  My heart, however, questions why we tend to create problems that make us go crazy when we have to find the solution. 

He cracked my heart. But you shattered it.

Pain is Pain but the mess left is different

Instead of calling you up or sending you a long text, I deleted your number. I now measure relations in terms of cost and benefit. And time! In the little time we had spent together, the cost of going through an emotional confrontation was just not worth the anticipation of the benefit of your friendship.

How I've changed

Scarlet Heart: Ryeo

This tv series has impacted me so much and has taught me several things too.

1. People aren't inherently bad. Even though they do super bad things. They have a reason to be the way they are. Not that it makes their bad deeds justified. But just that may be we can show some mercy to them.

2. People can change. For most part of the show I was convinced that Hae Soo wouldn't be able to change history by changing the 4th Prince. That he would be remembered as the bloody monarch who killed all this brothers and nephews. The wolf dog. The animal. But she changed him. She changed history. After all, he did turn out to be a good and a wise king.

3. But that doesn't mean you make it your mission to go around changing people. You should be able to gauge their actions and intentions and see if there is any hope. I'm sure if after killimg his older brother, the 4th Prince wouldn't be that upset, Hae Soo wouldn't see his heart. She would run away from him as far as she could.

4. People change for the worst too. It's not always a good change. Take the 8th Prince, Wook for example. He had such a solid good guy character for the first half of the TV series.

Because of these two characters and the major changes they underwent in the duration of the show I am convinced that the catalyst (Hae Soo) in this case isn't as important as what lies in a person's heart/soul. Sure, sometimes most people need just a push towards either the light or the burning pits of hell. And because all they need is a push, they are already facing that direction. Or their heart truly wants to face that direction. If the 4th Prince was truly evil as everyone portrayed him, no matter how much Hae Soo tried he would end up as a bloody monarch.

5. The understanding and forgiveness Hae Soo showed towards Chae Ryngi was just unexpected and admirable. I don't know if I could do that in a situation where I am betrayed by someone I consider my friend, my younger sister but maybe because of what Hae Soo has taught me, I can at least try to see why. And hear them out.

6. Moon lovers also taught me that knowing when to leave and having the courage to do so is very crucial.

7. But it also taught me that it's okay to look back after a goodbye. That life is short and fleeting and that a goodbye to someone you love doesn't have to be final. It doesn't have to be forever.

8. To differentiate between love and friendship. And to be clear about that differentiation no matter how hard. Not just you but the other person too deserves to know what you feel for them. Even if they don't want to hear it.

9. To not blame people or your life or the stars. To live your life in the best way you can no matter what situation or heck! what era life throws you in.

10. To love. Passionately and gloriously. But to never forget yourself in love hot, messy love. To know your well being and freedom are the most important.

It has taught me a dozen other things. It has made me cry a whole lot too. It broke me. But it also fixed me.

You don't have to go running to forgive people who aren't even asking for forgiveness. You merely need to reach a place where you have no trace of resentment or bitterness. That's the only way you can live without any grudges; that's how you can live without any regrets.

How to have a light heart

I am not mad at you  Yes, I spent a whole month and 15% of my income  A lot of thought and slyly asking you the required questions To prepare this special gift for you as you’re my special person  I get that we are busy now, I get that we both have work commitments  But does that mean I don’t have a right to be disappointed? Because I understood that in the end the goal was to make you happy,   Because today is when I understood the true meaning behind the saying,  ‘I want you to be happy even if that’s not with me.’ I tried to not show you how disappointed and hurt I was.  I understand your reason was genuine,  But I also understand something else now  Never will I ever make anyone else’s birthday a big deal  Except mine of course!  A call at midnight,  A heartfelt message is good. It is good enough.  And that’s something I will do from now on.  That’s something I anyway do.  But that’s the only thing I will do.  And I hope, I hope that is enough for you. 

OBSESSED with ‘Boys’ by Charli XCX  The video is just heaven sent! The song itself has such an addictive tune. This song somehow makes me feel okay about the idea of living a simple but cute and happy life. I don’t know what gave rise to that correlation but it makes me feel better.