hiatus
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this blog is currently inactive -- holding this url for a possible revival.
I’m going through some vicious cycle of not being able to have a physical presence with friends and family and feeling guilty for it, but then I’ll be forced to confess my anxiety, fears, and insecurities the minute they see me ... and I’m too prideful to show that side of me. I just want to breath easy.
Maybe it’s selfish, but I can’t deal with exposing myself so vulnerably. And in some twisted motivation, I keep telling myself I don’t deserve to do or see anything fun like hanging out with friends or taking part in celebrations until I fix myself—- but it’s been so long, and I’m still stuck.
Please don’t hate me, please. I’m already hating myself.
Please wait for me.
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And right after I wrote that, my dad came home with the prettiest flowers and cake for my birthday.
That, and the happy birthday messages, I really don’t think I deserve all the love I receive.
I’m really sorry everybody. Please wait for me.
Anybody who knows me, knows that I do
Late nights on my balcony, thinking of you
I’ll always regret not creating stronger relationships with people I’ve had the potential of being great friends with.
Relationship building just doesn’t come easy for me. Getting along with everybody is easy. Becoming close to one person is hard.
Digging up old poems in drafts and reposting, so I can showcase my writing a bit. I hope the timelines of the publishing doesn’t give anybody ideas.
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I love my name the most when it comes out of your mouth.
Reyna Biddy (via thelovejournals)
You may not be mine but you’re still my baby.
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I’ve always, always loved how easy it is to talk to you. That means a lot, coming from somebody like me, who doesn’t reach out to people on their own.
When I sit down and think about all the men who've been in my life, no matter how long, the memories are honestly so wild
You know? I think it's time. Time to get moving. Time to change. I've had my rest, but now it's time to get what I want. I've always trying to prove a point to other people, but now I have to prove this for myself.