deb the clown

“I’ve been here for a very long time. And I remember many things.”

Wait... why are you here? I heard it's cold, so I brought a hot pack. That's it? uh-huh. 🥰🥰🥰

Ossan's Love Returns (2024) 1.01

Ossan's Love Returns was leaps and bounds above the original, and you guys know how much I love the original so that's saying a lot. My heart is full

Art, hope, love, dreams. Human things.

pain tolerance

another attempt to objectify the angel [tap for HQ]

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My half of an art trade with @cheap-slaw

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sure cas fell in love with a bug but you don’t know that you wouldn’t. if you could speak the language of bugs and be bugsized and walk among the bugs and you met a bug that was so full of love and other complicated bug emotions you don’t know. you don’t know that you wouldn’t fall in love with a bug

Bug loves Cas

don't forget to boop your neighbors!

Not the first time I've pointed this out but turns out it's relevant again so reminder:

bibro and brosonly lane's preachiness about how "progressive" and what great "representation" it is to discard all other forms of love outside of Sam and Dean's sibling bond and treating queer love as lesser and not worthy of being important on spn and a sibling relationship as "queer rep" is nothing but a performative, concern trolling, virtue signaling mess as certain accounts scramble over themselves to cover up their own narrow-mindness and downright gaslight queer fans about the actual hurt cause by their favorite, mister-disjointedly-rambled-on-a-panel [old drama, but Jared stans don't know when to quit perpetuating their bad behavior and narrow mindedness over these issues, in their mad rush to put their favorite on a pedestal where they can't even see the self-evident problem and deny all wrongs no matter how many people were hurt] in a queerphobic way, and the harm they themselves are doing with their narrow-minded attitudes. They can have any interpretation of the text they please, but the virtue signaling is designed at attacking queer readings and they refuse to stop. They preach about art being open to interpretation in the same breath that they aggressively keep perpetuating this endless queerphobic othering attitude.

spn has its flaws but I'm going to defend it when these people come along trying to claim spn wasn't about Love. Love of all kinds. The connections that form and why they matter. All of them. Dean and Cas's love for each other saved each other and saved the world. Canon. Argue with the wall.

There is nothing progressive about these stans and their assertions that queer love had no place on a show about Love, and their views are not reflected by the canon. (No matter its flaws, it doesn't do that. This is a stan problem, where a bad series finale handed them a certain amount of fuel and perceived validation but I promise you. This is not what spn is). Nor do their views represent the majority of spn fandom, online or offline, anywhere, I don't care. They are not the majority.

How funny is it that Supernatural wanted to replace Castiel with Anna as the angel to guide Dean through the Apocalypse. And Dean and hers romance would parallel that of Sam and Ruby's. But Cas was too popular. And beloved. So they killed Anna and left Cas. And so Cas and Dean's relationship ended up paralleling Sam and Ruby's roman-- [gunshots]

You know who I feel sad for right now is Misha, because I think he wanted to be able to speak much much earlier than he was able to about Cas’s confession. We know he drafted an essay about Cas’s coming out…and then wound up not publishing it. Misha deserved to be able to talk about it in interviews the way Oliver Stark is able to about Buck. Misha mentioned it on zoom calls, briefly. And then it seems like he got yanked back by the PR machine and the nature of Cas’s confession wasn’t discussed on any SPN PR materials and for a time Misha was restricted on what he could say on CE Con stages.

At first, back then, for a few glorious days, I thought the stigma about queer Cas, about Destiel, had been lifted, finally, and then WB/CW brought the restrictions back down via PR. Oh you can have your confession scene, SPN, but corporate will control the narrative on how it’s spoken about or not.

We saw this thaw over time. (Anyone who claims otherwise or that Misha was always able to be open about it, is lying). Now Misha can speak openly about it and that shift began around the time when Chaos Machine really set up shop and changed a few con policies. So I’m happy for Misha that he can speak only about Cas being queer and what the confession means and Cas coming out, but he still has yet to be able to speak in depth about it in major PR. The openness about it comes out on con stage. At first it was non-CE Cons. Then finally he was more able to speak freely on CE Con stages.

Which leads me to another point, which is that, in fact, any of us who thought Cas was supposed to be in the series finale? We were right all along. The PR Misha filmed meant to mislead and misdirect about his last episode…PR misdirect to cover up so it could be a surprise, which makes sense and is sometimes how PR is run. Remember that the production shutdowns of the pandemic happened during the first days of filming 15.19. We found out eventually Dean and Cas were planned to be seen at the Roadhouse bar in Heaven together.

When they filmed 15.18 everyone thought Cas would at least cameo in 15.20. During the filming of 15.18 nobody directly involved knew how far Cas would be shoved out of the story, the actors didn’t know, the writer didn’t know, the director didn’t know, how far 15.20 would be stripped back, no one knew how reduced even mere mentions would be in 15.20.

I’ve talked about this before but a reminder how screwed the spn creatives who worked on 15.18 were, how screwed over the actors were.

You were right. If you thought that there was going to be at least some satisfaction and closure and Cas was going to have one more appearance before the end and it wouldn’t be able to be loud open canon, but something that implied mutual canon Destiel.

We were right. We were right all along.

Antis on twitter dot com can keep scratching and clawing and harassing and gaslighting and spewing phobic comments, denying what Jensen’s views are and dening that corporate censorship is real and that bi Dean is canonical via queer coding and queer Cas is now loud open canon and Destiel is mutual, via canon queer coding. Won’t change what happened here or that the intent was so, so much better and more than what 15.20 delivered, and the reason it fell apart was the production shutdown gave some parties high up too much time to think and then interfere and cut Cas out.

There is no more room to indulge media illiteracy and malicious denialism and trolling from antis.

I love their dynamic

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i think i drew this cas in heavypaint a million years ago and forgot

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