too many years in the Nest had left his childhood faith in shreds.
new phone background unlocked. this is stunning
too many years in the Nest had left his childhood faith in shreds.
new phone background unlocked. this is stunning
Keeping these all in one place for my own sake but if you felt like catching up on my Exy Fans On Twitter / in-universe memes series here’s them all so far:
(the aus in the au)
(asks)
i love thiiiis
okay so:
kevin and jean are "wrong person, wrong time" trope
renee and jean are "right person, wrong time" trope
jeremy and jean are "right person, right time" trope
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he is allergic to colors
Kevin Day - #2 Striker
“Everyone knows the Ravens are all about being the best. Best pair, best line-up, best team. They drill it into you day after day, make you believe it, make you forget that in the end 'best' means 'one'. They let you forget until other people buy into it, be it fans swaying too far the wrong way or the ERC calling them out on their schemes. Then they don't want to play that game anymore, and they skip straight to the elimination round. Did you know I've never been skiing? I'd like to try it one day, though.”
Heyy! You said someone should ask you about Kevin under this post about Kevin's struggles from the nest of which we don't know enough... So I'm asking you about Kevin! Please tell us your Kevin thoughts! You always make very good points and I like reading your thoughts!!
cody my friend I am so glad you asked but you might regret it. i hope you're prepared from an unorganised huge convoluted MESS of a ramble
i've been thinking for a few days about this one like... what would a kevin POV look like? what is he hiding? how does he cope? WHO IS HE?
the kevin we ""know"" is a "coward", an insufferable bitch, an asshole and a hardass. other people's opinions and view of him makes up the entirety of our impression of who he is. but that's not who he is. that's just who we're supposed to believe he is.
kevin, born and bred to have this... borderline psychopathic lack of empathy, who can look his teammates in the eye after being told seth is dead or andrew is being committed and say, "what about the game?"
but when the raven's are switching districts; his sense of danger and fear is paralysing. he's three steps ahead trying to figure out how to please riko, how to keep himself safe, willing to put himself back into the centre of his abuse just to stop riko from finding him and killing him. he has to get blackout drunk to deal with any amount of riko. he's frozen with fear by being in the same room as him.
kevin knows where jean's mind and body goes to when hes panicking, knowing his worst place is right back in the nest being drowned by riko. kevin telling neil "do you know what he'll do to you?" and "he'll break you" when neil asks for his ticket. kevin's text to him before he goes into the nest, and staring at neil like he'd seen a ghost when neil returns after the nest (when he looks like the butcher). his comforting "i know what he's like" or "i know how he sees you, i know it means he did not hold back,".
kevin nervous breakdown panic attack day vs kevin smile for the cameras one track exy mind day
im so intrigued by him. how does he cope? his mother is dead, probably killed by the mafia family he was raised by. he grew up into a cult, he was only a child watching neil's father cut a man into pieces in front of him. how many other's had he seen?
how many other injuries cover his body, in places where the cameras can't see? how many rapes and assaults was he forced to watch in the nest? how many beatings was he forced to participate in? what did he have to say to jean in french that he didn't want riko to hear?
he needs someone with him all the time because of the nest. he's a "health freak" because of the nest. his sleep schedule, his anger, his anxiety.
did he say "what about the season?" re: andrew after drake because he doesn't care, or did he think "i've seen this happen too many times. and they've always kept playing,"? did he think "andrew is the strongest person i know. andrew is stronger than me. he would never let this destroy him," knowing that it has?
nobody has protected him in his life apart from the cameras and andrew.
he's scared. he doesn't know what love is supposed to look like.
he's only been a human for a year.
his scars are healing for the first time in his life and they're not being replaced by new ones, but every day he's afraid that that's going to get ripped out from underneath him. his entire life already got flipped upside down when he left the nest. of course exy is the only thing he "cares" about.
because it's the only thing that's been certain in his life, and even for those few weeks or months where he thought he would never play again, he trained and trained, and learned how to use his non-dominant hand because he can't lose this. he can't lose exy like he's lost everything else.
kevin has never had anything stable in his life except for violence and exy. now he has people he's supposed to care about, and he has to change his priorities. he has to learn how live a life that isn't fueled by self-preservation for the first time ever.
jean was only in the nest for five years; and look at him. look at what the nest has done to his social skills, his view of himself, his self esteem. look at what it's done to him, how he expects violence and contrition, coach and always waiting and waiting and waiting for the punishment to come.
kevin might not have had the same level of physical abuse that jean had, but he was there far longer. the ravens existed before him; their mindset and their abuse and their violence and their poison.
he's been drinking the raven poison since his childhood. the only difference between him and jean other than those things above is that kevin had more pressure to hide it, because he was half of the face of the ravens, half of the face of Exy; media trained or PR trained or a master at being a fraud and faking the way he speaks when he's being recorded.
kevin knows how to hide his abuse because he has always had to, and he's had quite a lot of practice at it.
kevin has only been a human for a year. kevin has only been kevin for a year.
so who is he? does he even know?
or is he just Kevin Day, Raven Fox starting striker, number two, six foot two, left handed right handed left handed, heavy racquet, stick size five? is that all he will ever see himself as?
anyways. or something like that. maybe he is just an insufferable bitch for no reason at all. who knows!
The Queen
★ jean moreau appearance hcs because i love him ★
i think i could talk about him forever but this post is getting long so i'm going to stop there, give me more jean appearance hcs because they're getting me through these last weeks of school
he's a babygirl.
[gasp] and they were roommates.
(The death grip these disaster children have had on me since the very beginning)
"Did you think you were special?"
the scar on his lips is everything to me
I drew the shitpost I made about Jean sassing Kevin. Hope u enjoy.
tfw you were my childhood best friend and the only person who I could talk to who understood because we were each others only witnesses, and I taught you French because you asked for it to be our secret and you brought me magnets and wrote post cards from cities when you left because I wasn’t allowed to leave, and I’m only still alive because you made me promise not to leave you, and I loved you but you couldn’t look away from the game long enough to let yourself love me back, and when they hurt you enough that you couldn’t play anymore I distracted them, because you asked me to, but in order to leave you had to slit my throat and I thought you were so beautiful and I still do only now I can’t talk to you anymore ,
my roman empire
A love so blinding.
JEAN WITH THE PRETTY SCAR ON HIS LIPS
I recently learnt this and wanted to share this with you… apparently the name Kevin derives from the Irish name Caoimhin which means something like 'gentle little thing' 😭😭😭 I will be passing away... It’s thinking about Kevin time (as always)
IOOHH................ ah.h.h ..... oh.... this is really... this...... oh...... im reminded of mu qing from tgcf whose name means "to yearn for affection".... i fuckinggg love when characters names mean something relevant to their story......
of course its hard to imagine anyone in canon calling kevin gentle but TT___TT lately ive been thinking of him protecting andrew from riko by pretending he didnt want andrew in the ravens anymore and facing the punishment for wasting rikos time.... thinking about him guarding neils binder and not letting anyone even look at it... thinking about him saying he knows how riko is like if neil ever wanted to talk..... you're worth it.... you should've made court....... thinking about him keeping to himself that wymack is his father out of a genuine concern for his safety......... perhaps its true that kevin isnt what we think of when we think of kind and gentle but he is my gentle little thing. my delicate friend:)
YES. HELLO. as someone who wrote an entire fic around kevin’s name and as someone also with an irish name, this is completely correct! the name caoimhín/caomhán is derived from the irish word caomh (dear, beloved, gentle) and the addition of a diminutive! if you want to go even further, it leads back to the old irish name cóemgen, stemming from cóem (dear, beloved, beautiful). his name stems, at it’s core, from love-words and affections! it’s also an interesting note that st. kevin/caoimhín is the patron saint of both dublin (kevin’s birthplace) and blackbirds (evermore). even if it wasn’t intentional i think it’s really something when the origin of his name carries the weight of both the places he grew up in!
Beneath the clothes were his few personal possessions: namely, postcards and magnets Kevin had bought him while on the road with Riko for press events.
Jean’s favorite, a small wooden bear with a red beret […]
I just... he had a little sister that he loved more than anything. he followed thea around like a lost little duckling. he was in love with his best friend and it almost destroyed him. he uses pain to both punish himself and stave off panic attacks. he survived five years of brutal torture and abuse by the skin of his teeth. his parents sold him. his little sister is dead. he wants to burn the house down. he cannot cook or shop for himself. he hates his old teammates. he loves his old teammates. he quite possibly loves his new teammates even more. he frets for the safety of people he barely knows. he's terrified of water, of being bitten, of being hurt again. he laughed when his worst abuser was dethroned and beaten and then tried to kill himself in solidarity.
he's finding reasons to live, day by day, one step at a time. a cool evening breeze, rainbows, open roads, friends.
he is jean moreau. he knows his place. he will endure.