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Running Home

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"Or maybe home is just two arms wrapped around you when you’re at your worst." Last Updated: March 18th 2016 Next Update: TBA 2016
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Anonymous asked:

All you need to say is your giving up this story and thats it! Please stop promising us things you could never give us! You hear yourself its impossible for you to write in the near future no need to explain everything. More like your way to giving up this story!

But I’m not giving up on it. Why would I tell you I am when I have no intention of giving up on this story. Just because I don’t intend to finish it right now does not mean I will never finish it. I know this is frustrating for a lot of you but I’m not promising to finish it in the next two months. All I’m saying is I will write it when I feel like I can write it the way I want to again, whenever that may be. I’m not trying to egg you on by saying “Oh, wait it’s coming!”. I’m not asking you to stay and wait for me to finish it. All I’m saying is, right now, at this present moment, I am unable to write this story but I have the intention to finish it in the future, whether anyone be here to read it or not. 

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Anonymous asked:

Hey love! Just checking if everything's okay since you havent been uploading your Running Home fic in so long? x

1dable answered:

I’m just fine, thank you for asking. Mentally, I’m better than I’ve been in a very long time but I do feel like I owe you all a bit of explanation. 

I know some of you are disappointed in the lack of updates for the last few months - because I’ve gotten plenty of asks about it. Don’t think because I didn’t respond I didn’t see it - and I know I promised not to give up on this story. And I still intend to keep that promise but right now, I need to focus on my life. I just got back into college again, at a very difficult school, and it’s going to be the tip off to start my career. 

When I was writing this fic, I was very distracted. It was my entire life. It consumed my waking and sleeping hours and my guilt when I couldn’t get it out for you was overwhelming to me. I was so focused on it that it was keeping me from moving forward with my life and I had to take a step back to be able to see that and realize that it wasn’t right. Writing this is a hobby. Someday maybe I hope to publish my own book but I needed to be focusing on finishing school and getting a job that I loved and paid my bills. And after taking sometime off of this story, I understand now that with my personality and the way I know that I am, that I cannot do both. I cannot give you bi weekly updates and focus on my school work. And I know some of you might say, “But lots of fic author go to school and write fic.” And I know that’s true. But I am not one of those people. 

Writing is still a huge challenge for me. I’ve written myself into a such a self blocking hole that even writing essays for school I’m seconding guessing every word I put on the paper and it’s gives me a lot of anxiety. I can’t even imagine trying to write this story and trying to do that at the same time. It would overwhelm and both aspects would suffer. I refuse to do that. I will not let my school work become subpar because I’m worried about writing my fic. And I will not let my fic become any less than what I originally imagined it to be because I need to focus on my school work. 

I still want to finish this. I truly do. But doing it any time soon is not in the cards. I need to get away from this for awhile and focus on me and my life and let myself enjoy doing things because I didn’t when I was writing this. The other day a scene that I haven’t written yet hit me like a train in the middle of class and I wanted to write it right then and there but by the time I got back home and reread the last thing I wrote, that inspiration was replaced with a lot of doubt and fear. 

I don’t know when I’ll write Running Home again and I don’t expect any of you to stay here to wait for me to finish it. But I know I will finish it. Even if I just do it for me. 

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#because i owe you all an explanation.
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Writing Playlist Challenge

I was tagged by @finding–cat to do her take on the playlist shuffle challenge. Instead of just doing a general shuffle of my iTunes library, she challenged us to shuffle the playlists that inspire our writing. 

Now, I’m not usually one who listens to music when I write. I find it kind of distracting and I find I can get a lot more done when I’m able to sit and just focus on what’s in front of me. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have songs that inspire what I write and songs that remind me of my characters and my stories. 

The playlist I’ll be pulling from is a collection of songs that remind me of all my stories over the years I’ve been writing. Some never finished, some not finished yet and others that I’m just barely starting. But instead of making you guess which song goes to what, I’ll put the title of the story and the character next to the song that inspires it. 

1.    Paint the Town Green - The Script / Running Home (Serene) 

“If I had to break the bank, spend every penny on your dreams. It’s alright ‘cuz tonight, we’re gonna paint the town green”

2.    Tightrope - Kelly Clarkson / Running Home (Lara)

“You’re on a tightrope, I’ve got my reasons. How did we get so tangled?”

3.    Little Do You Know - Alex and Sierra / Running Home (Lara)

“Little do you know I’m trying to pick myself up piece by piece. Little do you know I need a little more time.”

4.    Cry With You - Hunter Hayes / Running Home (Harry)

“You’re not alone. I’ll listen till you’re tears give out. You’re safe and sound, I swear that I won’t let you down.”

5.    Kingslayer - Game of Thrones: Season 3 - Ramin Djawadi / Untitled Original WIP (Shadow Prince)

1:20 - 2:11

6.    Everything - Parachute / Running Home (Harry)

“It’s too much to explain but believe me when I say, you’re only everything.”

7.    All You Never Say – Birdy / True or False (Rosie)

“If only I could look into your mind. Maybe then I’d find a sign of all I want to hear you say to me.” 

8.       Winter Has Come - Game of Thrones: Season 6 - Ramin Djawadi /  Untitled Original WIP (Shadow Prince + Lady of Light) 

0:00 - 0:40 + 1:50 - 2:38 

9.       Running - James Bay / Running Home (Lara) 

“When my heart is ready to burst. When the world spins in reverse, I’ll keep running to the place where I belong.”  

10.  Brothers in Arms - Mad Max: Fury Road - Junkie XL / Untitled Original WIP 

0:00 - 1:50 (Queen of Light) + 2:00 to 5:52 (Final Battle)

Let’s see… I’m going to tag @fromherlips @bioluminescentwriting @beggingforfics @onismanxiety but anyone who’s writing and wants to do this, feel free! It’s really quite fun and it makes you think about your story. Least it did for me. 

#thought you guys might be interested in this#its got quite a bit of running home stuff in it
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Anonymous asked:

Hiya darling! Thought I'd drop by and say that your tfln posts are adorable! Harry and Lara hold a special place in my heart. Especially since they seem so realistic and down to earth. Hope you're doing alright!

They hold a special place in my heart too. I’ve been with them for so long now and I want to give them the ending I always imagined for them. It also makes me very happy to see that you think they’re realistic. That’s been my goal from the very beginning. 

Thank you so much! 

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Anonymous asked:

It's nice to see you back to writting anything. I'll take whatever I can get. Lovely reading anything you write :) Thank you

No thank you for this lovely message. These are what keep me wanting to write. 

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Anonymous asked:

And the baby is back!!!!!! You are lovely and so is your writting and I hope you get back the inspiration for writting cause it's amazing what you can do. Keep your head held high babe. Whatever this was that you just posted it was interesting and funny ( pizza part) so hopefully more great stuff to come from your lovely self. You are lovely. Sending you all the love :)

I’m slowly but surely letting it come back to me. I’ve found myself thinking about Harry and Lara’s little world more often lately. I think I just needed a break from it. It was my only thought for a long time and maybe I just exhausted myself of it for a bit. I’m glad you like the little texts. They’re all that’s coming to me right now but I’m gonna go with it and see where it takes me. 

Thank you so much for all love. It means a lot. 

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Anonymous asked:

You should honestly just take all the time you need to figure yourself about before slowly easing back into writing. I also don't want you to feel pressured because your health is the most important thing. Just know that I'll be patiently waiting for when you're ready to get back into it! I'm sending you lots of love! 💕

This is so wonderfully sweet and encouraging. I’m having a really hard time with writing right now and to know there’s someone out there who’s willingly to wait until I can figure it out means a lot to me. It’s hard not to feel pressured but I’m doing my best not to let it get to me too much! It’s much better for writing that way. 

Thank you!

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[text] I know it’s 3am, but come over and cook for me.

Lara/Harry

July 2014

You awake?

Yeah. But why are you? Weren’t in the studio early this morning?

Yeah but I took a nap when I got home. Can’t sleep.

I’m sorry. Wish I could help but I probably shouldn’t giving advice on sleep schedules.

…I mean, there is a way you could help.

#again#no idea what this is#but its the only thing thats working so im going with it#writing full on descriptions and sentences terrifies me right now so#prompt#tfln
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MY FIC RECS

So no one on here actually knows who I am! I’m not a writer, however, I’m a constant reader and I loved this idea so I wanted to make a rec list as well! There are so many amazing authors out there that I adore and I discovered tumblr just because of all these amazing stories I’ve read. Whether it’s the stories or drabbles or even just the asks, these authors put the time and effort out there that I’m forever grateful for. Here is my rec list:

The Nice Guy by @onismanxiety: this story is just so amazing. I’m a sucker for angst and I love stories where Harry and the OFC are famous. It seems so realistic to me and if you haven’t checked this out, you definitely should!

Down & Out by @inkoasis: because who doesn’t love football Harry? I may not be a Packers fan but this story definitely makes you want to be Packers fan. The family and friend dynamic of this story is awesome and Nikki is such an amazing writer!

Slow Burn @allywrites: firefighter Harry?! I don’t think I can think of a better AU than this. Maybe because I’m a huge fan of Chicago Fire and that show made love firefighters. So imagism Harry Styles as a firefighter. You’re welcome :)

Valley of the Dolls by @onismanxiety: because JoJo is the absolute shit and she managed to do it again with another amazing OU. Seriously, Digger and Harry are the ultimate goal relationship and I love them.

Fanfiction by @stilesharrystyles: Lucy is the cutest OFC I have ever encountered and this story is so beyond anything I have ever read. Eliza is so talented and I’ve read all of her fics but this is by far the most unique!

Nom de Plume by @stylesprimes: this is one of the first stories I started in this community and will always be one of my favorites! I adore Leigh and Harry so much and I can’t wait to see what else she has planned for this couple!

Evaporate by @standingfacingwest: I AM OBSESSED WITH THIS FIC. Harry and Matilda are just amazing and this fic is so realistic in terms of a famous relationship. I love how the author portrays a not-so-perfect Harry because let’s face it, nobody is perfect!

The Golden Hour @standingfacingwest: she strikes again! I’m also a sucker for UNI AU fics and this is just amazing! It’s so realistic and reminds me of when I was back in college.

Breathe by @wildestdreamsfics: this is the ultimate UNI AU. Literally, everything about this fic is perfection. The ensemble cast and the relationship between Harry and Blair is just everything and amazing! It’s so realistic and again, reminds me of my time back in college. Aside from the relationship aspect of this fic, I’m obsessed with the friendship aspect of this fic!

Butterfly Boy by @looselucy: I love this fic! The author has done such an incredible job of portraying a hate to love relationship and if you haven’t checked this out, you should.

Salute by @bioluminescentwriting: I actually just re-read this two weeks ago. It’s one of those fics that I constantly need to re-read because I never get sick of it and I adore Piper so much. I adore Harry even more. Plus there are a ton of amazing drabbles written by this fantastic author that I constantly re-read as well!

Sugar on the Asphalt/Tennessee Teacakes by @justanchorandhope: because who doesn’t love Graceland Ainsworth?! These two are classics in my opinion and I love these fics so much! I probably re-read them every few months because i can’t get enough of the storyline and I’m basically obsessed with Harry and Grace’s relationship (Ren and Niall too!)

Silver Springs by @lifesbetterasamermaid: again, I’m a sucker for angst and Sav is just so good at it! I love the endless torture of Harry and Willow’s relationship and I can’t wait to see what she does with this!

Journeyman by @littlebird006: Boxer Harry! I mean, how can you not love that! And I love the way he acts towards Beth and treats her! I read the originals of this (Red Dawn and When the Sky Turns Grey) and I loved those just as much! I can’t wait to see where she takes this story!

Stuck On You by @northernsunrises: this is so unbelievably realistic because we live in the time of snapshot, Facebook, and Instagram and this fic portrays it so well! It’s so interesting to watch the development between Harry and Jamie and I can’t wait to see what happens!

Above Average and First Base by @stilesharrystyles: both of these stories are just fantastic. AA is so refreshing because it follows the story of your average Tenny and the adorable Harry that likes her. First Base is so good because it’s another fantastic UNI AU that shows the cute relationship between Blake and Harry. This author spoils us with so many drabbles as well!

Just Anchor and Hope/When We Sink We Float by @justanchorandhope: to be honest, I really-read these two within two days this week while bored at work (it’s a super slow time of year) and they are just classics! I love the buildup that the author portrays regarding the relationship between Harry and Eliza as well as the downfall. This is just so raw and amazing and I love it!

All I Want by @americanowrites: because who doesn’t love the bad boy Harry of 2013? Honestly this was such an amazing concept and the OFC is so strong and one of the best characters I’ve ever read!

How You Get The Boy by @booksncoffee: I have to say, I’m not a huge fan of triangles but this one is just amazing. I caught up recently and I adore Harry and Tenley aka Bunny :)

Scatterheart by @ellajames213: I love post breakup AUs and this is the ultimate one! I love the building relationship between Harry and Sloane as exes and the author is so good with portraying that!

Bring it Back by @paynethecreator: I just started this and I love it! I can’t wait to see what happens with Norah and Harry!

Pure Feeling by @aceofstyles: I’m obsessed with CEO Harry and the last chapter broke my heart! I can’t wait to see what happens between Harry and Sasha! They’re one of my fave fanfic couples :)

Turned Around by @mindwcrdsfics: this is so heartbreaking! it’s one of those fics that you can’t stop because you HAVE to see how it ends. I can’t wait to see what happens with Harry and Flora and whether they rebuild their marriage or not!

In Your Atmosphere by @fromherlips: Evie and Harry are the ultimate couple. Honestly, there’s no beating them because the author portrayed them so well and everything about this fic is just amazing.

Leather and Lace by @mackabees: I LOVE ROMEE AND HARRY! I’m rooting for them hardcore! When the author started the one shot about how they met and then started this shortly after, I was so excited! I cannot wait to see what happens and I honestly hope we get a happy ending with this!

With Healing Powers by @harry-styleswho: ummm single dad Harry anyone?! Yes please! Also, worried dad Harry? Who doesn’t love a worried Harry?! I love this story, it’s so adorable!

Rivers and Roads by @harrystyluhs: this fic is so raw and the author portrays a relationship so unbelievably realistic in this story! I cannot wait for her to continue this!

Running Home by @1dable: Harry as a father to be? Sign me up! This is so good and I know it’s currently on a little hiatus and I love this author so I hope she gets her mojo back soon because I can’t wait to see what happens!

Vo'ke by @beggingforfics: this has to be the most unique story I have ever read! The plot line is just out of this world and I love it!

If You Ever Leave Me by @inficwetrust: this is actually one of the best and most unique plots I’ve ever encountered. It’s so original and although I’ve never been a fan of anything involving ghosts, this is so interesting and I can’t wait to see what happens!

With The New Crowd by @likeamisfit: when I saw this update the other day, I stopped what I was doing because I was so excited! This is such a good story and the ensemble cast is the best part of this! I love the mystery of Harry’s character in this as well!

Disconnected by @afitzgeraldfic: the angst! U love this and I’m such a sucker for fics where Harry and the OFC are childhood friends. This is so good and I just caught up with the last chapter the other day!

Ahh sorry for such the long post but all these authors, along with so many more, deserve all the recognition in the world! They take time out of their daily lives - school, work, friendships, relationships, family - just to be able to share their stories with us. Reading is such a privilege because of the hard work these authors do and I can’t thank them enough! I feel like a stalker because I don’t really put myself out there and everyone is probably thinking “who is this random girl?” LOL But I’m just a reader who enjoys 1D (mainly Harry as you can tell by my fic rec) and follows all these authors on this amazing site and I wanted to give them the props and love that they deserve! Because not only do they take the time to write the stories, but they take the time to write these fantastic drabbles and answer every question we all have. You all are amazing 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

#this made me wan to cry a little bit#thank you!
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[text] He was very considerate of my needs, he offered me pizza before and after.

Lara/Serene

Do you think Tesco carries the morning after pill?

… I wouldn’t know. I’ve never had to use it.

Really? I mean, you and Harry live together. He’s never stuck it in at the wrong time?

… No… I can’t say he has.

#really i have no idea what this is#but i just know that i want to write again#and this is what came up#if anyone is still around to read it#tfln#prompts
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Anonymous asked:

why didnt just write then? honestly why keep teasing your readers like this? I dont get it, what so hard to just say your giving up on writing the story instead of giving false hope to us? how many more time you plan to do this writing-breaking things?!

Because it’s just not as simple as everyone seems to think it is. 

First of all, I understand why you’re all upset. I get just as upset when a writer doesn’t finish a story I love, so I know how it feels to be left hanging and believe me, I hate that I have done this to you guys. It makes me feel so immensely guilty. But that guilt, the guilt I felt when I couldn’t update in the amount of time I wanted to, or I couldn’t spend the free time I had writing, I carried it with me everywhere. I couldn’t go to dinner with my family or go out or to the movies with my friends on my day off without feeling like I should have been writing, like I was letting you all down because I wasn’t sitting down and spending every spare second at my laptop. And for awhile, I was fine, I lived with that because I still could write. It was still fairly easily to get chapters out. But then I slowly stopped being able to write at all. 

You don’t know how many times I’ve sat there staring at my laptop, typing and retyping sentences, only to erase everything and literally sit there and just cry. I didn’t know how to say what I wanted to say. How to take the plot I’d literally planned straight to end and put it on paper for you to read. And no matter what I did, no matter how long I sat there I couldn’t do it. And whatever I did come up with it, it felt forced and not at all what I wanted it to be. And you can only imagine what the guilt of not updating for three or four weeks at a time felt like on top of that. 

I was in a very, very bad place mentally. My anxiety was at an all time high and my depression had come back to go a long with it. I didn’t want to do anything. I didn’t want to write. I didn’t want to go to work. I didn’t want to go out and do anything. Because no matter what I did, I felt guilty and like I wasn’t doing my best, when in reality, I was doing everything I could when it came to writing. 

It took me a long time to come to terms with that fact that that wasn’t right. Writing, something I have been doing for years and always loved, should not feel like an obligation that I’m forced to do. It should not take over my life and prevent me from doing things with my family or my friends. Writing should be something that makes me happy, something I can escape to when I feel down or sad, as it always has been. Yes, writing is never as easy as just jotting down words and having it be done. It’s hard work to think of a plot and write and edit a piece of work. But it used to be fun for me, something I enjoyed and it got to a point where it wasn’t it anymore and I knew I couldn’t continue writing like that. 

So I did what I thought was best for my mental health, happiness and my writing and I stopped. And believe, it was a lot harder than you probably make it out to be. The amount of times I had to remind myself that taking a break wasn’t giving up or failing, is too many to count. Because for a long time that’s what it felt like. It felt like I was giving up on you guys and the character’s I’d worked so hard to create. 

But firmly believe, and still do, that that is not the case. I have every hope and determination to finish this story. For my own sake and for anyone who still cares to read it whenever its down. I don’t know when that will be because right now I’m focusing on finding me again, because I lost her somewhere. I want to find my love of writing again and do it because I want to, not because I feel obligated too. And if that takes time, it takes time. Because I would rather take a break from writing, than loose my love of it forever and never be able to do it again. 

I know you guys know some of this but I thought you deserved the truth, if only so you can understand what I’m going through.

None of this is simple and I don’t know when I’m going to be able to write again, but thank you for reading what I did write. And I hope someday soon I can finish this for you. 

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sometimes i feel like people don’t understand the whole self doubt thing when it comes to your own writing and how very real it is and how it’s so hard to stop doubting yourself. like, you can be told all these positive things – incredibly written and complex characters, beautiful words and prose, well written descriptions and imagery, realistic dialogue, etc – yet when you look at it yourself, all you see is errors and mistakes and it just doesn’t make you happy, whether it’s a sentence you just can’t seem to word right, a conversation that makes no sense, or a major plot hole you just can’t seem to fix.

it’s like, for example, when you look in a mirror. someone else may tell you you’re pretty, you have nice eyes, your eyebrows are goals and you sure know how to use liquid eyeliner, but!!! when you look in the mirror, all you see are your flaws – your nose is too big, your skin is a mess, you cannot use liquid eyeliner to save your life.

self doubt is a very real thing and, sure, kind and positive comments can make us smile and feel a little better about ourselves, but we will always be our own worst critique, and no one can do anything about it.

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Anonymous asked:

Will you ever return??? 😭😭💔💔

I will. I just need time to figure myself out. 

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A Concept: being in a super king size bed that has fluffy blankets with Harry but still being all cozy close and wrapped up on each other. And sometimes one of you whines to, “Get back over here” or “You’re too far away” and just spending those rare mornings that you’re allowed to have together as sleepy, lazy lie-ins – invading personal space, and drifting back to sleep, general cuddling. Sometimes you have to kick your legs out because the blankets with each other’s body heat is overwhelming, and then you have to put them back in when you feel chilled. Then, when you’re not as tired, you manage a really good go around that maybe makes your sweaty body cling to his more than usual, and he’s surprised but he won’t complain cause he likes the cuddles and it’s like playing catch-up on all the ones he’s missed while he’s been away and all the ones he’ll miss in the future. 

#well fuck you#also this is so lara and harry its unreal
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Anonymous asked:

when do you think your going to update?

None of you are going to want to hear this, but I don’t know. In the last month or so a lot of things have changed for me and its made me realize that I need reaccess how I look at writing. I’ve been forcing myself for months now to write out of both drive and guilt and I’ve basically written myself into the ground. Writing is no longer easy or as enjoyable for me. It feels like a job and I really hate that. I don’t want to force myself to write if I don’t feel like inclination to write. So right now, I’m focusing on other things that I need to do to move my life forward and that make me happy, things I have been putting off and denying myself for months now so that I can dedicate all my spare time to writing. 

I know a lot of you are going to be pissed off at me and accuse me of never finishing this story, but I need this time for my own mental sanity. I’m not abandoning this story but if I’m being completely honest, the last bit of Running Home is going to be completely shit if I keep forcing myself to write like this. And I refuse to do that to myself, to any of you, and to my story. It deserves more. 

So please, respect that. 

#Anonymous
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