Kiddo is getting into vegetables with the meals I ordered. Nurture life. Crazy to think if I couldn’t afford it what it would cost me physically.
He’s trying veggies and figuring out ways to get them in his body without gagging. He was so proud that he didn’t chew it, he bit and swallowed. Eventually I know he will chew. To see that his mind could change habits was great. I keep telling him, food is Feul. Your body needs the nutrients. It’s not always about the flavor or what you don’t like. There is no relationship with food. Just with people. Food is like air. You don’t ask it to fill your lungs to oxygenate your brain. It is necessary so it is done. Food is necessary. Nutritional and tasteful. Balance. I can’t just cut out all the snacks. Moderation. Helps to regulate his digestive system.
Isabella was here yesterday. I went to two hospitals just to get treatment. First hospital sent me home with a clean bill of health but I was in excruciating pain all over so my social worker encouraged me to go to the VA hospital since they have all my records. If she wasn’t there I wouldn’t have went. It was just as expected. Left in pain for 4 hours before any intervention. I had the flu and an infection. Antibiotics and rest. Rehydration. Exhausted. Uncomfortable. Still gotta be parent and spouse and friend. Life.
Calming myself in the ambulance. Isabella really. I feel more of a person and less of a part these days. Guessing a host change for sure.
Feels like I faked everything but I know I didn’t. I wasn’t wrong. I’m a different person right now and that doesn’t take away from my system being real. I look forward to who I am.
Enjoy your time in the body self. I love you.