I really want a soft n sleepy make out session

My heart is soft and ready to yield.

I blossom with you.

I crave you. I want to kiss you softly, passionately.. lose myself in you for a moment.. and another moment..and another and another and maybe one more. Just one more. I want to melt into you and pull you into me.. just for a little while.. do you want to get lost in each other, just for a little while?.. and then maybe again and again and again.. just for a little while?

Always just for a little while. Always just one more moment.

I want your passion. I want your softness. I want your frustration. I want you you you you you.

Write your name on my skin, leave marks, use me and consume me until my mind and body and soul are all yours please

The lengths I go through that no one sees because I don't talk about it. As much as I talk about, there's so much I don't. I'm willing to fight. I'm willing to go through whatever pain to make it okay. I'm just afraid and worried more than I used to be. It all happened so fast. Look at me please. See me. I hope.

I like you. Please hold on to me.

I wish I could always make sure that in the darkest moments people could feel at least a little bit of beauty and safeness to hold on to. I've been thinking about this for so long. No one deserves to feel absolute despair and horror. No one deserves that.

You're perfect the way you are. Find a therapist that makes you feel comfortable and meets you where you feel safe. Not one that makes you feel insane. Tell the people who are asking too much of you without a care that you cannot. Tell them whatever you feel comfortable with and leave out what you don't if they don't make you feel safe at the time. Tell them when you can, but don't risk yourself trying to communicate with someone that's harming you and yelling at you for trying to set a boundary of self care need. You're beautiful. Don't look at things online too much. Change your eyes and your mind. Surround yourself with what makes you safe. Don't worry about what the world expects. Don't worry about what they expect. Your safety and comfort is important. You need to be here. It's necessary to do this for you. Don't die or suffer because of other people or because of the world trying to tear you apart. It's going to, but don't tell yourself it's how it is. Don't let it make you feel that you're messed up because you aren't okay with what it asks of you. You're not okay and it's not okay. Do everything you can for you. For the ones that care about you. They will want you safe and okay.

You'll hear it in different places and you'll forget and you'll not notice. But please remember to just hold on because you deserve it and the chance is there. Protect yourself. Don't let other people make you feel guilty for taking care of yourself. Ever. Take this seriously. Write it on every blank space you can. never let yourself forget. No matter who tries to make you forget. Never forget this and you'll be okay.

Do something soft and kind for yourself tonight please

Relationships and people are way more complex than what you see in the movies. Nothing will work if you expect it to be like that. And it's actually really beautiful though.

You don't date someone with the intention of changing them. You date them with acceptance.