For fans of the fic who wanna get to know the author (moi), hear about behind-the-scenes stuff, discuss the characters and plots, and see unposted and unfinished chapters before Tumblr and AO3!
- Nightshade
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Anonymous asked:
Could you share a little more about Raphael's inner workings? Based on what I've read so far, a lot of his anger is insecurity from not feeling like he and his brothers fit in (with past experiences serving as supporting evidence). BUT I also feel like there's a LOT more at play going on here, so what's going on deep down?
Love.
Raphael is one of those guys who feels very, very deeply, to the point where he can’t really handle it all. So when he gets hit with a powerful pulse, he defaults to anger, because it helps vent what he’s feeling. But it’s also his shield, the way he keeps everyone else just far enough away that he doesn’t have to worry about them hurting him.
See, he loves New York. He loves New York. The sound of the city that never sleeps, the people, the food, the music – all of it. He gets the most incredible rush every time he’s out on the streets, protecting those in need and stopping criminals in their tracks.
He’s also got a justice streak just as deeply as – if not deeper than – Leo’s, and those things combined means he has to act when shit’s going down. He physically can’t stop himself. Buuuuut, as much as he loves patrolling, he hates the way people react when they see him for the first time.
His insecurity is a defining trait of his, unfortunately, and it burns like nothing else when people take one look at him and scream – especially if he’d just saved them. Sometimes he wants to scream right back: “I just saved your fukkin life, and you treat me like I’m threatening you?! FUCK you!”
That rejection, such a constant and recurring part of his life, is the main reason he needs his shield – his anger. And it’s become so strong with the years that he ends up using it against his brothers, though he tries his hardest not to. He doesn’t want to yell at them, to take his anger out on them, but he can’t quite stop it.
But, see, they know. After so many years, they know very well why Raph reacts the way he does, why he screams and howls, why he turns on them on a dime. And they let him have his outbursts, because in the end they know he’ll make up for it – once he calms down.
More than he loves New York, he loves his brothers and father, and as much as he talks about going off on his own, he knows he’ll never really do it. It’s just part of his front, the way he keeps everyone from getting too deeply embedded in his heart. (Spoiler: they’re already the most embedded they could ever be.)
In my story, The Dancer, it’s the thing that draws Jocelyn to him, the thing she can’t resist once she sees it’s there. ♥
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“Is it okay if I draw fanart of your fanfic?👉🏼👈🏼”
My brother in Christ we shall have a spring wedding
Anonymous asked:
Do you read TMNT fanfic and have any recommendations? I'm a firm believer that excellent authors have excellent reading tastes. I'm in need of more TMNT fic over the new year. T'hiah, too lazy to log in.
Oh hey, T'hiah! While I will say that my reading tastes are pretty high-level, I don't read much fanfictions at all. I only read fics from one particular writer for the TMNT fandom and it's been years and I have no idea if they're still active.
They were called "dorkinhighheels" but I can't seem to access their page anymore. They wrote a bunch of April/Raph stories, which is actually what got me into writing TMNT stuff to begin with. Which, snowball effect, also turned me into the writer I am today... That's a cool thing to think about. :3
But aside from that, I have nothing to offer, sorry. :( Anyone else got any recommended reading lists for TMNT stuff?
-Nightshade
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Since November I've been going through a weird crisis/transformation around my art and identity. It's left me feeling ready to leave art behind as soon as I find a job that I can do that pays my bills. Tons of my answers were about melancholy and dissatisfaction and the final answer I chose "spite", but got love.
Anyway, thanks quiz maker person for making me cry unexpectedly. But not in an entirely bad way. <3
Alienation
"You create from alienation. There is a distance not only between yourself and others, but between yourself and what you are expected to be, yourself and your own humanity. Your honest self feels too divorced from what it should be for it to have any place among everyone else. Your art is an expression of your estrangement from normalcy and other's expectations. It is strange and shocking because you feel that is what you are when you are not pretending to be otherwise. You do not create things to be pretty or pleasing to others, but to be raw and confusing. You have always felt different, so you want to create things that are remarkably different from the norm. It is an expression of your own strangeness, which seems to have no place but in your art. Your work is a sanctuary for everything that alienates you from the world at large."
lole
Gratitude
You create from gratitude. There is something for which you are deeply, profoundly grateful, for which the words "thank you" couldn't begin to suffice. It is enough to make you glad to be alive. You make art to express your deep gratitude for having been allowed to know something wonderful enough to redeem all life's pains. Your work is pervaded by a sense of thankfulness, an appreciation for what you've been lucky enough to know. It is a loving expression of the sincerest gratitude there is. Your art is thanks for every good fortune you've received. It is a tribute to a feeling you have vowed never to forget. You count yourself as incredibly lucky, and your work is a testament to that. It is proof this world and this life need not be such terrible things.
🫶🏻😭🫶🏻
This quiz was so thought provoking! I took it for fun, fully expecting there not to be a result that resonated with me, but excuse me? I feel like I just had an accidental encounter with a wise old witch in the woods on my way to school and now I suddenly know myself and my journey better.
Any other discontent artists out there?
Discontent
You create from discontent. Most of your life has been spent being uncomfortable in your own skin. This body is just another house that's never felt like home. You don't know how to be at ease in this world or this life. Art is a way of running away, of forgetting yourself and escaping to a more comfortable place. To cope with an unhospitable reality, you create more welcoming worlds to consume your work and your waking hours. But the foundation of your art has always been your discontent with the real world and your life within it. Lurking behind the inviting scenery you dream of is the desperate desire to be anywhere but here. It is a world constructed as a respite from this one. Such vivid fantasies are the dream of one who considers reality a prison.
Love
You create from love. It is an overflowing love that seeps out of your heart and into all you create. You couldn't possibly contain it inside yourself, and so you dedicate yourself to depicting it through everything you make. Your art is a celebration of what you cherish most, a loving tribute to everything that captivates you. There are things too wonderful to be appreciated in silence, and so you sing of your love time and time again. You are determined not to let your vast love go unnoticed or forgotten. That's why your work is a declaration of affection, an expression of fondness for everything that makes your life worth living.
Anonymous asked:
I hope you’re doing well! I miss your posts!
Thank you. I miss this blog too, but it's become so much more convenient to just upload and post on AO3, y'know?
And how well I'm doing depends very largely on your definition of the term. I'm not in a hospital and I have no life-afflicting maladies, so there's that, I guess. But overall I have three goals in life and I'm failing all of them due to forces outside my control, so... not great on that side of things.
I'm just existing, day to day, but I suppose that's a small victory in its own right.
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TMNT Headcanons [NSFW Edition]
WARNING: Turtle sex headcanons ahead! You’ve been warned!
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hey nightshade this is the test comment we discussed
Yep never got alerts for it but that makes sense, for some reason I get no alerts on this blog anymore. I have to seek them out on my own.
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ADHD: confirmed
Been a hot minute since I did any posting here, hasn't it? Well, it's a good update, so please read. ♥
I officially have ADHD! Got my diagnosis and a prescription just yesterday, and with luck, it'll help me maintain my focus. That means I'll be back to updating Turtle's Doves, Blue Blood, and the other fics I've left by the wayside.
I so badly want to complete them, it's just that with ADHD, it's like there's a physical block between me and the stories. I can get as far as opening the drafts and staring at them, maybe adding a few sentences or editing what's already there, and then my attention wavers and I get nothing else done.
But on stimulants designed to help me keep focused on my task? I'll actually be able to work on my stories again -- fates/gods/spirits/etc willing, lol.
For the first time in ages, I'm excited for these fics. I know it'll take a little while for the meds to really take effect (it's not a miracle worker, lmao), so it may not be today, tomorrow or even a week from now when I actually manage to kick back into gear. Hell, it might not be a month from now, cause I don't even know if these meds, at this dose, are going to be right for me.
But I'm excited to find out.
Root for me, y'all. This time next week, I might just be back. ♥
-Nightshade
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1987 Fans hated the 2003 series when it first came out.
2003 Fans hated the 2012 series when it first came out.
2012 Fans hated the Rise series when it first came out.
Rise Fans are now hating on Mutant Mayhem
This is a toxic cycle in this fandom that we need to stop doing NOW.
PREACH! IT IS TIME TO COME TOGETHER AS ONE.
At the end of the day, theyre still the same ass kicking turtles we all love
#tmnt#in my case i don't like rottmnt simply because i don't like that animation style#absolutely nothing to do with the story or characters#it's just that the animation style is the make-or-break for me#i can't enjoy the story if i don't like the way it looks y'know?#but i love tmnt in general and fully accept ALL fans#y'know#like an A D U L T#sfw
Attempted to design what I consider the ideal monster boi for me. :3
Smutty Story Idea
Quick question for y'all: I'm planning on writing a very smutty monster story in which a female character (potentially "you") aids the magic world by having sex with and getting impregnated by 100 different "monsters".
I could make a new blog specifically for that story, I could post it to my exophilia musings blog, or I could post it here. If I had any idea how to make a poll, I would.
Alas, I cannot.
So what would y'all prefer? Post it here, @lady-exophiliac-musings, or a new blog altogether?
-Nightshade