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Mukhuh targzu nê ta'bari bashk.

@mayyourbeardnevergrowthin / mayyourbeardnevergrowthin.tumblr.com

French NB person / ADHDer / Out and proud bisexual / Enthusiastic gaeilgeoir / Communist / Artist / Vegan / Sounds & noises hoarder / Vulgar and witty as fuck / On my way to a better mental health / At one with the sea / Stargazer and nefelibata / Tá Éire i mo chroí.
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So... It's been a while since my last personal post on here. I guess I didn't have something interesting to say, I don't know.

But guess what? I just got diagnosed with ADHD. At almost 45 years old. After years of struggle and self doubt. After an almost complete existence of thinking I'm dumb and stupid, that I can't fit in, that I'm weird, that I'm incapable of doing simple things because I must be the laziest person on Earth, etc.

Being diagnosed so late in my life makes me 50% relieved but also 50% angry/sad.

I should have been diagnosed in the early 1980's when I was a child. But ADHD wasn't a thing in France back then.

The first time I heard about ADHD was during the 1990's, and it was seen as an only boys' problem that was happening in the USA and treated with Ritalin so the kids would be quiet. So yeah, I didn't feel like it could apply to me. Also, being a queer and depressed teenager with gender identity issues was more than too much to handle.

A few decades later, life aggravated my symptoms. Because I had PTSD and chronic depression on top of that, no professional would listen to me when I told them about ADHD.

Now, I'm struggling with professional burnout (the second one in 6 years), precarity and poverty because I can't keep a job.

So yeah, getting finally diagnosed feels like a huge relief. I'm not battling against an invisible threat anymore. I must tame my brain, with or without medication, and with lots of therapy.

Wish me luck, like! Also, if you wanna talk about ADHD, I'm here :)

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khaperai

The word for rat and frenchmen in gaeilge are the same

For context, rats were not indigenous to Ireland, they were introduced by French ships - so they got called "French mice" (Lucha Francacha). But that's a lot of syllables, so over time people would just say Francach.

Another funny one is the word for the English language - Béarla. Originally Béarla meant babble, as in meaningless language. Such as the babble of a baby or the babble of a mad person. Then people started referring to the English language as "Sacs-Bhéarla" which literally means Saxon Babble. (My own speculation for why this is, is that all the other languages of Britain and Ireland were Celtic languages, and had some small degree of mutual intelligibility, but English would have sounded like gibberish to Irish speakers.) Over time, people stopped saying Sacs-Bhéarla and just saying Béarla.

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Awesome 👏

Dear lord!

drift compatible

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lynati

it took me a moment to realize what was going on with their hands. Drift compatible indeed!

RAW Irish Gay Music

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alexseanchai

[video description: two women playing a violin and a banjo. where ordinarily each instrument is a two-handed single-player operation, one hand working the strings on the neck of the instrument and the other plucking the strings on the banjo body or bowing the strings on the violin body, here both instruments are two-player because each woman is working the neck of one instrument and the body of another. partway through, a third woman comes up with a tin whistle, which again is ordinarily single-player, requiring both hands on the holes and mouth blowing into the mouthpiece; here, the third woman does the hands part for the whistle while one of the first two does the blowing.]

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2021bingo

Just a reminder my blog is trans inclusive. It’s bi inclusive. It is pan inclusive. It is intersex inclusive. It is ace/asexual inclusive. It is aro/aromantic inclusive. It is queer inclusive.

I don’t support terfs or exclusionists.

If you came here looking for an ally in your bigotry you came to the wrong blog. Go away. You are not welcome here.

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graycatluna

Hey, could you do me a favor?

Could you just RB this?

The little RB statistics chart is so pleasant and stimmy to look at and I want to see what it looks like when it gets really REALLY huge because it makes me think of some deep sea lifeform

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melynnwater

here lemme help

*ahem*

reblog this post to kiss the person you reblogged it from

hope that works :)

THANK YOU THIS IS MAKING MY BRAIN SO HAPPY AAAAAAAAA

THIS IS SO SATISFYING ITS LIKE A GROUP OF PLANKTON OR A RAILWAY CHART...

GIMME YER SMOOCHES AND HELP THIS NERD(affectionate) WITH THE THING

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