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If it isn’t me finally getting a master post together:D

I came to Hellsite after the great purge for the Witcher fandom, stayed for wholesome and awesome birbs. Currently in Star Wars hyperfixation. I also like video games that’s focused on storytelling. I try not to shitpost too much but no guarantee 👾

Here’s my Inprnt Shop :3 Please have a gander

Here I post art and fandom-related stuff mostly, my fanarts, and sometimes (if I remember) fanfic updates. You might also encounter a dilute calico. She is called Essi 🐈

Witcher

Fanfics still being updated:

Star Wars

  • Await the Dawn. OC fic! Angst with an HE. Mature themes. Lots of fighting, injuries. Toxic relationship. Slow burn. 18+. Multiple povs. [ONGOING]
  • Fic cover slash fanart in comic book style (ish) here.
  • Art commission "Longing" by the crazy talented artist Na ily (x).
  • the stars are not here. Kilindi x Maul (&), before the Gora and the aftermath. Teens being teens as much as their circumstances allowed. First Crush. Light Angst. Light Fluff.
  • My attempt at Kilindi portrait (x).
  • Project Maultifaceted - Voice. My notes on Maul from his canon and non-canon novels.
  • Happy (questionably) Maul. Notes from novels.
  • Project Maultifaceted - Relationships. Notes from novels and comics.

Cyberpunk 2077

You can get me a wee cup of coffee with the $1.5 tier on Patreon (do I run on caffeine? doesn’t everyone?). You can also support me by commission me something:D DM for the dets! Open Slot (2)! Or just drop a hello in my inbox.

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eelhound

"The idea of reforming Omelas is a pleasant idea, to be sure, but it is one that Le Guin herself specifically tells us is not an option. No reform of Omelas is possible — at least, not without destroying Omelas itself:

If the child were brought up into the sunlight out of that vile place, if it were cleaned and fed and comforted, that would be a good thing, indeed; but if it were done, in that day and hour all the prosperity and beauty and delight of Omelas would wither and be destroyed. Those are the terms.

'Those are the terms', indeed. Le Guin’s original story is careful to cast the underlying evil of Omelas as un-addressable — not, as some have suggested, to 'cheat' or create a false dilemma, but as an intentionally insurmountable challenge to the reader. The premise of Omelas feels unfair because it is meant to be unfair. Instead of racing to find a clever solution ('Free the child! Replace it with a robot! Have everyone suffer a little bit instead of one person all at once!'), the reader is forced to consider how they might cope with moral injustice that is so foundational to their very way of life that it cannot be undone. Confronted with the choice to give up your entire way of life or allow someone else to suffer, what do you do? Do you stay and enjoy the fruits of their pain? Or do you reject this devil’s compromise at your own expense, even knowing that it may not even help? And through implication, we are then forced to consider whether we are — at this very moment! — already in exactly this situation. At what cost does our happiness come? And, even more significantly, at whose expense? And what, in fact, can be done? Can anything?

This is the essential and agonizing question that Le Guin poses, and we avoid it at our peril. It’s easy, but thoroughly besides the point, to say — as the narrator of 'The Ones Who Don’t Walk Away' does — that you would simply keep the nice things about Omelas, and work to address the bad. You might as well say that you would solve the trolley problem by putting rockets on the trolley and having it jump over the people tied to the tracks. Le Guin’s challenge is one that can only be resolved by introspection, because the challenge is one levied against the discomforting awareness of our own complicity; to 'reject the premise' is to reject this (all too real) discomfort in favor of empty wish fulfillment. A happy fairytale about the nobility of our imagined efforts against a hypothetical evil profits no one but ourselves (and I would argue that in the long run it robs us as well).

But in addition to being morally evasive, treating Omelas as a puzzle to be solved (or as a piece of straightforward didactic moralism) also flattens the depth of the original story. We are not really meant to understand Le Guin’s 'walking away' as a literal abandonment of a problem, nor as a self-satisfied 'Sounds bad, but I’m outta here', the way Vivier’s response piece or others of its ilk do; rather, it is framed as a rejection of complacency. This is why those who leave are shown not as triumphant heroes, but as harried and desperate fools; hopeless, troubled souls setting forth on a journey that may well be doomed from the start — because isn’t that the fate of most people who set out to fight the injustices they see, and that they cannot help but see once they have been made aware of it? The story is a metaphor, not a math problem, and 'walking away' might just as easily encompass any form of sincere and fully committed struggle against injustice: a lonely, often thankless journey, yet one which is no less essential for its difficulty."

- Kurt Schiller, from "Omelas, Je T'aime." Blood Knife, 8 July 2022.

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vampmilf

i am begging you all to stop treating this site like instagram if you dont want it to be content free by next year

actually i'm reblogging this again with commentary, fuck it.

There's people in the notes talking about "not basing your worth off numbers", and like. that isn't what this post is about. It's not a threat, either, it's a comment on how this site works, at a mechanical level.

Likes are worthless. Let me say that again.

Likes. Are. Worthless.

They don't do anything. They're a bookmark. They were never part of how tumblr works - in the early days we didn't even have a like button, and the site still more or less acts as though we don't. They're personal bookmarks and the only people who "get" anything from them are you (you bookmark the post) and the OP (maybe a very slight serotonin boost), but they don't keep the post in circulation, they don't keep it alive.

Without reblogs, a post will be dead in the water within an hour. No matter how good it is, no matter how many hours of painstaking love and attention its creator put into it, it will be dead within an hour and never seen again. It gets pushed down the dashboard and nobody aside from the followers who were online when it was posted will see it. And there's a huge difference in engagement on posts that get even one lucky reblog from someone with wider reach - that one reblog shows your post to five, ten, fifteen other people, and if one of those people also reblogs it, and so on and so forth, that's how posts stay alive and in circulation. It's like a contagion, but we're sharing creativity instead of disease.

And that matters. That "lifespan" of the post matters, artists and writers give up on this site and go to sites where posts have longer lifespans because it sucks to spend hours of your life, maybe even days, to get two notes and some fucking pocket lint for your efforts. We create for ourselves, but we share because we want people to see it, because that engagement offers positive feedback and encouragement to continue. But more than that, if every post (whether art, fic, gifset, whatever) is dying within an hour or a day of being posted, that means it's not making it onto your dashboard. And if it's not on your dashboard, you won't see it. This kills the site, after a while. You stop seeing the posts, because nobody is putting them on your dashboard, because this site doesn't have an algorithm like twitter and insta's and it shouldn't, it's the last bastion of chronological timelines.

Forgive my giant fucking rant I am so tired right now and full of the plague but like stop acting like artists and writers are just being whiny little babies, or "threatening" to withhold our fucking work (you're not entitled to it! it's ours! if we get nothing out of sharing it we're well within our rights to keep it private!) when we say this site will dry up without reblogs. We're just stating facts.

also I’ve seen some people in the tags say ‘oh there have always been more likes on posts’ no there haven’t ???? 

these are posts from 2013, look at the ratio

not to sound like a nursing home resident but back then people know that the point of this site was to reblog things and share them, not to bury them away among your other 23k liked posts

This is straight up why I reblog my own stuff, because otherwise it just sits sometimes for months on end without any activity and then when I bump it people are like "omg! This is great!! How did I never see this one?"

I have also had people tell me it's weird to do or unfollow me for it or say that they find it cringe, but like

I like my art! I would like to share it! I would like others to see it!

And frankly attitudes where people want to tell artists and other creators that they're weird for liking what they make compounds the issue of creators feeling worthless about what they're making, and adds a weird kind of power to the viewer that their opinion in addition to their likes or shares (or lack thereof) dictates whether a piece of art is good or not

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Orsis Academy Yearbook, Class of 39BBY.
Unwavering discipline, unmatched skills in combat. Maul is a student whose precision on the field and focus in the classrooms have set an example that inspires many. Already he is a force to be reckoned with. As he moves forward in years to come, we know he will conquer whatever challenges come they may and reach the end game. Keep the fire burning bright!

Colored a warm-up sketch from last week after a lukewarm vacation.

(I think Maul was probably a cute kid, despite the initial shock of his tattoos. Maybe partly why Talzin favors him. Also, Kilindi def immediately took an interest in the kid haha)

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Had a grand time drawing Lâm for dear brilliant@nananarc I LOVE HIM SM THANK U for trusting my dumass with his fabulous self heh

I tried three times with 4 thumbnails but nothing felt right. For a dismal moment I thought that was it 😂 I have failed my fren and myself and I’m a hack etc. etc.. Then I went out to touch grass and I came back and the deadline is approaching and boom choom I made a thing I didn’t hate after making. I think experimenting with backgrounds & how they interact with character colors was the part that made my brain go burrr the most.

And here’s a bonus one I wanted to be like an abstract/art house-like postcard (maybe; okay i dunno what my brain is telling me):

You can also support me by commission me something ∠( ᐛ 」∠)_DM for the dets! 2 slots left open atm ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ

I also have a Patreon now and you can join me for free for cat pics n stuff. Paying patrons have discounts for commission.

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kholran

It’s finally happened.

After almost a decade on this site, I found another Tumblr user in the wild. I stopped to tie my shoe with rainbow laces this morning outside the silversmith at Colonial Williamsburg, and I heard it.

“I like your shoelaces.”

Oh. Oh no.

I responded the only way I could. “Thanks.” And then I reluctantly added, “I stole them from the president…and if that makes sense to you, I’m very sorry.”

The poor man, in full Colonial dress, stared at me for a long moment. And then burst into laughter. And said, “I haven’t thought about that in YEARS and this has never happened to me before.”

Yeah. Me neither. Not until today.

Tumblr rite of passage. Achievement unlocked.

@victoriansecret I found your friend!!!

THIS IS AMAZING

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Orsis Academy Yearbook, Class of 39BBY.
Unwavering discipline, unmatched skills in combat. Maul is a student whose precision on the field and focus in the classrooms have set an example that inspires many. Already he is a force to be reckoned with. As he moves forward in years to come, we know he will conquer whatever challenges come they may and reach the end game. Keep the fire burning bright!

Colored a warm-up sketch from last week after a lukewarm vacation.

(I think Maul was probably a cute kid, despite the initial shock of his tattoos. Maybe partly why Talzin favors him. Also, Kilindi def immediately took an interest in the kid haha)

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“You tell me today you believe in destiny. And back then… Did you believe back then? Oh, yes, you must have. You must have believed that destiny would bring us together. The fact you did nothing to quicken this encounter ought to be attributed to that.”
— Andrzej Sapkowski, Something More

A study of beloved J. C. Leyendecker’s Consolation for Galaxy’s Worst Mother’s Day. (Last part to render was Maul’s legs and I just needed to be done with it. Also, I’m on vacation with friends, I had food, and I’m drunk, also a little bit high. So, hm, I cut myself some slack.)

I wish we got to see a confrontation between Maul and Talzin. Some unpacking is desperately needed.

In this post I talked a bit more on the study process. If you like my stuff (and Maul, and cats), considering joining my moot there :3

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“You tell me today you believe in destiny. And back then… Did you believe back then? Oh, yes, you must have. You must have believed that destiny would bring us together. The fact you did nothing to quicken this encounter ought to be attributed to that.”
— Andrzej Sapkowski, Something More

A study of beloved J. C. Leyendecker’s Consolation for Galaxy’s Worst Mother’s Day. (Last part to render was Maul’s legs and I just needed to be done with it. Also, I’m on vacation with friends, I had food, and I’m drunk, also a little bit high. So, hm, I cut myself some slack.)

I wish we got to see a confrontation between Maul and Talzin. Some unpacking is desperately needed.

In this post I talked a bit more on the study process. If you like my stuff (and Maul, and cats), considering joining my moot there :3

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Komari Vosa and Maul!

Happy May the Fourth 🤖💛

If you like what I do, come over to my Patreon for hi-res monthly art, sketches, doodles, resources, and process videos. Join for free to tag along :3

Alt color edition! 🍋🫐

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Komari Vosa and Maul!

Happy May the Fourth 🤖💛

If you like what I do, come over to my Patreon for hi-res monthly art, sketches, doodles, resources, and process videos. Join for free to tag along :3

Alt color edition! 🍋🫐

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