feb 6, 2022

physics lecture, earl grey tea, & beautiful lighting

one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

do it scared do it weird do it alone. holy trinity

so for those of you who don't know, I was recently diagnosed with ADHD-I. So far, I think my favourite thing that I've learned is the idea of "embrace the pivot".

Have you ever found a productivity system that works for you (whether it be your Google calendar, bullet journaling, agenda-ing, etc), and you're so pumped because it's like finally! Now I can actually get some stuff done! But then time passes, days or weeks or years, and the novelty of it runs out, and then it kind of just... Stops working. It can be so frustrating, because this thing that used to work no longer works for seemingly no reason.

But, that isn't a failing of the thing, that thing worked for a certain amount of time, and that's good! I used a massive agenda in my first year of uni, and it kept me on track for all my assignments. My second year agenda? Barely touched it. Instead, I started to use a bullet journal, and that was the thing that helped me through most of the year. But as time went on, my spreads got less creative, and in the final term, I didn't even want to touch it because it was too much work. So I switched to Notion.

The agenda didn't fail me, and neither did the bullet journal, it just worked for a certain amount of time. And when that time inevitably runs out, you can just say, "thank you for serving me for so long, I'm going to pivot to the next thing." And then you do it without feeling like you should try harder or like that thing failed you.

This doesn't just have to apply to productivity either. Systems, tools, habits, hobbies, coping mechanisms.. They all serve their purpose. It's okay to let them go when the time comes.

new semester's begun! i'm taking less classes this time, but the one's i have are really interesting, and i'm hyped! i'm excited

i feel both "i can't possibly understand any of these concepts" (quantum mechanics) and "of course i understand these concepts" (solid state physics). it just be like that i guess!

Sunday, August 27th

Hello everyone! I'm back. I have been pretty much gone because I was in vacation but we are back. Started school two weeks ago and it's kinda crushing me but it's okay because I passed the first and only filter for sec gen of my school's mun. Please wish me good luck! I have nothing to do for tomorrow as I finished all my hw on Friday, but I do want to know if you guys want any type of new content or dynamics <3 Remember that my ask box is always open!

🎧 - do it like that (txt)

📚 - the ib chem textbook

Classes I'm taking in the IBDP

HL Chemistry <333 Biology Global Politics

SL English L Spanish L Math AA

aug 07, '23: some notes on the brothers karamazov//

https://www.lightpollutionmap.info/

if you're worried about the website finding out where you live. dont worry. it already knows where you are just by you opening the page, this goes for every website btw. As always reblog for higher sample size

im an astronomy student and im living in a class 8-9 im going to cry

Taking a walk because it feels good going to bed on time because it feels good waking up earlier because it feels good eating enough fruit because it feels good doing a workout because it feels good cooking myself a nice meal because it feels good staying in contact with friends because it feels good… sometimes joy is work but it’s always worth it

This last week of classes has been absolutely brutal. I've got a biochem lab report due tomorrow night and I only just started it today. Yikes! Eating lots of mini marshmallows to cope

I made this self portrait in my figure drawing class

I loved my body in the photo and I thought the drawing came out beautifully, but it wasn't well liked in critique and the drawing got a poor grade. it felt odd, having my fat, trans body on display, and I took too personally the critiques because it was such an intimate piece for me.

but it captured trans beauty for me. I felt love for myself through this piece, and still do.

i should get around to framing it

[ID: 2 photos featuring baby’s breath flowers. One is a hand holding out a glass jar full of flowers, and the second is a close up of someone with blue hair in braids; little sprigs of baby’s breath are tucked into the braid. End ID]

$4 flowers were a good idea actually 💙🥰

march 28, 2022 // school is becoming comfortable, falling into new routines, all the while planning for some very big changes in the flavour of studying abroad, taking the mcat, and potentially applying to med school in the upcoming year. all vv big exciting things !!

sunday, march 20th, 2022 | today is the last day of my spring break :/ I had a nice time staying at home and doing basically nothing lol. it’s important to rest when you can!

March 3, 2022

Collection of coffee shop photos I’ve taken in the last two weeks.

Yesterday was so nice outside that I was feeling all that nice serotonin released until the temperature dropped back to 0 and it started raining again.

What’s the point? Why bother?

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