don’t act surprised. how are you? oh wait, silly me, you have a fear of vulnerability and won’t tell anyone how you truly are. covering up your true feelings with snarky attitude, being rude so that people won’t get close to you. so you won’t disappoint them.. so don’t they realize how hurt you really are inside. it’s okay to ask for help. it’s okay to not be okay. don’t just brush off questions of genuine concern with deflection or a simple “im fine”. you’re generally good with people, and come off as confident or even a little cocky(even if you are suffering on the inside). you really are great at hiding your emotions, and people who aren’t close to you won’t even notice. i want you to understand you are good enough. you are doing so well. don’t just place your self worth on what you do/make. because no matter what, someone will love you for who you truly are. you fear being worthless, and only being worth your achievements. that no one will actually like you for you. i hope you can realize that you have people around you that already love you for that. or that you will eventually find those people. your suppress characteristics that interfere with your “desirability”, and feel your value comes from the ability to attract or dazzle others. you want to be liked and admired, and because of this tend to be highly competitive. don’t repress your feelings. you become more identified with the image/mask you present to other, (the presentation of someone who has it all together). i know you feel so much, and thinking that they get in the way of your “performance” is idiotic. people will accept all of you, or none of you. be sure to realize when you push down feelings, especially painful ones, because that will only hurt you more. overworking yourself won’t help, it just take away any joy and emotional freedom you hold. try to connect with yourself and your own feelings more. write them out, talk with a friend. be vulnerable, it won’t kill you. You really are a wonderful human, don’t be ashamed of your “ugly” parts too.

Oh. Okay. Starting off, you tend to be much more independent and come off more serious than others. You are very unlikely to go to others for reassurance or advice. Being alone isn't necessarily a bad thing, but try to open up a bit more to others. They have no idea what you're thinking and because you think so much it's easy to get lost inside your own head. You think you are good or okay if you can do what is expected of you. These expectations can cause your own internal fear that you will eventually be abandoned by others and that you won't be able to survive on your own. So you tend to already distance yourself a bit, and look at things more practically, even though you hold on large doubts/anxieties. You are actively aware about your anxieties, because you think A LOT. Worries about the future and security you have in life. How often do you expect bad outcomes? Do you have trouble believing that things will work out? Try to identify this, and be a bit more in the moment. Here and Now. You have so much potential, and you are too hard on yourself. Tending to lauch yourself into another project/ after you accomplish something. When you achieve a goal of any size, stop and breathe.. savor the moment. Take in the feeing and understand you are competent and remember it when you doubt your abilities. I actually think it would do you really good to take time for yourself, to just be. (Like taking a walk, meditating, swimming... to get out of your head and just exist). You might prefer to be a bit more distanced from others, emotionally and physically,(fearing that you have to depend on others) but try to just accept that some people want to be around you, because they actually enjoy your company. I know you need hugs, let yourself relax into them okay? Love you!! You are doing so well!