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You don't have to explain yourself to me, you're doing GREAT

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Ella | Personal and Fandom | Prone to loving attractive (fictional) people. You will mostly see me crying over cartoons, podcasts, videogames, and life. Main current obsession(s): Persona 3 Portable, TWEWY Final Remix IMPORTANT: As of April 14 2022 I am no longer unemployed! I cannot express my gratitude enough to those who helped me by donating to my paypal: https://www.paypal.me/cartoonvoid
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were--ralph

Unironically I think we might run into another video game crash like back in the day

Game creation has become another husk capitalism has its greedy little fingers in and its like. Its genuinely sucking the joy out of it all for more profit and more profit and even if it succeeds its not enough it needs to be more to the point there really isn't a reason to create games anymore if you're not an indie dev

And being an indie dev isn't easy because no one has the time anymore. Everyone is drowning in student loans and low wages. Capitalism is sucking the joy out of them and overworking them and ai art is taking away opportunities to be something unique

Games are $70 fucking dollars now. I can't afford that like. I just can't. Most of us are struggling with finances as is.

We're drowning and it's happening so fast there's not enough time to panic

This is what I mean. Games aren't enough to be good or creative or excellent or fun anymore.

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klapollo

I will open the fucking TikTok app just to watch this video multiple times

TIKTOKER: I swear to God, no one tickles my testicles more than the people of my own fucking country. Okay, so like WHAT HAPPENED was this year, this summer, I was in Korea. And I linked up with a homie that I haven't met in a long time, just catching up. "Oh my God, how are you? You GRADUATED? That's insane, where do you work!?" Whatever. Okay.

So there was a conversation about like, food and preferences. So I just asked him! I just asked him: (in Korean, pronoucing "asparagus" as a Korean loan word) "Hey, when you eat steak, do you put asparagus?"

(in English) And this BITCH. He looks at me DEAD STRAIGHT IN THE FUCKING EYES. Has the AUDACITY to just.... degrade, I guess! Ask me: (in Korean) "HAH! Hey, aren't you from America? Why are you calling it (emphasizing the Korean pronunciation of asparagus) ASPARAGUS?"

(in English, in an exaggerated stereotypical American accent) OH, I'M SORRY. I'M SORRY! Am I supposed to say ASS-PARA-GUSS? ASS-PARA-GUSS? DO I GO (says his question again in Korean, but breaks up the flow of the speech by pronouncing all the loan words with American pronunciation).

IT FUCKS THE FLOW!!! WHY ARE YOU BITCHING!? I'M TRYING TO HELP YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY! YOU MONOLINGUAL FUCK!!!!

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The thing I’ve realized about self deprecation recently is that if someone is stuck in a hole and you want to help them get out it’s generally a bad idea to throw rocks at them and for years I was both the person stuck in the hole and one of the people throwing rocks

Like you feel bad about yourself? Okay. How is insulting yourself repeatedly helping with that exactly? Find a ladder.

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flame-shadow

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

oh, Sisyphus! i got you

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elierlick

You shouldn’t have to be trans to get any sex characteristic-related surgery. It’s not a limited resource. Plenty of cis men get implants and cis women get breast reductions. From Colby Gordon today and Leslie Feinberg in Transgender Warriors (1996).

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earhartsease

fundamentally it's all just body modification and that's all good

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jenroses

Look you don't have to be dysphoric about your entire gender to be dysphoric about specific body parts. People should be able to get top surgery or a hysterectomy or whatever, on demand. For whatever reason.

Getting rid of my uterus was one of my first experiences of gender euphoria, before I knew what nonbinary was.

I asked for a breast reduction, they refused on the grounds that it was cosmetic, that my breasts weren't large enough to require a medical reduction. I boggled at that, and then said, "Fine, I'm nonbinary, we'll go the gender confirmation route." And that got the process done. I am nonbinary, but it shouldn't have taken that to get 22 fucking pounds of breast tissue removed. How goddamn large did they have to be to justify a medical reduction? My O2 sats went up after the surgery despite the post surgical binder. I medically needed them gone. I could not medically get them gone, but could do it as gender affirming care.

Someone close to me would benefit from a hysterectomy, wants a hysterectomy, and was told that her excruciating pain and excessive bleeding and exhaustion and lack of interest in future procreation was not sufficient to get a hysterectomy paid for by medicaid, but when that person said, "I'm genderfluid and I want gender affirming care" suddenly everything was covered.

And I 100% support that, even though it didn't even occur to her to think of herself as anything but female until I suggested it, but on thinking about it she decided genderfluid worked for her.

But even as a nonbinary person, I am DEEPLY disturbed that the easiest way to get essential care is to stop being female. What the everlasting fuck. Just give women hysterectomies if they want them. Same as you do for vasectomies. Someone wants smaller tits or no tits? De-vavavoom them.

And if you have to ask for gender affirming care in order to get necessary medical treatment? Go forth with my blessing.

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in hindsight, it makes a lot of sense that macklemore would happily release a free palestine song that is AS balls-out anticapitalist and antiimperialist as it is, considering in 2011 he won a grammy with a song all about being poor and spending your money wisely while still being cool and looking fresh, bemoaning blind consumption.

it was a small domino to start with, sure, but the trail is there.

yes!

and that person just happened to be the person who is currently the most celebrated rapper in the world, Kendrick Lamar! he was apologizing for winning over Good Kid, M.a.a.d. City!

“You got robbed. I wanted you to win. You should have. It’s weird and it sucks that I robbed you.”

funny enough, he did NOT apologize to the other artists, and two of them are Drake and Kanye, which is EXTRA hilarious considering how well that decision also aged.

a lot of people are bringing up a very good point:

Macklemore has been an ally this whole fucking time, making whole songs dedicated to LGBT and BLM stuff. nobody ever talked shit about him for anything other than being uber-corny.

i think now that we're in the post-cringe era there's a lot of people remembering where we left him and thinking "oh fuck im so sorry white boy"

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went to a discussion led by elliot page earlier today and there were many good things said but at one point the other presenter asked him "what's a cool thing about yourself that has nothing to do with being trans?" and he said "uhh this is all I've got going for me" and then paused before adding "if anyone has three oranges, I can juggle"

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one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

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